Tights

So in lieu of going to the gym today because I just have so much work to do, I'm going to do some ab workouts later today. My diet so far today has consisted of half a grapefruit with sugar (my mom got worried when I told her I was using Equal so I switched), 2 slices of cantaloupe, and 1 medium-sized banana. For lunch all I had was a cup of grapes and also one banana. I think if I can abstain from eating not much else I'll be good, and tomorrow I'm planning on going to the gym around 2 or 3 and busting out at least 45 minutes on the elliptical, which should be around 500 calories for me. One thing I do want to talk about is tights, and one style in particular.

I'm of course talking about these:

They're everywhere! I swear to god every single skinny

girl got together and decided to get a pair of these.

I've yet to see one on a girl that was over a size 3.

 

 

And all of these pictures are from my own thinspo alone! There must be dozens more around the net. So I've set this pair of tights as my prize for when I finally reach my UGW. I think I would be doing these stockings a disservice if I were to wear them as I am right now.

Well, if anything else exciting happens to me today, you'll be the first to know. If not, then I'll be back tomorrow.

~Toni

So Far Today is Meh

I'm having mixed feelings about the day so far. I got up at 8 am to go to the gym with some friends and worked out from 9-10. It was a pretty good workout too. I did the elliptical, some ab workouts and squats, and then got on a cycle. The problem is I mixed up the times of my classes on Tuesdays and Wednesdays, so instead of getting back on time, taking a shower, and getting to class by 11, I actually missed my 10 am class. Fuck.

But on a good note I did burn at least 350 calories at the gym. For breakfast beforehand I only had two small banana nut muffins because the dining hall saw fit to be out of actual bananas.

Aaaand on another bad note I don't seem to be losing much weight. At all. It's getting really frustrating, especially since I've been eating much less now that I'm back on campus than I was before break. I think it's because I intend to go on different eating regimens, a special event comes up, I screw up by eating too much, then instead of getting back on with the diet I had I just pick another. Blaghhhhh, I need to stop that. I will be going to the gym more often though since me, my friends Jenna and Liz, and my boyfriend Aaron signed up for a fitness program at the university. Pretty much all you do is keep track of the minutes you work out between now and March 20, and if all the team members do more than 1500 minutes you get free t-shirts and get entered into a raffle for some pretty good prizes like workout gear, bookstore gift cards, stuff like that. I'm pumped to see how many hours I can log.

But enough ranting, it's thinspo time. Lord knows I need it...

Until next time,
Toni

Edit: I almost forgot! I have two new followers. Thanks guys, that actually made my day a little brighter. =)

Thinspo

So because I said I'd put some up and I didn't, today there's extra thinspo. Enjoy. =)

I Need a Fresh Start

So #1. I'm sorry I haven't posted in a week. I've been so busy with the start of school I haven't had much time to be on my laptop at all. And #2 I feel like shit. The past week has been the same every single day: I eat a piece of fruit (a banana or 1/2 a grapefruit) and a cup of tea, then something light for lunch (soup or salad), then spaz and eat pizza or a burger for dinner. And to top ot off, today my boyfriend said I had a chubby face! I mean, he said he wouldn't like it if I had a slim face, but it stung just the same, so I'm extra determined to get back on track. I've started a 3-day-a-week workout regimine with my friend at the university gym, and I'm going to try starting a raw fruit/vegetable diet. So mostly fresh fruit and salads. I've been good on drinking a lot of water and tea thus far, and I may start doing that MK point system. Meh, I'll see how it goes, but first I have to start off with 8 hours of sleep. I did want to post some thinspo, but I'm super tired, so I'll post some later in the day. Oh and I noticed I have a new follower. Thank you! =)

Good night all,
Toni

Hello All =)

So I noticed today that I have 3 new followers! Thank you guys for taking the time to follow and read my blog. It really does make my day when I see that people are interested in what I have to say, and really you guys are the only ones I can talk to about what I'm going through. Sure I can make a comment or two in passing to my friends, but I certainly can't tell them to check out my blog. So the 3-Day Diet hasn't been working out that well. I've been doing ok with breakfast and lunch. It's dinner that has been neing a bitch to me. I just can't stop myself from eating a full plate of pasta and then a brownie. Ugh it's so frustrating! The good news is that I'm sick with a sore throat. Well, maybe it's not so great but it does mean that solid food makes me want to puke, so I'm sticking to a strictly water, tea, and soup diet. All I've had so far today is 2 cups of green tea, 2 cups of water, and about 120 calories' worth of vegan chili. It feels ok, but I'm learning to dislike the feeling of being full. The problem is I don't like the feeling of being hungry yet either. I'm going to have to find a good balance between filling myself up with liquid and just enough food to tie me over through the day.

But to end on a good note I'm posting more thinspo. =)

Love these legs!: 

Day 1 of the 3-Day Diet

I feel like I've eaten so much! I had to improvise on a few things because the dining hall wasn't fully stocked with the food they normally have. So here's what the first day is supposed to look like:

Breakfast:Black Coffee or Tea w/1-2 packets of Sweet & Low or Equal
1/2 Grapefruit or Juice
1 piece of Toast with 1 Tbsp. Peanut Butter

Lunch:
1/2 Cup of Tuna
1 Toast
Black Coffee or Tea w/1-2 packets of Sweet & Low or Equal (optional)

Dinner:
3 Oz. any lean meat or chicken
1 cup green beans or other green vegetable
1 cup carrots
1 apple
1 cup regular vanilla ice cream (optional)
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I had...
Brunch
2 cups of water
1/2 cup of green tea with 1 packet of Equal
1 piece of sweet french bread toast with peanut butter
1 green apple

Snack
1 sheet of dried, salted seaweed

Dinner
1 cup of water
1/2 stalk of celery
2 pieces of steamed broccoli with salt and pepper
2 oz beef roast
1 piece of sourdough bread toast with margerine
1 macademia nut cookie
2 redvines


I kind of mixed lunch and dinner together, and I did a little walking downtown so I might
be fine. I just feel so full.


