I'm sorry that I haven't been updating as frequently as I'd like for you all. My week has consisted of 10% class, 20% sleep, and 70% Oliver, who sleeps over and I have class with so...you get the picture.
I'm going to have to find a nice medium soon so I can actually get things done. It's just very difficult to concentrate on anything else except the guy I love but haven't seen in nearly a month.
I've started going back to the gym and counting my calories. Granted, I've been doing extremely light workouts and haven't kept a tight track on my food, but it's a start. I went grocery shopping Sunday night and got lots of healthy things. Oatmeal, dried fruit, grapes, snap peas, carrots, frozen veggies, radishes, and bok choy. It's not a lot, and I just got my last paycheck from home so I'll be getting lots more good stuff this weekend. Does anyone have any suggestions? I was thinking I'd get some nuts, some sort of low cal spread, low cal crackers, more fruits and veggies, possibly yogurt, soups, and popsicles. Please please please message me some safe foods that you all enjoy. I'd really like some ideas.
I have good news. Last time I got on the scale I saw 119.75 lbs. I am very happy with that number. I'm definitely going to the gym tomorrow morning to see if it's gone down any further, but this is the least I've weighed since I was 14, and I'm only 1.75 lbs away from that weight. I am so ready to get to my UGW you have no idea. Ugh! I'm excited. =)
♥ Toni
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Friday, January 13, 2012
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Don't know what to do with myself.
Hey y'all. Just wanted to stop in for a quick update. So I've lost approximately 1.5 lbs since coming home. I was down to 121 but that's if I don't eat much all day and then weigh myself in the morning on a growling tummy. Meh. Oh well. Believe it or not I'm actually too busy with all this Christmas planning to pay attention to what I'm eating. I'm just sticking to eating the least amount I can get away with, which was slightly difficult this past weekend.
I went to Oliver's hometown to visit him and meet his family. They were all very nice and I got to attend their Christmas party, with food galore. Plus Oliver took me out to lunch sooooooo, lots and lots of food. I'm still reeling from the after effects of it all.
But seeing him was so great. I miss him terribly, probably even more so now because I got to spend that weekend with him. I cannot wait for this break to be over and go back to school. A month of celibacy is...well, not something I would do by choice, if you catch my drift.
I need to find some time soon to actually post something that's not about my love life. I mean for God's sake this is my ED blog. But I guess I'm not feeling so disordered at the moment. Tis good I suppose, but I really want to get down to 118 by the end of break. I haven't even touched my running shoes since I got home. It's just so cold and I'm so busy. =/
Well, I hope to update again soon with something interesting. Until then, I'll be catching up on blogs, still. haha
♥ Toni
I went to Oliver's hometown to visit him and meet his family. They were all very nice and I got to attend their Christmas party, with food galore. Plus Oliver took me out to lunch sooooooo, lots and lots of food. I'm still reeling from the after effects of it all.
But seeing him was so great. I miss him terribly, probably even more so now because I got to spend that weekend with him. I cannot wait for this break to be over and go back to school. A month of celibacy is...well, not something I would do by choice, if you catch my drift.
I need to find some time soon to actually post something that's not about my love life. I mean for God's sake this is my ED blog. But I guess I'm not feeling so disordered at the moment. Tis good I suppose, but I really want to get down to 118 by the end of break. I haven't even touched my running shoes since I got home. It's just so cold and I'm so busy. =/
Well, I hope to update again soon with something interesting. Until then, I'll be catching up on blogs, still. haha
♥ Toni
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
I'm short. I know.
30 Day Challenge
Day two- How tall are you? Do you like your height?
I'm 5 feet tall. That's it. Not an inch taller. And to be honest I wish I were even two or three inches taller. Jeans would fit better, boots would look better on me, and I could get away with being just a few lbs heavier. And I guess I can get away with wearing heels of any height, but I don't even like heels. Dancing with Aaron, who is 6'2", is a nightmare. The upside is that I really do look much smaller compared to most other people because of how short I am. I've been this height since I was 10, so I really don't know anything else.
So today pretty much nothing really exciting happened. Aaron and I did got out and have some us time out on the outskirts of town, but that's really it. And that's good because we've been arguing lately.
Tomorrow I'm seeing Friends With Benefits with Jenna and we're going to check out this new sushi place in our hometown. I haven't had sushi since I met up with Olivia at the end of school (and that place wasn't even that good so I'll have to take her out to some much more well trusted sushi places come this fall) and I'm excited to have some again, plus this place has some pretty good reviews.
Food was kind of good, kind of bad today. I had a small bowl of frosted flakes, some tomato and cucumber salad, three fun size snickers bars, 2 dollar scoops from Baskin Robbins, and a caramel mocha and 4 chicken nuggets from McD's. It's less than I was eating but still more than I should be eating. Hopefully tomorrow I'll get away with some strawberries until sushi time. I weighed in at 123.5 lbs, but I'm gonna play the blame game on my period. I don't like to do that but it makes me feel better.
Oh well, time for bed. Hope you all are having good summer days. And good luck if any of you are trying to get into Pottermore! I'm ElmPixie52!
♥ Toni
P.S.- Awkward is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much better than Secret Life when it comes to portraying sex, plus it's funny!
Day two- How tall are you? Do you like your height?
I'm 5 feet tall. That's it. Not an inch taller. And to be honest I wish I were even two or three inches taller. Jeans would fit better, boots would look better on me, and I could get away with being just a few lbs heavier. And I guess I can get away with wearing heels of any height, but I don't even like heels. Dancing with Aaron, who is 6'2", is a nightmare. The upside is that I really do look much smaller compared to most other people because of how short I am. I've been this height since I was 10, so I really don't know anything else.
So today pretty much nothing really exciting happened. Aaron and I did got out and have some us time out on the outskirts of town, but that's really it. And that's good because we've been arguing lately.
Tomorrow I'm seeing Friends With Benefits with Jenna and we're going to check out this new sushi place in our hometown. I haven't had sushi since I met up with Olivia at the end of school (and that place wasn't even that good so I'll have to take her out to some much more well trusted sushi places come this fall) and I'm excited to have some again, plus this place has some pretty good reviews.
Food was kind of good, kind of bad today. I had a small bowl of frosted flakes, some tomato and cucumber salad, three fun size snickers bars, 2 dollar scoops from Baskin Robbins, and a caramel mocha and 4 chicken nuggets from McD's. It's less than I was eating but still more than I should be eating. Hopefully tomorrow I'll get away with some strawberries until sushi time. I weighed in at 123.5 lbs, but I'm gonna play the blame game on my period. I don't like to do that but it makes me feel better.
Oh well, time for bed. Hope you all are having good summer days. And good luck if any of you are trying to get into Pottermore! I'm ElmPixie52!
♥ Toni
P.S.- Awkward is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much better than Secret Life when it comes to portraying sex, plus it's funny!
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Tired, tan, and thinner(ish).
Sorry for not posting yesterday. I was too upset. My dad and I got into a dumb fight over walking home from Dollar Scoop with my sister and I was just pissed off for most of the night. Plus I went over my calorie limit, but that's kind of assumed when it's a 300 calorie day. I totaled 530 calories, 230 over the limit. Oh well.
Today I was better. Breakfast was a laughing cow cheese wedge and 10 almonds (105 cal). And then I didn't eat again until after I came home from my parents' farm and did some exercise around 2pm. I had a toasted peanut butter and jelly sandwich (285 cal), 10 strawberries (20 cal), 2 carrots (15 cal), and half of a pumpkin muffin (90 cal). And I just had some Honey Bunches of Oats a few hours ago (240 cal). I did a good hour and 25 minutes of OnDemand cardio, yoga and pilates and burned off 400 calories. My intake today was 755 and my net intake was 355 calories, so 45 under my limit. Yay. =)
I'm getting very excited for the pool party my friend Taylor is throwing on Friday. Aaron will be there, I'm happy with my tan, and the scale said an even 120 on it today (even despite there being about 32 oz of water and a sandwich in my tummy). Only three more lbs and I'll officially be at a new lowest weight. 118 is the lowest ever weighed in a relatively adult body. It hasn't changed at all in height or overall shape since I was 13. I've been 5 feet and an hourglass since I hit puberty. Yesterday I ran into a girl from my HS dance team that I hadn't seen in two years and she said I looked really good and fit, so if she noticed then I'm eager to see what everyone else will notice too.
Olivia: Yeah I drank a TON of water today. I probably had a few glasses over 2 liters and I feel a lot better.
Camille: Oh yeah I remember you blogging about the water retention. The soreness has gone away a bit, so I think whatever swelling I had has gone down, but who knows? I've been drinking a lot of water so maybe my muscles will just fuck with me and decide to keep it all in. =/
Christy: Yes, very painful.
Amber: Well we don't actually live on a farm. My family lives in the 'burbs and my parents only got into farming about 5 years back, so they leased some land about 20 minutes away but I think that makes it even more challenging to maintain. They wouldn't mind moving out there to live there full time, but personally I'm fine living in the only house I've been in the past 19 years. haha
Sorry for no thinspo today, again I have work tomorrow. Six days in a row I have workworkwork. Greaaaaaaat. And I don't even get paid from my actual job until next Thursday. And I've got no clue when my parents will have the money to pay me. Ugh anyway I'm very tired. I got up at 5:30 am to get to the farm before the heat took over, so I'm worn out.
Hope everyone's day was a good summer day.
♥ Toni
P.S.-Thank you Shauna Nicholson for following! You brought me up to 68 today. =)
Today I was better. Breakfast was a laughing cow cheese wedge and 10 almonds (105 cal). And then I didn't eat again until after I came home from my parents' farm and did some exercise around 2pm. I had a toasted peanut butter and jelly sandwich (285 cal), 10 strawberries (20 cal), 2 carrots (15 cal), and half of a pumpkin muffin (90 cal). And I just had some Honey Bunches of Oats a few hours ago (240 cal). I did a good hour and 25 minutes of OnDemand cardio, yoga and pilates and burned off 400 calories. My intake today was 755 and my net intake was 355 calories, so 45 under my limit. Yay. =)
I'm getting very excited for the pool party my friend Taylor is throwing on Friday. Aaron will be there, I'm happy with my tan, and the scale said an even 120 on it today (even despite there being about 32 oz of water and a sandwich in my tummy). Only three more lbs and I'll officially be at a new lowest weight. 118 is the lowest ever weighed in a relatively adult body. It hasn't changed at all in height or overall shape since I was 13. I've been 5 feet and an hourglass since I hit puberty. Yesterday I ran into a girl from my HS dance team that I hadn't seen in two years and she said I looked really good and fit, so if she noticed then I'm eager to see what everyone else will notice too.
