"It was just organic."

It's amazing how I can go from being in an elated mood to a shitty one when my mind lingers on things I don't want to visualize. My stomach is growling but I feel like throwing up and crying. I'll just go to sleep.

I always tell myself that I'm not going to eat the next day.

And then I do and I feel like a fat fucking failure. I feel so bloated right now, and I never feel bloated. I don't want to eat tomorrow. At all.