But anyway, I said I'd put up some thinspo today, and here it is:

 I found another picture of that girl Harlow and I like:

I'm not sure if I like it as much as the other one, but her body still looks perfect.

 I wish my legs looked this good in metallic leggings:

So that's it for today I think. I don't think I'll be eating anything else today,
but if I do I'll update the post.

Have a great night,
Toni

P.S. - I'm messing around with the look of the blog. I think it looks ok this way, but I
may tweak a few more things.

Today Was Kind of a Big Day

I got my first follower! Thank you. =)
And my first comment, also a thank you. Your support means a lot, plus I feel like I'm no longer writing in a diary to myself. ^__^

So today I came back to college, and so far it's been nice. Almost no one, including my boyfriend, is back yet. Out of about 40 floor mates only 6 are back, but no doubt the rest will be here tomorrow. I'm kind of excited for this quarter, but I'm sure it'll be harder than fall quarter. I think the biggest change is the fact that I'm taking my weight seriously now. One of the first things I did when I got to Santa Cruz was buy a scale. I get so off track if I don't have a number to rely on. Also I've decided to commit to my own version of the 3-day diet for 6 days and fast on the 7th.

Here's the meal plan with my changes in red:


Instructions:
Drink at least 4 glasses of water a day.
You can add any of these spices and condiments: salt, herbs, lemon, pepper, vinegar, Worcestershire, soy sauce, mustard & ketchup to your foods.


Day 1:

Breakfast:
Black Coffee or Tea w/1-2 packets of Sweet & Low or Equal
1/2 Grapefruit or Juice
1 piece of Toast with 1 Tbsp. Peanut Butter

Lunch:
1/2 Cup of Tuna
1 Toast
Black Coffee or Tea w/1-2 packets of Sweet & Low or Equal (optional)

Dinner:
3 Oz. any lean meat or chicken
1 cup green beans or other green vegetable
1 cup carrots
1 apple
1 cup regular vanilla ice cream (optional)


Day 2:

Breakfast:
Black coffee or tea w/1-2 packets of Sweet & Low or Equal
1 Egg
1/2 Banana
1 piece of Toast

Lunch:
1 cup cottage cheese or tuna
8 regular saltine crackers

Dinner:
2 beef franks
1 cup broccoli or cabbage or any steamed vegetable
1/2 cup carrots
1/2 banana
1/2 cup regular vanilla ice cream (optional)


Day 3:

Breakfast:
Black coffee or tea w/1-2 packets of Sweet & Low or Equal
5 regular saltine crackers
1 oz. cheddar cheese (optional)
1 apple

Lunch:
1 boiled egg
1 toast
Black coffee or tea w/1-2 packets of Sweet & Low or Equal (optional)

Dinner:
1 cup tuna
1 cup carrots
1 cup cauliflower or other raw vegetable
1 cup melon
1/2 cup regular vanilla ice cream (optional)


Repeat once, fast on the 7th day




So yeah, wish me luck on that one. I think it's easy enough to stick to, except for the 2 hot dogs. I've tried the ABC diet in the past, but I'm terrible about keeping track of calories. I just try to eat as little as possible. I started out ok today with an egg white omelet and fruit, but I skipped lunch and wolfed down an entire pepperoni calzone and cake batter ice cream. I'll be lucky if it's not over 2500 calories.

So I've been trying to find some new thinspo to inspire me that hasn't circulated as well around the blogging community, but it's difficult. Once an image is out there, it's pretty much used to it's maximum, and it doesn't help that only a very small percentage of thinspo appeals to me. I prefer real girl, not too skinny (as in being able to see all of the ribs), and with at least one body part on display. I gravitate towards bikini photos, mirror pictures, stuff like that, and never before/after shots. They are inspiring, but I quite like end results more.

I did try to post a few pictues, but they got cut off. I promise they'll go up tomorrow, though. There are some that I just love.

Well I'm tired. I woke up at 7 am and I need sleep!


Good night all,
Toni

Happy 1st Day of the New Year

So I'm thinking of joining a few blogrings or posting on some other blogs about my site because I'm still my only reader, sigh... And to top it off my New Year has only been going so-so. I don't feel great or miserable, yet. I spent my last day of 2010 in Sacramento with Aaron. We went to the mall, saw Tron in IMAX 3D, and then ate in the gay district (his dad drove us to his favorite diner there). To end the night, though, Aaron lost his phone, and ont he day before we head back to college no doubt. Plus my eating is getting out of control. I must have eaten at least fifteen Redvines today! I attribute it to the fact that I won't have all of my parents' great food around in Santa Cruz but I really need to get back on track, so I spent most of the day gathering more thinspo for my albums. I decided to post some here, not that anyone besides me will be seeing them as of yet.

One of my favorites:

Well, Happy New Year...