Olivia: Yeah I drank a TON of water today. I probably had a few glasses over 2 liters and I feel a lot better.
Camille: Oh yeah I remember you blogging about the water retention. The soreness has gone away a bit, so I think whatever swelling I had has gone down, but who knows? I've been drinking a lot of water so maybe my muscles will just fuck with me and decide to keep it all in. =/
Christy: Yes, very painful.
Amber: Well we don't actually live on a farm. My family lives in the 'burbs and my parents only got into farming about 5 years back, so they leased some land about 20 minutes away but I think that makes it even more challenging to maintain. They wouldn't mind moving out there to live there full time, but personally I'm fine living in the only house I've been in the past 19 years. haha
Sorry for no thinspo today, again I have work tomorrow. Six days in a row I have workworkwork. Greaaaaaaat. And I don't even get paid from my actual job until next Thursday. And I've got no clue when my parents will have the money to pay me. Ugh anyway I'm very tired. I got up at 5:30 am to get to the farm before the heat took over, so I'm worn out.
Hope everyone's day was a good summer day.
♥ Toni
P.S.-Thank you Shauna Nicholson for following! You brought me up to 68 today. =)
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Disappointed in my body.
So today I had work and I decided all I would have was coffee and water until I got home. I thought I'd be down at least a half lb, but nooooooooo, my body decided to be a little rebel and gain to 121.5 lbs. Well, maybe when I weigh myself tomorrow morning I'll be smaller.
Boy did I think I was sore last night. Today was so much worse. Climbing stairs was painful. My thighs, obliques, and butt are screaming. Today my mom said how skinny my legs look and gave them a little squeeze and I gasped in pain. I guess I worked harder than I thought I did. And guess what? I did it again today. I'm guessing I burned maybe 185 calories, but again I'm downplaying it.
So food was coffee this morning (10 cal), and a fun size twix (80 cal) plus bite of cookie dough (35 cal) when I got home. Despite my mom using Crisco in her cookies, most of everything else is fairly healthy. Almond meal, oats, and unbleached flour among other things. Plus they taste great. We went to Carl's Jr. for dinner and I got a Cranberry Walnut Salad with grilled chicken. I only used half of the raspberry vinaigrette and feta cheese, so instead of a 360 calorie salad it was more like 305. And then I had a super small piece of my mom's cheese cake (55 cal) So my total intake today was 485 and my net intake was 300 calories. I'm glad I'm finding the energy to actually keep up with the SGD, and your lovely comments and support really help push me along. =)
Camille: No I don't live in the UK, California is my house and home. I guess Xfinity is a subset of Comcast, so maybe that rings more of a bell? And thank you for the support. You and your hubby are totally adorable. =)
So yeah my day hasn't been too exciting...at all. I hope I have more to talk about tomorrow. I gotta go to bed soon though, I'm getting up early to go to my parents' farm. Oh joy...
I really want to eat a whole bakery right now.
♥ Toni
Boy did I think I was sore last night. Today was so much worse. Climbing stairs was painful. My thighs, obliques, and butt are screaming. Today my mom said how skinny my legs look and gave them a little squeeze and I gasped in pain. I guess I worked harder than I thought I did. And guess what? I did it again today. I'm guessing I burned maybe 185 calories, but again I'm downplaying it.
So food was coffee this morning (10 cal), and a fun size twix (80 cal) plus bite of cookie dough (35 cal) when I got home. Despite my mom using Crisco in her cookies, most of everything else is fairly healthy. Almond meal, oats, and unbleached flour among other things. Plus they taste great. We went to Carl's Jr. for dinner and I got a Cranberry Walnut Salad with grilled chicken. I only used half of the raspberry vinaigrette and feta cheese, so instead of a 360 calorie salad it was more like 305. And then I had a super small piece of my mom's cheese cake (55 cal) So my total intake today was 485 and my net intake was 300 calories. I'm glad I'm finding the energy to actually keep up with the SGD, and your lovely comments and support really help push me along. =)
Camille: No I don't live in the UK, California is my house and home. I guess Xfinity is a subset of Comcast, so maybe that rings more of a bell? And thank you for the support. You and your hubby are totally adorable. =)
So yeah my day hasn't been too exciting...at all. I hope I have more to talk about tomorrow. I gotta go to bed soon though, I'm getting up early to go to my parents' farm. Oh joy...
I really want to eat a whole bakery right now.
♥ Toni
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Happy Father's Day (you know, because tons of my followers are dads, tee hee)
But seriously, I think this year was a pretty alright Father's Day. I got my dad a shirt from my university. :D
Like yesterday, I stayed on track again today. Part of that is due to the television believe it or not. I came home for summer to find that my parents switched to Xfinity and now we have On Demand, which means free exercise programs. I did, in total, probably an hour or so of pilates, cardio, abs, and thigh exercises. Now my inner thighs and glutes are sore, which is good. They haven't been sore in a long time.
I took my parents and sister out to a move for Father's Day. Now that I'm back to working I get the privilege of seeing free movies, so all I paid for was popcorn (if I had paid for all of us it would have been over $40!) We saw X-Men: First Class and I LOVED it. It was one of the best prequels I've ever seen. It was loads better than the Wolverine film. The story and acting was absolutely great.
Food was under my limit. My parents offered to cook my up eggs this morning but I just had a piece of french bread toast and butter (125 cal) with coffee (10 cal) and strawberries (25 cal). Then I didn't eat again until dinner before the movie. I ate 3.5 oz of tri tip (170 cal), a small potato with sour cream (70 cal), another piece of french bread toast (grilled with no butter; 80 cal), a few bites of caesar salad (25 cal), and a desert of my mom's home made cheese cake (130 cal). Then I had about a fifth of the small popcorn at the movies (145 cal). I'm downplaying the amount of calories I burned to 225 because I really have no clue how much I burned, but I know I was sweating! I'm sure I burned more, but better safe than sorry, right? So my total intake today was 780 and my net intake was 555 calories. Aaaaaand I weighed in at 121.25 lbs. Good day. =)
Other miscellaneous things I did today was clean out all of my thinspo folders. Some times the old stuff just doesn't elicit the same response from me, so I got rid of like 250 photos and added some more from tumblr. A lot of fitspo, which I'm really getting into, as are a few other bloggers I'm noticing.
Like yesterday, I stayed on track again today. Part of that is due to the television believe it or not. I came home for summer to find that my parents switched to Xfinity and now we have On Demand, which means free exercise programs. I did, in total, probably an hour or so of pilates, cardio, abs, and thigh exercises. Now my inner thighs and glutes are sore, which is good. They haven't been sore in a long time.
I took my parents and sister out to a move for Father's Day. Now that I'm back to working I get the privilege of seeing free movies, so all I paid for was popcorn (if I had paid for all of us it would have been over $40!) We saw X-Men: First Class and I LOVED it. It was one of the best prequels I've ever seen. It was loads better than the Wolverine film. The story and acting was absolutely great.
Food was under my limit. My parents offered to cook my up eggs this morning but I just had a piece of french bread toast and butter (125 cal) with coffee (10 cal) and strawberries (25 cal). Then I didn't eat again until dinner before the movie. I ate 3.5 oz of tri tip (170 cal), a small potato with sour cream (70 cal), another piece of french bread toast (grilled with no butter; 80 cal), a few bites of caesar salad (25 cal), and a desert of my mom's home made cheese cake (130 cal). Then I had about a fifth of the small popcorn at the movies (145 cal). I'm downplaying the amount of calories I burned to 225 because I really have no clue how much I burned, but I know I was sweating! I'm sure I burned more, but better safe than sorry, right? So my total intake today was 780 and my net intake was 555 calories. Aaaaaand I weighed in at 121.25 lbs. Good day. =)
Other miscellaneous things I did today was clean out all of my thinspo folders. Some times the old stuff just doesn't elicit the same response from me, so I got rid of like 250 photos and added some more from tumblr. A lot of fitspo, which I'm really getting into, as are a few other bloggers I'm noticing.
I love her body
Sooooo taaaaaaaan
And a hello to hey.haha.Thanks for joining. ^_^
Shrinking Violet: Thank you! I'd really like to get rid of the rest of the little pooch on my belly but overall I think the difference in my body is really noticeable.And yes I thought JGL was so gorgeous in Inception, especially in all those suits.
Amber: Haha thanks for understanding my screen rant. And yeas, every day does make a difference. I'm glad I didn't decide to just keep screwing up because of one bad week.
Christy: Really? The whole time I was thinking "boy, I really want some chocolate, and gummi candy, and whipped cream, and sugar, and allthecandyintheworld!"
Sammy and Ulla: Doesn't Nolan just make the best movies? He's definitely my favorite modern director.
Shrinking Violet: Thank you! I'd really like to get rid of the rest of the little pooch on my belly but overall I think the difference in my body is really noticeable.And yes I thought JGL was so gorgeous in Inception, especially in all those suits.
Amber: Haha thanks for understanding my screen rant. And yeas, every day does make a difference. I'm glad I didn't decide to just keep screwing up because of one bad week.
Christy: Really? The whole time I was thinking "boy, I really want some chocolate, and gummi candy, and whipped cream, and sugar, and allthecandyintheworld!"
Sammy and Ulla: Doesn't Nolan just make the best movies? He's definitely my favorite modern director.
Hope you ladies are having a good day (or night if you're living in the States like me). And to all the girls who are having a tough time I hope tomorrow is a fresh start and you all feel a little better.
♥ Toni
Friday, June 17, 2011
I hope this post makes sense because I'm severely tired.
Thank you Savanna, Shrinking Violet and Miwo for joining my blog. =)
I can't believe I'm up to 65 followers. I feel bad that I haven't updated in 4 days and people are still signing up to follow, but I'm very grateful for you lovelies.
SGD has bee such a total and complete bust. I've only had one good day. Today was 730 calories total. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that I'm not going to the gym. I would be running but my schedule has been busy with work and on Wednesday I went on that trip to see Aaron. I had so much fun. I stayed the night at his place and...uh...played the best game of doctor ever. And then the next day we went to a water park. The best part? I felt good in my new black bikini (oh yeah I bought a new bathing suit, bras, running shoes, and lacy panties on Tuesday with Jenna). I didn't feel like a fat whale for the first time in my life. You know how girl always compare themselves to other girls at water parks? I felt like one of those girls that some might compare themselves to, and Aaron not being able to keep his hands off me boosted my confidence as well. And one of my closest friends is having a start of summer pool party in a week, so I want to lose maybe just a few more lbs before then to really feel good.
I'm up to 123 lbs, but I'm sure some of it is food still in my tummy. I go back to my actual job at the movie theater (my other one is working for my parents) tomorrow at 8:30 am. I think I'll be able to go all day without much food. I'm in a good place right now, but I know if I keep slipping up I'll gain some weight back and I don't want that to happen. Up until Wednesday I was losing about a half lb a day and I was down to 120.25 lbs, so I know if I just restrict I'll be pretty ok. I'm going to go jogging more and do some body exercises in my room to maybe make up for the fact that I don't have a gym membership and probably wouldn't be able to go much if I got one anyway.
I promise I'll post more tomorrow. I'm so tired and need to get up early for work. I'll post pictures of thinspo, lots of it. Oh and I think I can finally do before/after pictures. I've been meaning to do that...ugh ok going to bed. I've read most of your updates from the past few days and will read the rest tomorrow. =)
♥ Toni
I can't believe I'm up to 65 followers. I feel bad that I haven't updated in 4 days and people are still signing up to follow, but I'm very grateful for you lovelies.
SGD has bee such a total and complete bust. I've only had one good day. Today was 730 calories total. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that I'm not going to the gym. I would be running but my schedule has been busy with work and on Wednesday I went on that trip to see Aaron. I had so much fun. I stayed the night at his place and...uh...played the best game of doctor ever. And then the next day we went to a water park. The best part? I felt good in my new black bikini (oh yeah I bought a new bathing suit, bras, running shoes, and lacy panties on Tuesday with Jenna). I didn't feel like a fat whale for the first time in my life. You know how girl always compare themselves to other girls at water parks? I felt like one of those girls that some might compare themselves to, and Aaron not being able to keep his hands off me boosted my confidence as well. And one of my closest friends is having a start of summer pool party in a week, so I want to lose maybe just a few more lbs before then to really feel good.
I'm up to 123 lbs, but I'm sure some of it is food still in my tummy. I go back to my actual job at the movie theater (my other one is working for my parents) tomorrow at 8:30 am. I think I'll be able to go all day without much food. I'm in a good place right now, but I know if I keep slipping up I'll gain some weight back and I don't want that to happen. Up until Wednesday I was losing about a half lb a day and I was down to 120.25 lbs, so I know if I just restrict I'll be pretty ok. I'm going to go jogging more and do some body exercises in my room to maybe make up for the fact that I don't have a gym membership and probably wouldn't be able to go much if I got one anyway.
I promise I'll post more tomorrow. I'm so tired and need to get up early for work. I'll post pictures of thinspo, lots of it. Oh and I think I can finally do before/after pictures. I've been meaning to do that...ugh ok going to bed. I've read most of your updates from the past few days and will read the rest tomorrow. =)
♥ Toni
Monday, June 13, 2011
Where has my will power gone?
Man, I don't understand how some girls can lose 3-4 lbs per week. I'm lucky if I lose 1 lb a week and 5 lbs in a month, but I guess I'm getting to the point where I'm small enough that I don't lose weight as quickly as I used to. Needless to say I've been fucking up the SGD. I feel like at this point I'm just eating what I want and not caring that I'm even on the SGD. I couldn't even stay in the limits for Saturday and Sunday. Actually, I don't even know how much I ate Sunday. That was the day I came home from college, so today was my first full day back home for the summer. But anyway yesterday I had half of a pepperoni calzone, a raspberry lemonade, a scoop of raspberry cheesecake ice cream, and a pork springroll. Only 4 things with calories and I'm sure it totaled over 1000. Sigh...at least this time last week I was a solid 125 lbs and today I fluctuated between 122.5 and 123.5. I count that as good.
Food-wise, today was slightly better. I worked up a sweat unpacking in this heat and I went for a little run before dinner. So that's gotta count for something. I tried not to eat too much before dinner. I find that when I'm home it's fairly easy for me to eat little throughout the day until dinner, and then I only eat a moderate portion of food. It usually has pretty good results and I lose weight. So today I had coffee with sugar and creamer (totally not my usual fat free milk and Equal; 55 cal), a home made cookie (90 cal), 6 Triscuits (120 cal), and 15 strawberries (25 cal). The strawberries are from my parent's farm and I haven't had them in so long. They tasted heavenly and will probably be one of my major safe foods all summer. I especially like to eat them when I'm picking them for the markets we do. So anyway around came dinner. Grilled everything. 2.5 oz grilled chicken (105 cal), grilled lettuce (20 cal), 3 pieces of grilled sourdough baguette (140 cal), and miscellaneous bites of food throughout the day (140 cal). Plus I walked/ran 2.1 mi around my neighborhood. 5 minutes of that was walking (-22 cal) and 18 minutes of that was running at 6 mi/hr (-168 cal), so a total of 190 calories burned. This would put me at exactly 450 calories, but then I had a home made strawberry milkshake. I want to say that's 230 calories. So my total intake for the day was 870 and my net intake was 680 calories. Blah. I really need to start controlling this food thing.
Fat chance. I went grocery shopping with my mom today and we bought bagels, cream cheese, rootbeer and Shasta Tiki Punch soda, Choco Tacos, and Klondike Bars. Good news: I had her get nonfat milk (for my coffee, whoop!), reduced fat cream cheese, celery, skinny cow spreadable swiss, and turkey. There was some other stuff too but I most likely won't eat a lot of it.
Tomorrow's plan of attack: waking up around 7:30 to take an hour long walk/run, come back and shower, pick up Jenna around 10 to go shopping (for new bras, running shoes, and dance attire for my summer classes), then go to class and come home. Hopefully food won't be in there much.
And another very good thing happened last night/today. Ok, so there's something you have to know about my parents and Aaron, neither really likes the other, especially my dad and Aaron. My mom is eh about it but my dad really doesn't like him. It's not like he's a jerk or anything, he just says the wrong thing...a lot. But last night my dad said that because I'm growing up (just turned 19) and just spent a year away from home doing my own thing that he's going to be more lenient about Aaron, especially because we're not living in the same town this summer. We both grew up in out hometown but Aaron's dad had to move about 40 minutes away so we won't be spending as much time together, but my dad said it was ok if I spent the day/night over there sometimes. I was floored. I thought I'd have to convince him for weeks to let me go visit him, but there he was telling me I could right off the bat. And today I asked if I could go Wednesday night and stay until Thursday evening and he said yes! I'm so excited! And Aaron lives in a big city too, the state's capital if that gives you any clues. So I think we might go clubbing with a friends from college who also lives there. I've never gone but I have the perfect LBD that I actually look good in now.
Damn ok so this post is already long, but I have to respond to comments.
Elbar7a: I can definitely see why you've never had Coldstone. If you did you'd probably never want to leave (like me). It takes me at least a good 10 minutes to decide what I want because everything looks good (and subsequently full of calories).
Amber: Yes, Olivia Lee and I are going to the same college next year but she'll be a year ahead of me. Haha I'm glad you remember. And yeah I have the feeling most of us would get along quite well if we all met in person. In fact it wold be awesome to meet you in person. You're one of my favorites.
Olivia Lee: Ditto. The rest of my weekend was full of packing and driving and hot weather. You were definitely one of the best parts of the weekend.
Ok, that was a lot of stuff. I congratulate you if you made it through to this part. So I have some much overdue thinspo:
Food-wise, today was slightly better. I worked up a sweat unpacking in this heat and I went for a little run before dinner. So that's gotta count for something. I tried not to eat too much before dinner. I find that when I'm home it's fairly easy for me to eat little throughout the day until dinner, and then I only eat a moderate portion of food. It usually has pretty good results and I lose weight. So today I had coffee with sugar and creamer (totally not my usual fat free milk and Equal; 55 cal), a home made cookie (90 cal), 6 Triscuits (120 cal), and 15 strawberries (25 cal). The strawberries are from my parent's farm and I haven't had them in so long. They tasted heavenly and will probably be one of my major safe foods all summer. I especially like to eat them when I'm picking them for the markets we do. So anyway around came dinner. Grilled everything. 2.5 oz grilled chicken (105 cal), grilled lettuce (20 cal), 3 pieces of grilled sourdough baguette (140 cal), and miscellaneous bites of food throughout the day (140 cal). Plus I walked/ran 2.1 mi around my neighborhood. 5 minutes of that was walking (-22 cal) and 18 minutes of that was running at 6 mi/hr (-168 cal), so a total of 190 calories burned. This would put me at exactly 450 calories, but then I had a home made strawberry milkshake. I want to say that's 230 calories. So my total intake for the day was 870 and my net intake was 680 calories. Blah. I really need to start controlling this food thing.
Fat chance. I went grocery shopping with my mom today and we bought bagels, cream cheese, rootbeer and Shasta Tiki Punch soda, Choco Tacos, and Klondike Bars. Good news: I had her get nonfat milk (for my coffee, whoop!), reduced fat cream cheese, celery, skinny cow spreadable swiss, and turkey. There was some other stuff too but I most likely won't eat a lot of it.
Tomorrow's plan of attack: waking up around 7:30 to take an hour long walk/run, come back and shower, pick up Jenna around 10 to go shopping (for new bras, running shoes, and dance attire for my summer classes), then go to class and come home. Hopefully food won't be in there much.
And another very good thing happened last night/today. Ok, so there's something you have to know about my parents and Aaron, neither really likes the other, especially my dad and Aaron. My mom is eh about it but my dad really doesn't like him. It's not like he's a jerk or anything, he just says the wrong thing...a lot. But last night my dad said that because I'm growing up (just turned 19) and just spent a year away from home doing my own thing that he's going to be more lenient about Aaron, especially because we're not living in the same town this summer. We both grew up in out hometown but Aaron's dad had to move about 40 minutes away so we won't be spending as much time together, but my dad said it was ok if I spent the day/night over there sometimes. I was floored. I thought I'd have to convince him for weeks to let me go visit him, but there he was telling me I could right off the bat. And today I asked if I could go Wednesday night and stay until Thursday evening and he said yes! I'm so excited! And Aaron lives in a big city too, the state's capital if that gives you any clues. So I think we might go clubbing with a friends from college who also lives there. I've never gone but I have the perfect LBD that I actually look good in now.
Damn ok so this post is already long, but I have to respond to comments.
Elbar7a: I can definitely see why you've never had Coldstone. If you did you'd probably never want to leave (like me). It takes me at least a good 10 minutes to decide what I want because everything looks good (and subsequently full of calories).
Amber: Yes, Olivia Lee and I are going to the same college next year but she'll be a year ahead of me. Haha I'm glad you remember. And yeah I have the feeling most of us would get along quite well if we all met in person. In fact it wold be awesome to meet you in person. You're one of my favorites.
Olivia Lee: Ditto. The rest of my weekend was full of packing and driving and hot weather. You were definitely one of the best parts of the weekend.
Ok, that was a lot of stuff. I congratulate you if you made it through to this part. So I have some much overdue thinspo:
No real theme, just stuff I like and what I thought you lovelies would like.
Here's to a better tomorrow,
♥ Toni
P.S.-Welcome Kate and JT! Thank you for signing in and following this journey of mine. =D
P.S.-Welcome Kate and JT! Thank you for signing in and following this journey of mine. =D
Saturday, June 11, 2011
Tired and Full.
Boy has a lot happened in the past few hours.
First off, I want to welcome my newest followers, although in the past few days I've seen the number switch from 58 to 59 about 3 different times, so forgive me if I'm missing one or two of you. Welcome Britni Marie, Starving Artist and Adrian. Although maybe I already said hi to Adrian? Oh well if I did already then you get two!
Today has been nothing but packing while listening to A) Fleetwood Mac (Rumours) and B) Britney Spears (everything!). I'd say I'm 80% packed. All my clothes, books, shoes, and lotions are packed. School supplies, accessories and makeup are all that really remain. After I finished packing for the day I decided to take a little nap. It was only 90 minutes but the effect still hasn't worn off. It's like my body is stupid and doesn't know that I only took a nap. Instead it thinks I'm depriving it of sleep and it's making me feel like a zombie.
Food wasn't terrible. I had the fruit salad thing, went out to sushi and had some kind of veggie roll with fried something fish in it and miso soup, and then because I'm me and like to fuck things up I had Birthday Cake Remix from Coldstone (a.k.a. heaven in a cup). Total is probably around 1000 for the day. Not really that terrible, only 350 over the SGD limit. And Gianni's right, a total of 1000-1200 is better than eating a total that will make me gain.
Let me tell you about dinner. I met someone tonight. Someone a lot of you know. I dined with none other than the lovely miss Olivia Lee. She happened to be in town this weekend and we had sushi together with two of my friends from university. She. Is. Awesome. She's so cute and nice and friendly. We talked about college and summer plans (we actually only live like 2 towns over from each other) and Blogger. It was so cool meeting someone from this community, especially her because she's one of the first blogs I started to follow and she's one of my favorites. It's official, I ♥ OL.
Alright, as my post says I'm tired and full, so I'm going to head off to bed. If I have time tomorrow in between packing and going home and seeing my family again I'll post some thinspo. I went searching today for some to put up because I know I've been neglecting to post it for a while.
Nighty night lovelies,
♥ Toni
First off, I want to welcome my newest followers, although in the past few days I've seen the number switch from 58 to 59 about 3 different times, so forgive me if I'm missing one or two of you. Welcome Britni Marie, Starving Artist and Adrian. Although maybe I already said hi to Adrian? Oh well if I did already then you get two!
Today has been nothing but packing while listening to A) Fleetwood Mac (Rumours) and B) Britney Spears (everything!). I'd say I'm 80% packed. All my clothes, books, shoes, and lotions are packed. School supplies, accessories and makeup are all that really remain. After I finished packing for the day I decided to take a little nap. It was only 90 minutes but the effect still hasn't worn off. It's like my body is stupid and doesn't know that I only took a nap. Instead it thinks I'm depriving it of sleep and it's making me feel like a zombie.
Food wasn't terrible. I had the fruit salad thing, went out to sushi and had some kind of veggie roll with fried something fish in it and miso soup, and then because I'm me and like to fuck things up I had Birthday Cake Remix from Coldstone (a.k.a. heaven in a cup). Total is probably around 1000 for the day. Not really that terrible, only 350 over the SGD limit. And Gianni's right, a total of 1000-1200 is better than eating a total that will make me gain.
Let me tell you about dinner. I met someone tonight. Someone a lot of you know. I dined with none other than the lovely miss Olivia Lee. She happened to be in town this weekend and we had sushi together with two of my friends from university. She. Is. Awesome. She's so cute and nice and friendly. We talked about college and summer plans (we actually only live like 2 towns over from each other) and Blogger. It was so cool meeting someone from this community, especially her because she's one of the first blogs I started to follow and she's one of my favorites. It's official, I ♥ OL.
Alright, as my post says I'm tired and full, so I'm going to head off to bed. If I have time tomorrow in between packing and going home and seeing my family again I'll post some thinspo. I went searching today for some to put up because I know I've been neglecting to post it for a while.
Nighty night lovelies,
♥ Toni
Monday, June 6, 2011
Getting back on the SGD track.
Thank you Christy and Amber for the birthday wishes. =)
My Facebook has been overflowing with "happy birthday this" and :have an awesome birthday that." I really wasn't sure how many people would comment outside of the people I go to college with, but even my boss wished me a happy birthday.
So today after my first final (which I'm pretty sure I got an A on, it was ridiculously easy) I went to the gym like I said I would. And the damage was right there on the scale: 125 lbs. How oh how did I manage to gain 5 lbs in 5 days? It ain't possible. Must be the tons of food still in my system, so despite it being my birthday I'm restricting today for the start of the SGD. And to be honest I feel really good about it. I'm not thinking "dammit it's my birthday and I should eat whatever I want. " I'm thinking "it's my birthday and I'm getting back into the game so I can get this weight off." And it feels pretty awesome. I'm glad I wasn't begging to get off of the elliptical today, which I was on for over an hour.
But yeah other than the final, my birthday and food nothing else is really going on today. I'm watching The Piano for my film music class and continuing my search for dance classes. I don't want to spend a bunch of money to take like 3 classes a week but switching from 4 classes to 1 or 2 a week will be difficult. I just want to dance! But I have other priorities this summer. My jobs mainly. And losing more weight. I went from having to lose only 8 more lbs to get to my UGW and now I'm back to having to lose 13. I'm praying a lot of what I gained will be gone tomorrow. I'm drinking tons of water and cutting back the calories, so we'll see.
Oh and something I found out today (more dance related stuff): one of the teachers at the studio right around the corner from my house is my old HS dance team assistant coach. Erm...I don't know what it'll be like if I choose to dance there this summer. I never quite warmed up to any of my coaches back in high school. They liked to favor certain girls and I wasn't really one of them, but she was the nicest out of the three so that's good. And another one of the instructors is actually a girl in the grade below me who I remember from high school. Weird! I can't imagine taking dance classes from a girl who is younger than myself, especially since I'm not even really a beginner. We'll see, we'll see...
Ok, time for food. I was very much on track today and I plan on having nothing more to eat until after my final tomorrow and after I hit the gym again.
Breakfast was 6 oz of cream of wheat (90 cal), 1 tbsp brown sugar (35 cal), coffee with 1 tbsp skim milk (5 cal), 1/2 of a canned peach (50 cal), and 1 bagel (160 cal) with toppings of butter (30 cal) and cream cheese (50 cal). It was kind of a bigger breakfast than I'm used to. 420 calories total. Then I went to lunch around 3 because it was fresh cookie day. I had two small chocolate chip cookies (110 cal) with 4 oz of 2% milk (60 cal), some french fries (60 cal), and veggies (25 cal) with ranch (75 cal). That came to 330 calories. So my intake today was 750 calories and at the gym I burned off 760, so my net total is -10 calories for the day. Phew! Great for my first day back to restricting in almost a week.
And one last thing. I might, might follow in Amber's footsteps and post a picture or two of myself. Might. I'll admit I'm not hesitant entirely because of self esteem issues (well, maybe slightly), but you know how it can be on the internet, although I have wanted to put a face to my blog for a while now. I don't quite know what you all think I look like and if what I actually look like contradicts greatly with your imaginations. It's always interesting to see the face behind the mask, although I did choose my profile picture because I'd like to think that I look a little like Kaya Scodelario. Well, maybe we don't look a whole lot alike, but I do have brown hair, blue eyes, and freckles. And we're the same age (as of today). Maybe if my face were just thinner...oh well, stay tuned. If I do put pics up it'll be on my picture progress page. I need to take a current picture of my body so I can put up before/after pics, plus my sister just unearthed a Christmas photo of me two years ago and my face was so much fatter! Haha I'll have to put that up.
Alright ladies, gotta study for my exams. If any of you are going through finals I wish you the best of luck!
♥ Toni
My Facebook has been overflowing with "happy birthday this" and :have an awesome birthday that." I really wasn't sure how many people would comment outside of the people I go to college with, but even my boss wished me a happy birthday.
So today after my first final (which I'm pretty sure I got an A on, it was ridiculously easy) I went to the gym like I said I would. And the damage was right there on the scale: 125 lbs. How oh how did I manage to gain 5 lbs in 5 days? It ain't possible. Must be the tons of food still in my system, so despite it being my birthday I'm restricting today for the start of the SGD. And to be honest I feel really good about it. I'm not thinking "dammit it's my birthday and I should eat whatever I want. " I'm thinking "it's my birthday and I'm getting back into the game so I can get this weight off." And it feels pretty awesome. I'm glad I wasn't begging to get off of the elliptical today, which I was on for over an hour.
But yeah other than the final, my birthday and food nothing else is really going on today. I'm watching The Piano for my film music class and continuing my search for dance classes. I don't want to spend a bunch of money to take like 3 classes a week but switching from 4 classes to 1 or 2 a week will be difficult. I just want to dance! But I have other priorities this summer. My jobs mainly. And losing more weight. I went from having to lose only 8 more lbs to get to my UGW and now I'm back to having to lose 13. I'm praying a lot of what I gained will be gone tomorrow. I'm drinking tons of water and cutting back the calories, so we'll see.
Oh and something I found out today (more dance related stuff): one of the teachers at the studio right around the corner from my house is my old HS dance team assistant coach. Erm...I don't know what it'll be like if I choose to dance there this summer. I never quite warmed up to any of my coaches back in high school. They liked to favor certain girls and I wasn't really one of them, but she was the nicest out of the three so that's good. And another one of the instructors is actually a girl in the grade below me who I remember from high school. Weird! I can't imagine taking dance classes from a girl who is younger than myself, especially since I'm not even really a beginner. We'll see, we'll see...
Ok, time for food. I was very much on track today and I plan on having nothing more to eat until after my final tomorrow and after I hit the gym again.
Breakfast was 6 oz of cream of wheat (90 cal), 1 tbsp brown sugar (35 cal), coffee with 1 tbsp skim milk (5 cal), 1/2 of a canned peach (50 cal), and 1 bagel (160 cal) with toppings of butter (30 cal) and cream cheese (50 cal). It was kind of a bigger breakfast than I'm used to. 420 calories total. Then I went to lunch around 3 because it was fresh cookie day. I had two small chocolate chip cookies (110 cal) with 4 oz of 2% milk (60 cal), some french fries (60 cal), and veggies (25 cal) with ranch (75 cal). That came to 330 calories. So my intake today was 750 calories and at the gym I burned off 760, so my net total is -10 calories for the day. Phew! Great for my first day back to restricting in almost a week.
And one last thing. I might, might follow in Amber's footsteps and post a picture or two of myself. Might. I'll admit I'm not hesitant entirely because of self esteem issues (well, maybe slightly), but you know how it can be on the internet, although I have wanted to put a face to my blog for a while now. I don't quite know what you all think I look like and if what I actually look like contradicts greatly with your imaginations. It's always interesting to see the face behind the mask, although I did choose my profile picture because I'd like to think that I look a little like Kaya Scodelario. Well, maybe we don't look a whole lot alike, but I do have brown hair, blue eyes, and freckles. And we're the same age (as of today). Maybe if my face were just thinner...oh well, stay tuned. If I do put pics up it'll be on my picture progress page. I need to take a current picture of my body so I can put up before/after pics, plus my sister just unearthed a Christmas photo of me two years ago and my face was so much fatter! Haha I'll have to put that up.
Alright ladies, gotta study for my exams. If any of you are going through finals I wish you the best of luck!
♥ Toni
Sunday, June 5, 2011
This post is too long and all over the place.
You know, I never did quite figure out why so many girls followed like 13650921475 blogs, but I currently just started following My Mission to a Thin Me, which is my 37th blog. I never thought I'd be to the point where I'd be reading so many, but I really like seeing a new post every time I log on.
So last night was pretty fun. A group of myself, Aaron, and a few of my friends went out to eat at a burger place called "Burger.". It's really spelled with a period at the end. They have some crazy combinations like burgers in between two glazed doughnuts or in the middle of grilled cheeses. I ordered a relatively tame burger with macaroni and cheese slathered on top and a chocolate shake. Very delicious. And then afterwards we went to CVS where I got Redvines, Tootsie Rolls, Sour Punch Straws, and gummi worms. And today my friends sang me happy birthday (a day early) and gave me a whole plate of Totino's Pizza Rolls, my FAVORITE. Yeah, I wasn't kidding about the not caring about what I eat thing. And today was only slightly better than yesterday. I was full for days last night. Tomorrow I'm starting the SGD again per Thin or Not's challenge. I really need to get back into paying attention to what goes into my body. I'll see all the damage tomorrow on the scale after I go to the gym (oh yeah, spent my time studying, eating, and sleeping instead of working out like I said I would today).
One good bit of news: last night I was trying to decide what to wear before I went out. A few months ago I bought this cute purple knit mini dress (although on my 5'0" frame it doesn't look so mini) from Rue21. It fit really well and even had a stretchy black belt that came with it that hid my excess belly flab. Now...it's too big. I mean, it still fits, but you can tell that it just doesn't hug my body the way it used to. I guess that's good. I can really see changes in my body, but it's really starting to irk me that I'm going to either have to A) buy a bunch of new clothes that fit right B) pay someone to take a bunch of my clothes in or C) take the clothes in myself and risk doing it wrong. I have a friend whose mom can tailor clothes really well. She's a very traditional Asian woman and doesn't like to accept money from her daughter's friends, so I can go that route. I know I'll feel bad though giving a ton of stuff to this woman to take in and her being very polite and not wanting me to pay her. And I know with all the stuff I have it could cost up to $200 for me to take it to an actual paid tailor. I have pants, shirts, dresses, skirts, a jacket, and shorts that not longer fit at all. When I get back home I'm definitely going to have to try on everything I own and figure out what needs just a little work done and sew it myself.
Finals are coming tomorrow. At 8 am. On my birthday. Fuck. And I need to study still. Haha. I've spent the better part of the weekend on the internet looking for summer dance classes. I've found a pretty good studio to take an adult Intro to Ballet class and an Intermediate Jazz class. And it's fairly comparable in price. $48 for one class a week and $94 for two/week for 4 weeks (there are two summer sessions that are 4 weeks long) It's in the next town though and I still have to check about the studio that's literally around the corner from my house. Damn dancers who refuse to have a website for their services. I have to call. Oh well, if it's about the same price I may just go there, but I definitely have to go to at least one class from each to get the feeling for the studio. Ugh why am I going on about this, I'm sure it's boring all of you.
Up to 54 followers! Thank you Gianni, Tempest, and JellyBelly for signing on, even though I'm going through kind of a rough time with food atm.
Ok I really need to study and go to bed by midnight if I want to get any decent amount of sleep for tomorrow. My only solace, this final is only worth 7% of my grade. Too bad I think my game presentation sucked balls!
Thinspo will be back once I believe I can control the black hole which is my stomach.
♥ Toni
So last night was pretty fun. A group of myself, Aaron, and a few of my friends went out to eat at a burger place called "Burger.". It's really spelled with a period at the end. They have some crazy combinations like burgers in between two glazed doughnuts or in the middle of grilled cheeses. I ordered a relatively tame burger with macaroni and cheese slathered on top and a chocolate shake. Very delicious. And then afterwards we went to CVS where I got Redvines, Tootsie Rolls, Sour Punch Straws, and gummi worms. And today my friends sang me happy birthday (a day early) and gave me a whole plate of Totino's Pizza Rolls, my FAVORITE. Yeah, I wasn't kidding about the not caring about what I eat thing. And today was only slightly better than yesterday. I was full for days last night. Tomorrow I'm starting the SGD again per Thin or Not's challenge. I really need to get back into paying attention to what goes into my body. I'll see all the damage tomorrow on the scale after I go to the gym (oh yeah, spent my time studying, eating, and sleeping instead of working out like I said I would today).
One good bit of news: last night I was trying to decide what to wear before I went out. A few months ago I bought this cute purple knit mini dress (although on my 5'0" frame it doesn't look so mini) from Rue21. It fit really well and even had a stretchy black belt that came with it that hid my excess belly flab. Now...it's too big. I mean, it still fits, but you can tell that it just doesn't hug my body the way it used to. I guess that's good. I can really see changes in my body, but it's really starting to irk me that I'm going to either have to A) buy a bunch of new clothes that fit right B) pay someone to take a bunch of my clothes in or C) take the clothes in myself and risk doing it wrong. I have a friend whose mom can tailor clothes really well. She's a very traditional Asian woman and doesn't like to accept money from her daughter's friends, so I can go that route. I know I'll feel bad though giving a ton of stuff to this woman to take in and her being very polite and not wanting me to pay her. And I know with all the stuff I have it could cost up to $200 for me to take it to an actual paid tailor. I have pants, shirts, dresses, skirts, a jacket, and shorts that not longer fit at all. When I get back home I'm definitely going to have to try on everything I own and figure out what needs just a little work done and sew it myself.
Finals are coming tomorrow. At 8 am. On my birthday. Fuck. And I need to study still. Haha. I've spent the better part of the weekend on the internet looking for summer dance classes. I've found a pretty good studio to take an adult Intro to Ballet class and an Intermediate Jazz class. And it's fairly comparable in price. $48 for one class a week and $94 for two/week for 4 weeks (there are two summer sessions that are 4 weeks long) It's in the next town though and I still have to check about the studio that's literally around the corner from my house. Damn dancers who refuse to have a website for their services. I have to call. Oh well, if it's about the same price I may just go there, but I definitely have to go to at least one class from each to get the feeling for the studio. Ugh why am I going on about this, I'm sure it's boring all of you.
Up to 54 followers! Thank you Gianni, Tempest, and JellyBelly for signing on, even though I'm going through kind of a rough time with food atm.
Ok I really need to study and go to bed by midnight if I want to get any decent amount of sleep for tomorrow. My only solace, this final is only worth 7% of my grade. Too bad I think my game presentation sucked balls!
Thinspo will be back once I believe I can control the black hole which is my stomach.
♥ Toni
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
AH! So excited!
Dance audition information is uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuup!!! Finally!!!!!!!!!!! And it's right after my jazz class!!!!!!!!!!!! Soooooooooooooooo excitedddddddd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok, that was way too much energy. Sorry for that. Ok so yeah, auditions are on Thursday of this week. There's absolutely NO WAY I can get to 118 by then unless I just eat nothing...and then I'd pass out. Not good. So I'm aiming for a flat 120. Yesterday's "fast" was anything but. I had maybe 700 calories at dinner. Fucking dinner screwed it all up, and this morning I was 123! Good news is that I've only had 230 calories today (mostly fruit and veggies) and burned 755, so my net intake is -525 calories. I'm hitting the gym right after my lit class and I'm praying the number I see on the scale is waaaaaaaaaaay less than it was today, because I know a lot of that was from the food still in my tummy.
In non-food related news I stayed after my jazz class today to talk with my teacher. She told me I'm very dedicated and pick up things very quickly and I'm smart when it comes to dance. Basically she told me I'm at a higher level than everyone else in the class, which really boosted my confidence. She told me I need to have more fun with my dancing though, which I agree with. I'm really competitive and focused with my dancing and I like being the very best I can be. I am just so hyped for Thursday now! Gah! Can't wait!
♥ Toni
P.S.-Thank you Ariana for your warm wishes. =)
P.P.S. 51 followers!
Ok, that was way too much energy. Sorry for that. Ok so yeah, auditions are on Thursday of this week. There's absolutely NO WAY I can get to 118 by then unless I just eat nothing...and then I'd pass out. Not good. So I'm aiming for a flat 120. Yesterday's "fast" was anything but. I had maybe 700 calories at dinner. Fucking dinner screwed it all up, and this morning I was 123! Good news is that I've only had 230 calories today (mostly fruit and veggies) and burned 755, so my net intake is -525 calories. I'm hitting the gym right after my lit class and I'm praying the number I see on the scale is waaaaaaaaaaay less than it was today, because I know a lot of that was from the food still in my tummy.
In non-food related news I stayed after my jazz class today to talk with my teacher. She told me I'm very dedicated and pick up things very quickly and I'm smart when it comes to dance. Basically she told me I'm at a higher level than everyone else in the class, which really boosted my confidence. She told me I need to have more fun with my dancing though, which I agree with. I'm really competitive and focused with my dancing and I like being the very best I can be. I am just so hyped for Thursday now! Gah! Can't wait!
♥ Toni
P.S.-Thank you Ariana for your warm wishes. =)
P.P.S. 51 followers!
Monday, May 30, 2011
Best weekend ever, kinda.
So yes, I know and I'm sorry that I haven't posted in...is it 3 days? Part of that was me going waaaaaay overboard with food Friday and Saturday. Not a binge really, just normal eating that my little tummy couldn't really handle. And despite knowing I put myself offtrack, I must say I rather enjoyed indulging myself.
Friday was the best ever. I told you all on Thursday I went to see the dance class spring show. Well Friday night I went to see the university Dance team's spring show. Those two night of dancing really lit a fire under my ass to make that team. I've been working on my turns and leaps all weekend and hopefully tomorrow after dance class my teacher will be able to help my technique some more.
As for food: I wasn't planning on eating after Friday's show...but me and my friend Briana were really in the mood for sweet stuff. We went to Safeway (LOVE that place) and I got some mini eclairs and tuxedos (generic oreos) and afterwards we ate at Jack in the Box. Let me just say, I am in LOVE with their tacos and hadn't had any since last summer, so I ate four. Best. Night. Ever. Also pretty fattening, damn.
Saturday wasn't much better. I started off trying to eat minimally, but I caved and ordered chinese takeout late in the night. =/ I need better control, but damn I just can't say no to sweet and sour chicken. .
Sunday was a work day. I have about 35% of all my finals stuff done, which is very much on track. My net total was probably around 400? It was less than 500 for sure, but I ate quite a bit of tuxedos. I went to the gym though , so that burned off a lot of calories.
Today is a FAST. I need to get to 118 by dance team tryouts (which the facebook group still hasn't posted anything up about, even though I'm sure they're less than a week away). Good new: my weekend overeating only resulted in gaining one lb. I'm 121.75 lbs. If I fast all day today and stay in the negatives until Friday, I think I can do it. I at least want to break into the teen. That would be awesome.
Yay, I finally got to 50 followers! Thank you Scarlett for hopping aboard the vessel.
And to the rest of my lovely followers: please check out Scarlett's blog Blemished Bijou. It's been up since February and only has 2 followers (one of which is the ever awesome Olivia Lee) other than myself. I know we can be more supportive than that!
Alright, that just about sums it up. I'm planning on not having any food intake to post for later, so I'll save the next post for anything crazy that happens in the meantime.
Friday was the best ever. I told you all on Thursday I went to see the dance class spring show. Well Friday night I went to see the university Dance team's spring show. Those two night of dancing really lit a fire under my ass to make that team. I've been working on my turns and leaps all weekend and hopefully tomorrow after dance class my teacher will be able to help my technique some more.
As for food: I wasn't planning on eating after Friday's show...but me and my friend Briana were really in the mood for sweet stuff. We went to Safeway (LOVE that place) and I got some mini eclairs and tuxedos (generic oreos) and afterwards we ate at Jack in the Box. Let me just say, I am in LOVE with their tacos and hadn't had any since last summer, so I ate four. Best. Night. Ever. Also pretty fattening, damn.
Saturday wasn't much better. I started off trying to eat minimally, but I caved and ordered chinese takeout late in the night. =/ I need better control, but damn I just can't say no to sweet and sour chicken. .
Sunday was a work day. I have about 35% of all my finals stuff done, which is very much on track. My net total was probably around 400? It was less than 500 for sure, but I ate quite a bit of tuxedos. I went to the gym though , so that burned off a lot of calories.
Today is a FAST. I need to get to 118 by dance team tryouts (which the facebook group still hasn't posted anything up about, even though I'm sure they're less than a week away). Good new: my weekend overeating only resulted in gaining one lb. I'm 121.75 lbs. If I fast all day today and stay in the negatives until Friday, I think I can do it. I at least want to break into the teen. That would be awesome.
Yay, I finally got to 50 followers! Thank you Scarlett for hopping aboard the vessel.
And to the rest of my lovely followers: please check out Scarlett's blog Blemished Bijou. It's been up since February and only has 2 followers (one of which is the ever awesome Olivia Lee) other than myself. I know we can be more supportive than that!
Alright, that just about sums it up. I'm planning on not having any food intake to post for later, so I'll save the next post for anything crazy that happens in the meantime.
Thinspo for the days since I've been away:
♥ Toni
Friday, May 27, 2011
My fat day was just a maintain day.
Just watched the season 2 finale of Glee. I don't want to give anything away just in case any of you are fans of the show and haven't seen the episode, but it was satisfying. Not as great as season one's finale. Loose ends were more or less tied up, with new story arcs being created for next season. I can't wait for season 3!
As for food today was alright, I didn't get to go to my regular jazz class because there was a dance show in the studio where class is held, so I went to that instead. It was amazing. It totally made me want to perform. I can't wait until I can. Ok yeah but anyway I didn't have those extra 350 calories burned, so all my exercise came from hopping on the elliptical this afternoon. I burned 770 calories.
Breakfast was relatively light. 30 blueberries (25 cal), a slice of cantaloupe (15 cal), 5 grapes (15 cal), half of a peach (45 cal), and an orange cranberry muffin (100 cal). Dinner was the killer tonight, but let me tell you it was sooooooo worth it. Tonight was the dining hall "ice creamery", meaning instead of machine frozen yogurt which sucks most of the time, the dining hall does it Coldstone style with real ice cream and mix in toppings. I waited a good 15 minutes in line for a scoop of chocolate and vanilla ice cream (260 cal) with walnuts (45 cal), and strawberries (55 cal). And actual dinner was better than usual. I had 5 oz of homestyle macaroni and cheese (130 cal), and 2.5 oz of bbq beef brisket (170 cal). While watching Glee I helped myself to two servings of miso soup (70 cal) and seaweed (15 cal). So my total intake today is 945 calories, and my net intake is 175 calories. I maintained my weight of 121 lbs when I got on the scale, so tomorrow I'm not letting one edible thing touch my lips until after my workout at 11 am. I need to start cutting back on the food. That -600 calorie day was awesome and I want another one soon.
As for food today was alright, I didn't get to go to my regular jazz class because there was a dance show in the studio where class is held, so I went to that instead. It was amazing. It totally made me want to perform. I can't wait until I can. Ok yeah but anyway I didn't have those extra 350 calories burned, so all my exercise came from hopping on the elliptical this afternoon. I burned 770 calories.
Breakfast was relatively light. 30 blueberries (25 cal), a slice of cantaloupe (15 cal), 5 grapes (15 cal), half of a peach (45 cal), and an orange cranberry muffin (100 cal). Dinner was the killer tonight, but let me tell you it was sooooooo worth it. Tonight was the dining hall "ice creamery", meaning instead of machine frozen yogurt which sucks most of the time, the dining hall does it Coldstone style with real ice cream and mix in toppings. I waited a good 15 minutes in line for a scoop of chocolate and vanilla ice cream (260 cal) with walnuts (45 cal), and strawberries (55 cal). And actual dinner was better than usual. I had 5 oz of homestyle macaroni and cheese (130 cal), and 2.5 oz of bbq beef brisket (170 cal). While watching Glee I helped myself to two servings of miso soup (70 cal) and seaweed (15 cal). So my total intake today is 945 calories, and my net intake is 175 calories. I maintained my weight of 121 lbs when I got on the scale, so tomorrow I'm not letting one edible thing touch my lips until after my workout at 11 am. I need to start cutting back on the food. That -600 calorie day was awesome and I want another one soon.
Working towards that flat stomach...
♥ Toni
P.S.-Olivia: Oh wow yeah maybe we'll actually run into each other, although I'll be on campus all day hanging around Porter. I'm super short and my best friend has fire engine red hair if that's any clue as to who I am. ;)
P.S.-Olivia: Oh wow yeah maybe we'll actually run into each other, although I'll be on campus all day hanging around Porter. I'm super short and my best friend has fire engine red hair if that's any clue as to who I am. ;)
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Fat Day
I'm sorry I didn't post. I was up until 3 am working on my game design project. Maybe I'll post it once it's done, but it's giving me so much trouble right now.
So yeah, I don't like fat days. I'm having one right now because of how much I ate last night and even from the small amount I ate this morning.
Yesterday for breakfast I had 30 blueberries (25 cal), 2 slices of pineapple (30 cal), 1/2 of a peach (45 cal), and coffee with 2% milk (10 cal) before my 8 am class. By the time I got out of the section at 10:30 I was starving, so I grabbed half of a bagel with butter (90 cal), a slice of ham (45 cal), half of a kiwi (20 cal), and 1/2 of a small orange (25 cal). All was fine and dandy after that. I went to dance class (-300 cal) and the gym (-515 cal) and weighed myself. 121.0 lbs. It was an ok day. Then I had dinner. 20 tortilla chips with nacho toppings (225 cal), a small slice of hawaiian pizza (115 cal), and 3 sugar cookies (240 cal). Then I was munching on seaweed all night while programming my game (40 cal). So my total for the day was 910 calories, and my net intake was 95 calories. Not terrible, but I know that was only because of all the exercise I got in.
Oh and with only 2 weeks left of school I lost my ID. Just great. Now I have to buy a new one. $20. For a piece of plastic. I'm going to try to convince the student housing building to charge me the replacement ID fee instead of the new ID fee. That would cost me only $5. Much better.
There's not much else to talk about. The day is still young. I'll post today's stats later. For now I'll leave you with two blogs I recently started following. There's ullalexie's Emerging From a Cocoon of Fat and Violet's Ethereal Dream. Go show them some love! Or at least browse a few of their posts.
Ok, I'll be back. I hope you all have a great day (or at least a skinnier one than mine).
♥ Toni
P.S.-49 followers! Gah so close to 50! You guys are awesome. =)
P.P.S.-I took a new picture of my thigh gap. It's like twice as big now! It's on my "Progress in Photos" tab.
So yeah, I don't like fat days. I'm having one right now because of how much I ate last night and even from the small amount I ate this morning.
Yesterday for breakfast I had 30 blueberries (25 cal), 2 slices of pineapple (30 cal), 1/2 of a peach (45 cal), and coffee with 2% milk (10 cal) before my 8 am class. By the time I got out of the section at 10:30 I was starving, so I grabbed half of a bagel with butter (90 cal), a slice of ham (45 cal), half of a kiwi (20 cal), and 1/2 of a small orange (25 cal). All was fine and dandy after that. I went to dance class (-300 cal) and the gym (-515 cal) and weighed myself. 121.0 lbs. It was an ok day. Then I had dinner. 20 tortilla chips with nacho toppings (225 cal), a small slice of hawaiian pizza (115 cal), and 3 sugar cookies (240 cal). Then I was munching on seaweed all night while programming my game (40 cal). So my total for the day was 910 calories, and my net intake was 95 calories. Not terrible, but I know that was only because of all the exercise I got in.
Oh and with only 2 weeks left of school I lost my ID. Just great. Now I have to buy a new one. $20. For a piece of plastic. I'm going to try to convince the student housing building to charge me the replacement ID fee instead of the new ID fee. That would cost me only $5. Much better.
There's not much else to talk about. The day is still young. I'll post today's stats later. For now I'll leave you with two blogs I recently started following. There's ullalexie's Emerging From a Cocoon of Fat and Violet's Ethereal Dream. Go show them some love! Or at least browse a few of their posts.
Ok, I'll be back. I hope you all have a great day (or at least a skinnier one than mine).
♥ Toni
P.S.-49 followers! Gah so close to 50! You guys are awesome. =)
P.P.S.-I took a new picture of my thigh gap. It's like twice as big now! It's on my "Progress in Photos" tab.
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
I'm getting that light-headed feeling...
Aww thank you girls for your support about last night and earlier today. I must say I'm feeling much better and here's why:
Food was excellent. I stuck to my goal of less than 250 calories and most of it was raw fruits and vegetables. I only had one meal that consisted of 6 slices of cucumber and 4 baby carrots (20 cal), 1/2 cup apple and celery root salad in a cinnamon dressing (60 cal), coffee with Equal and 2 tbsp 2% milk (15 cal), and 3 oz of spinach and celery in sesame dressing (40 cal). I just finished 2 cups of veggie broth (30 cal) and my total comes to 165 calories. I burned off 350 in dance and another 430 at the gym, so my net intake is -615 calories. I must say this is a personal best. And my weight is down almost 2 lbs from yesterday. It's now at 121.75 and should be in the teens by Friday...hopefully.
Sorry, this is going to be a quick post. No thinspo. No time! I have a lot of work to do before finals. I love you all though!
♥ Toni
Food was excellent. I stuck to my goal of less than 250 calories and most of it was raw fruits and vegetables. I only had one meal that consisted of 6 slices of cucumber and 4 baby carrots (20 cal), 1/2 cup apple and celery root salad in a cinnamon dressing (60 cal), coffee with Equal and 2 tbsp 2% milk (15 cal), and 3 oz of spinach and celery in sesame dressing (40 cal). I just finished 2 cups of veggie broth (30 cal) and my total comes to 165 calories. I burned off 350 in dance and another 430 at the gym, so my net intake is -615 calories. I must say this is a personal best. And my weight is down almost 2 lbs from yesterday. It's now at 121.75 and should be in the teens by Friday...hopefully.
Sorry, this is going to be a quick post. No thinspo. No time! I have a lot of work to do before finals. I love you all though!
♥ Toni
Monday, May 23, 2011
Back to the drawing board...
So yeah, of course I gained weight over the weekend. I'm so ashamed of all I ate. How bad was it? Popcorn, candy, pizza, hotdogs, nachos, cereal, the list goes on.123.5 lbs today after dance and an hour at the gym. Fuck. That's a gain of almost 3 lbs! Tomorrow I'm waking up at 8am to get in a nice, long workout to burn off this FAT.
Food today was ok. I feel like I ate a lot more than I did. For breakfast I had half of a bagel, with half of it spread with butter and the other cream cheese (150 cal) and a fruit salad/yogurt combo. 3 oz of peach yogurt (80 cal), 10 grapes (35 cal), 20 blueberries (15 cal), 1/4 green apple (20 cal), 1/2 banana (40 cal), 1 slice of pineapple (15 cal), and one slice of cantaloupe (15 cal). So breakfast totaled 370. I didn't eat for another 8 hours until dinner. I had a small roasted potato (55 cal), 1/2 cup macaroni noodles with 3 tbsp red sauce (125 cal), a small salad with 2 cups of lettuce (15 cal), 1.25 tbsp ranch (90 cal), 1/2 tbsp bacon bits (15 cal), and cherry tomatoes and cucumber (20 cal). I overindulged with dessert. I had a peanut butter cookie (70 cal), a small piece of lemon poppyseed cake (80 cal), and 5 cubes of jello (20 cal). All of this food adds up to 860 calories. Not as good as I wanted to do today, but I burned off 1,050 calories with dance and the gym, so my net intake is -190 calories. A negative day. Good. I'd still like to keep my actual intakes to less than 600, and ideally less than 500. And I'd really like my net intakes to be at -200 for the next two weeks. That should get me to somewhere around 118 lbs by my birthday...and dance tryouts.
Food today was ok. I feel like I ate a lot more than I did. For breakfast I had half of a bagel, with half of it spread with butter and the other cream cheese (150 cal) and a fruit salad/yogurt combo. 3 oz of peach yogurt (80 cal), 10 grapes (35 cal), 20 blueberries (15 cal), 1/4 green apple (20 cal), 1/2 banana (40 cal), 1 slice of pineapple (15 cal), and one slice of cantaloupe (15 cal). So breakfast totaled 370. I didn't eat for another 8 hours until dinner. I had a small roasted potato (55 cal), 1/2 cup macaroni noodles with 3 tbsp red sauce (125 cal), a small salad with 2 cups of lettuce (15 cal), 1.25 tbsp ranch (90 cal), 1/2 tbsp bacon bits (15 cal), and cherry tomatoes and cucumber (20 cal). I overindulged with dessert. I had a peanut butter cookie (70 cal), a small piece of lemon poppyseed cake (80 cal), and 5 cubes of jello (20 cal). All of this food adds up to 860 calories. Not as good as I wanted to do today, but I burned off 1,050 calories with dance and the gym, so my net intake is -190 calories. A negative day. Good. I'd still like to keep my actual intakes to less than 600, and ideally less than 500. And I'd really like my net intakes to be at -200 for the next two weeks. That should get me to somewhere around 118 lbs by my birthday...and dance tryouts.
Back from the dead
Wow. I haven't posted since Thursday. Sorry if I haven't been commenting as frequently as I used to, but I've been reading everyone's posts. Like I said, this weekend was filled with stuff to do. Even with all of my planning I still stayed up until 2 :30 am last night writing an essay that was due at 8 am this morning.
Up to 48 followers! Surprising, since I didn't update all weekend, but thank you just the same. =)
Alright, so Saturday and Sunday were the big cheer tryouts. I didn't make the team. That's not really a huge issue for me at this point since I'd rather be dancing anyway, but I have great news. On Saturday we learned all the cheers and the dance and did some stunting. I have zero experience in cheerleading, much less in stunting. There are basically only two positions you can be: base or flyer. Guess which one I was told to be? Flyer! It was a big deal for me because I know only small girls do flying. I know I'm short and that had something to do with it but of course if you're 5'2" and 155 lbs you're pretty much going to lose over someone 30 lbs less than you. It just made me feel really good, like I'm actually getting somewhere with this weight loss.
So yeah, like I said I didn't make the cheer team, but that's ok. This weekend the dance team is performing their spring show and the weekend after they're holding tryouts for next year's team. If I don't make the cut I'll be extremely disappointed, but there's always tryouts again in the fall. Yay desperation! Haha but I did buy some split sole canvas ballet slippers. I used to own some but I lent them to a friend who now goes to CSU Longbeach. Needless to say I'm not getting them back. The replacements were only $20, and I'm enrolled in Jazz II for fall quarter so they'll come in handy.
I'm also officially declared a film pre-major, something I'm super excited about because it gives me higher priority for enrollment in film classes than non majors.
So maybe you guessed it but I'm kind of tip toeing around food. This weekend was pretty much a disaster. I ate a LOT. I'm hoping the weight gain isn't too bad. If it's not terrible (121-122) I'm aiming to be less that 118 by dance tryouts/my birthday (it's in 2 weeks! WTF?!) and if I'm anything over 123 my goal will be to get to at least 118. Just to be safe I'm keeping my food intake extra low and will be hitting the gym for a good hour to make up for it, although I'm suuuuuuuuuper sore from this weekend.
Ok, will update later. Promise.
Up to 48 followers! Surprising, since I didn't update all weekend, but thank you just the same. =)
Alright, so Saturday and Sunday were the big cheer tryouts. I didn't make the team. That's not really a huge issue for me at this point since I'd rather be dancing anyway, but I have great news. On Saturday we learned all the cheers and the dance and did some stunting. I have zero experience in cheerleading, much less in stunting. There are basically only two positions you can be: base or flyer. Guess which one I was told to be? Flyer! It was a big deal for me because I know only small girls do flying. I know I'm short and that had something to do with it but of course if you're 5'2" and 155 lbs you're pretty much going to lose over someone 30 lbs less than you. It just made me feel really good, like I'm actually getting somewhere with this weight loss.
So yeah, like I said I didn't make the cheer team, but that's ok. This weekend the dance team is performing their spring show and the weekend after they're holding tryouts for next year's team. If I don't make the cut I'll be extremely disappointed, but there's always tryouts again in the fall. Yay desperation! Haha but I did buy some split sole canvas ballet slippers. I used to own some but I lent them to a friend who now goes to CSU Longbeach. Needless to say I'm not getting them back. The replacements were only $20, and I'm enrolled in Jazz II for fall quarter so they'll come in handy.
I'm also officially declared a film pre-major, something I'm super excited about because it gives me higher priority for enrollment in film classes than non majors.
So maybe you guessed it but I'm kind of tip toeing around food. This weekend was pretty much a disaster. I ate a LOT. I'm hoping the weight gain isn't too bad. If it's not terrible (121-122) I'm aiming to be less that 118 by dance tryouts/my birthday (it's in 2 weeks! WTF?!) and if I'm anything over 123 my goal will be to get to at least 118. Just to be safe I'm keeping my food intake extra low and will be hitting the gym for a good hour to make up for it, although I'm suuuuuuuuuper sore from this weekend.
Ok, will update later. Promise.
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Finally I get some time to myself.
So at this very moment, right now, is probably the last time for another, oh, 70 or so hours that I'll have time to breathe. But before I go into that I want to respond to some comments.
Ariana - Yeah I know what you mean about the digital scales. I also heard not to use them on carpet? I just don't trust them, so I use scales with a needle or sliding scales. Like those ancient ones where you stand on it and move the little weights yourself.
Olivia - Oh man really? I know all the transfers who live on campus are put into Porter, but if you're thinking about somewhere off campus there are some awesome houses at the base of the university near the entrance. I don't know much else about off campus housing though. As for being in town, I know some friends of mine who are always down for partying. We'll need some stress relief from finals. haha
Thin_Envy - Can I tell you a secret? I have no idea how I'm motivation for you because for the past few months I've been trying so hard to catch up with you weight-wise. I know my UGW right now is 112, but I can't imagine how 110 would look on me. I've never been that small, so if you're ever having a "fat day" come to me and I'll tell you how silly and thin you are! Because you're one of the girls who keeps me most motivated!
Ok, so this weekend. Here's the sitch:
Friday
7 am: wake up to go to the gym
9:30-10:40 am: go to section
11 am: fill out paperwork to declare film pre-major
11:30 am-2 pm: get in a sun soaking session and start reading Beloved, then shower
2-3:10 pm: class
3:10-7:30 pm: go get tickets for Pirates 4, go to CVS for misc girly things, do laundry, read more Beloved
7:30: leave for Pirates 4 for friend's b-day
10:05: watch Pirates 4
approx midnight: go to sleep
Saturday
8 am: wake up to get ready for cheer tryouts
9:15 am: head to dance studio to get to cheer tryouts early
10 am-2 pm: tryouts
2-7pm: HOMEWORK (reading, programming, essay, etc), possibly eat somewhere in there
7-8 pm: get dressed for club (alien themed)
8 pm: head to club for other friend's b-day
9-11:30 pm: clubbin!
approx 11:30: head out early to get sleep for tryouts on Sunday
approx midnight: go to sleep
Sunday
8 am: wake up for cheer tryouts
9:15 am: head to tryouts
10 am-2 pm: tryouts
2pm on: FREEDOM!!! (and probably homework)
So basically I'm dead. By Sunday afternoon I'll be running on empty.
Food:
Yesterday I totaled in at 620 calories. I won't bore you with the food. I burned 650 calories that day so my net total was -30 calories. Not terrible, especially since I weighed in at 120.5.
Today was soooooo much better. I had one actual meal and one snack-like meal later in the day. Earlier I ate 1/2 penne pasta with meat sauce and parmesan (155 cal), 4 thick cut french fries (40 cal), and 4 oz of chicken ortega soup (150 cal). Later I just had some frozen yogurt (75 cal), and veggies with ranch (100 cal). So my total comes to 495 calories, and I burned off 700 through dance and the gym so my net intake today was -205 calories. The downside: I weighed in at 121.5 lbs, which of course only pushed me harder to burn more calories on the elliptical. I did weigh myself at 9 pm, so I'm sure my weigh in tomorrow morning will be much more accurate.
I know this post is already looooooooooooong, but I want to talk quickly about my birthday. It's coming up in early June and I know what I want to do. Have I talked about this? Well if I have I'm mentioning it again.The local theater plays previously released (usually cult or classic) movies every weekend at midnight. The movie they're playing 2 days before my birthday? Mean Girls!!! Only one of my most favorite movies ever! My mom took me out of school early the day it premiered (I was in 6th grade) so we could see it together. I've seen it over 40 times and know all the dialogue! I'm so excited for this, it's really one of the best ways to celebrate my birthday. And there's this really cool burger place downtown that everyone but me has been to, so I want to go. Hopefully I'll be at least 118 lbs, so I may allow myself an indulgence. This burger place is known for their unique burgers. A patty in between two grilled cheese sandwiches anyone? How about one surrounded by two glazed doughnuts? One topped with macaroni and tomato? I'm really looking forward to this.
Hot damn, enough about me. I congratulate you if you've read this far. Your reward:
Ariana - Yeah I know what you mean about the digital scales. I also heard not to use them on carpet? I just don't trust them, so I use scales with a needle or sliding scales. Like those ancient ones where you stand on it and move the little weights yourself.
Olivia - Oh man really? I know all the transfers who live on campus are put into Porter, but if you're thinking about somewhere off campus there are some awesome houses at the base of the university near the entrance. I don't know much else about off campus housing though. As for being in town, I know some friends of mine who are always down for partying. We'll need some stress relief from finals. haha
Thin_Envy - Can I tell you a secret? I have no idea how I'm motivation for you because for the past few months I've been trying so hard to catch up with you weight-wise. I know my UGW right now is 112, but I can't imagine how 110 would look on me. I've never been that small, so if you're ever having a "fat day" come to me and I'll tell you how silly and thin you are! Because you're one of the girls who keeps me most motivated!
Ok, so this weekend. Here's the sitch:
Friday
7 am: wake up to go to the gym
9:30-10:40 am: go to section
11 am: fill out paperwork to declare film pre-major
11:30 am-2 pm: get in a sun soaking session and start reading Beloved, then shower
2-3:10 pm: class
3:10-7:30 pm: go get tickets for Pirates 4, go to CVS for misc girly things, do laundry, read more Beloved
7:30: leave for Pirates 4 for friend's b-day
10:05: watch Pirates 4
approx midnight: go to sleep
Saturday
8 am: wake up to get ready for cheer tryouts
9:15 am: head to dance studio to get to cheer tryouts early
10 am-2 pm: tryouts
2-7pm: HOMEWORK (reading, programming, essay, etc), possibly eat somewhere in there
7-8 pm: get dressed for club (alien themed)
8 pm: head to club for other friend's b-day
9-11:30 pm: clubbin!
approx 11:30: head out early to get sleep for tryouts on Sunday
approx midnight: go to sleep
Sunday
8 am: wake up for cheer tryouts
9:15 am: head to tryouts
10 am-2 pm: tryouts
2pm on: FREEDOM!!! (and probably homework)
So basically I'm dead. By Sunday afternoon I'll be running on empty.
Food:
Yesterday I totaled in at 620 calories. I won't bore you with the food. I burned 650 calories that day so my net total was -30 calories. Not terrible, especially since I weighed in at 120.5.
Today was soooooo much better. I had one actual meal and one snack-like meal later in the day. Earlier I ate 1/2 penne pasta with meat sauce and parmesan (155 cal), 4 thick cut french fries (40 cal), and 4 oz of chicken ortega soup (150 cal). Later I just had some frozen yogurt (75 cal), and veggies with ranch (100 cal). So my total comes to 495 calories, and I burned off 700 through dance and the gym so my net intake today was -205 calories. The downside: I weighed in at 121.5 lbs, which of course only pushed me harder to burn more calories on the elliptical. I did weigh myself at 9 pm, so I'm sure my weigh in tomorrow morning will be much more accurate.
I know this post is already looooooooooooong, but I want to talk quickly about my birthday. It's coming up in early June and I know what I want to do. Have I talked about this? Well if I have I'm mentioning it again.The local theater plays previously released (usually cult or classic) movies every weekend at midnight. The movie they're playing 2 days before my birthday? Mean Girls!!! Only one of my most favorite movies ever! My mom took me out of school early the day it premiered (I was in 6th grade) so we could see it together. I've seen it over 40 times and know all the dialogue! I'm so excited for this, it's really one of the best ways to celebrate my birthday. And there's this really cool burger place downtown that everyone but me has been to, so I want to go. Hopefully I'll be at least 118 lbs, so I may allow myself an indulgence. This burger place is known for their unique burgers. A patty in between two grilled cheese sandwiches anyone? How about one surrounded by two glazed doughnuts? One topped with macaroni and tomato? I'm really looking forward to this.
Hot damn, enough about me. I congratulate you if you've read this far. Your reward:
I guess I'm feeling a little leggy today.
♥ Toni
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
My post from earlier was getting too long, so I decided to make a new one.
Alright so my -150 plan didn't go so well today. I ate a little more than I planned and didn't exercise as much as I wanted to, but I was also feeling sore as hell after dance class, plus I'm already sick. I did break my ritual though. Yes, I have one. One that I follow every time I weigh myself, I'll explain in a sec. And even though I broke it just this once I weighed in at 121.5 lbs. Down .25 lbs from yesterday, yay! I think I'll actually be able to get to 121.0 by Saturday, maybe less!
Food was about 700 today. As i said earlier the yogurt, blueberries and banana were 200 cals. Then for lunch I had 6 oz beef &barley soup (75 cal), a few bites of bean, cucumber, and tomato salad in sesame sauce (45 cal), 2 wheat rolls (150 cal), 1 oatmeal raisin cookie (75 cal), a small brownie (60 cal), and another cookie later on (90 cal). Total calories consumed was 690 calories, and I burned off 350 in dance, so net total is 340 calories. Still not bad, still under 500 calories.
Dance was AWESOME today. We started a routine to Lady Gaga's "Judas". Despite my teacher's reluctance to the Gaga, she obliged us and gave us a really fun routine! I'm so excited for the last 3 1/2 weeks of class. =)
Ok yes, the ritual I mentioned. I do it to minimize the weight I carry every time I weigh myself. First off, I try not to eat or drink anything for at least 6 hours before I go to the gym, and waking up early and hitting the elliptical is even better. Then, when I sweated all the pounds off, I go into the girl's locker room and go to the bathroom. While I'm in there I change my sports bra to a thin, cotton training bra and then come out, wash my hands, and go weigh myself, and when I do this I'm wearing nothing but my undies and cotton bra. This is the closest I can come to being totally naked so I can optimize the weight I've lost. And then afterwards I fill up my water bottle and drink at least 24 oz of water to rehydrate myself. So there you have it. I think it works pretty well. I seem to be a little bit smaller every time I do it.
Ok gotta finish a draft of this essay that's due for peer review tomorrow!
Food was about 700 today. As i said earlier the yogurt, blueberries and banana were 200 cals. Then for lunch I had 6 oz beef &barley soup (75 cal), a few bites of bean, cucumber, and tomato salad in sesame sauce (45 cal), 2 wheat rolls (150 cal), 1 oatmeal raisin cookie (75 cal), a small brownie (60 cal), and another cookie later on (90 cal). Total calories consumed was 690 calories, and I burned off 350 in dance, so net total is 340 calories. Still not bad, still under 500 calories.
Dance was AWESOME today. We started a routine to Lady Gaga's "Judas". Despite my teacher's reluctance to the Gaga, she obliged us and gave us a really fun routine! I'm so excited for the last 3 1/2 weeks of class. =)
Ok yes, the ritual I mentioned. I do it to minimize the weight I carry every time I weigh myself. First off, I try not to eat or drink anything for at least 6 hours before I go to the gym, and waking up early and hitting the elliptical is even better. Then, when I sweated all the pounds off, I go into the girl's locker room and go to the bathroom. While I'm in there I change my sports bra to a thin, cotton training bra and then come out, wash my hands, and go weigh myself, and when I do this I'm wearing nothing but my undies and cotton bra. This is the closest I can come to being totally naked so I can optimize the weight I've lost. And then afterwards I fill up my water bottle and drink at least 24 oz of water to rehydrate myself. So there you have it. I think it works pretty well. I seem to be a little bit smaller every time I do it.
Ok gotta finish a draft of this essay that's due for peer review tomorrow!
Big sweaters, my favorite!
I really want a form fitting white dress.
Think Lindsay Lohan court appearance. I looooooved that dress.
What I wouldn't do for legs like these.
Hope all of your nights are going well. Mine's a hell of a lot better than last night.
♥ Toni
P.S.- This is from like a week ago and I never answered this question. My roommates were ragging on Nicole Richie because they think she's too thin and looks anorexic. If only they knew she's pretty much my body idol, especially since we're about the same height.
P.S.- This is from like a week ago and I never answered this question. My roommates were ragging on Nicole Richie because they think she's too thin and looks anorexic. If only they knew she's pretty much my body idol, especially since we're about the same height.
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