Sorry for not posting yesterday. I was too upset. My dad and I got into a dumb fight over walking home from Dollar Scoop with my sister and I was just pissed off for most of the night. Plus I went over my calorie limit, but that's kind of assumed when it's a 300 calorie day. I totaled 530 calories, 230 over the limit. Oh well.
Today I was better. Breakfast was a laughing cow cheese wedge and 10 almonds (105 cal). And then I didn't eat again until after I came home from my parents' farm and did some exercise around 2pm. I had a toasted peanut butter and jelly sandwich (285 cal), 10 strawberries (20 cal), 2 carrots (15 cal), and half of a pumpkin muffin (90 cal). And I just had some Honey Bunches of Oats a few hours ago (240 cal). I did a good hour and 25 minutes of OnDemand cardio, yoga and pilates and burned off 400 calories. My intake today was 755 and my net intake was 355 calories, so 45 under my limit. Yay. =)
I'm getting very excited for the pool party my friend Taylor is throwing on Friday. Aaron will be there, I'm happy with my tan, and the scale said an even 120 on it today (even despite there being about 32 oz of water and a sandwich in my tummy). Only three more lbs and I'll officially be at a new lowest weight. 118 is the lowest ever weighed in a relatively adult body. It hasn't changed at all in height or overall shape since I was 13. I've been 5 feet and an hourglass since I hit puberty. Yesterday I ran into a girl from my HS dance team that I hadn't seen in two years and she said I looked really good and fit, so if she noticed then I'm eager to see what everyone else will notice too.
Olivia: Yeah I drank a TON of water today. I probably had a few glasses over 2 liters and I feel a lot better.
Camille: Oh yeah I remember you blogging about the water retention. The soreness has gone away a bit, so I think whatever swelling I had has gone down, but who knows? I've been drinking a lot of water so maybe my muscles will just fuck with me and decide to keep it all in. =/
Christy: Yes, very painful.
Amber: Well we don't actually live on a farm. My family lives in the 'burbs and my parents only got into farming about 5 years back, so they leased some land about 20 minutes away but I think that makes it even more challenging to maintain. They wouldn't mind moving out there to live there full time, but personally I'm fine living in the only house I've been in the past 19 years. haha
Sorry for no thinspo today, again I have work tomorrow. Six days in a row I have workworkwork. Greaaaaaaat. And I don't even get paid from my actual job until next Thursday. And I've got no clue when my parents will have the money to pay me. Ugh anyway I'm very tired. I got up at 5:30 am to get to the farm before the heat took over, so I'm worn out.
Hope everyone's day was a good summer day.
♥ Toni
P.S.-Thank you Shauna Nicholson for following! You brought me up to 68 today. =)
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Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Disappointed in my body.
So today I had work and I decided all I would have was coffee and water until I got home. I thought I'd be down at least a half lb, but nooooooooo, my body decided to be a little rebel and gain to 121.5 lbs. Well, maybe when I weigh myself tomorrow morning I'll be smaller.
Boy did I think I was sore last night. Today was so much worse. Climbing stairs was painful. My thighs, obliques, and butt are screaming. Today my mom said how skinny my legs look and gave them a little squeeze and I gasped in pain. I guess I worked harder than I thought I did. And guess what? I did it again today. I'm guessing I burned maybe 185 calories, but again I'm downplaying it.
So food was coffee this morning (10 cal), and a fun size twix (80 cal) plus bite of cookie dough (35 cal) when I got home. Despite my mom using Crisco in her cookies, most of everything else is fairly healthy. Almond meal, oats, and unbleached flour among other things. Plus they taste great. We went to Carl's Jr. for dinner and I got a Cranberry Walnut Salad with grilled chicken. I only used half of the raspberry vinaigrette and feta cheese, so instead of a 360 calorie salad it was more like 305. And then I had a super small piece of my mom's cheese cake (55 cal) So my total intake today was 485 and my net intake was 300 calories. I'm glad I'm finding the energy to actually keep up with the SGD, and your lovely comments and support really help push me along. =)
Camille: No I don't live in the UK, California is my house and home. I guess Xfinity is a subset of Comcast, so maybe that rings more of a bell? And thank you for the support. You and your hubby are totally adorable. =)
So yeah my day hasn't been too exciting...at all. I hope I have more to talk about tomorrow. I gotta go to bed soon though, I'm getting up early to go to my parents' farm. Oh joy...
I really want to eat a whole bakery right now.
♥ Toni
Boy did I think I was sore last night. Today was so much worse. Climbing stairs was painful. My thighs, obliques, and butt are screaming. Today my mom said how skinny my legs look and gave them a little squeeze and I gasped in pain. I guess I worked harder than I thought I did. And guess what? I did it again today. I'm guessing I burned maybe 185 calories, but again I'm downplaying it.
So food was coffee this morning (10 cal), and a fun size twix (80 cal) plus bite of cookie dough (35 cal) when I got home. Despite my mom using Crisco in her cookies, most of everything else is fairly healthy. Almond meal, oats, and unbleached flour among other things. Plus they taste great. We went to Carl's Jr. for dinner and I got a Cranberry Walnut Salad with grilled chicken. I only used half of the raspberry vinaigrette and feta cheese, so instead of a 360 calorie salad it was more like 305. And then I had a super small piece of my mom's cheese cake (55 cal) So my total intake today was 485 and my net intake was 300 calories. I'm glad I'm finding the energy to actually keep up with the SGD, and your lovely comments and support really help push me along. =)
Camille: No I don't live in the UK, California is my house and home. I guess Xfinity is a subset of Comcast, so maybe that rings more of a bell? And thank you for the support. You and your hubby are totally adorable. =)
So yeah my day hasn't been too exciting...at all. I hope I have more to talk about tomorrow. I gotta go to bed soon though, I'm getting up early to go to my parents' farm. Oh joy...
I really want to eat a whole bakery right now.
♥ Toni
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Happy Father's Day (you know, because tons of my followers are dads, tee hee)
But seriously, I think this year was a pretty alright Father's Day. I got my dad a shirt from my university. :D
Like yesterday, I stayed on track again today. Part of that is due to the television believe it or not. I came home for summer to find that my parents switched to Xfinity and now we have On Demand, which means free exercise programs. I did, in total, probably an hour or so of pilates, cardio, abs, and thigh exercises. Now my inner thighs and glutes are sore, which is good. They haven't been sore in a long time.
I took my parents and sister out to a move for Father's Day. Now that I'm back to working I get the privilege of seeing free movies, so all I paid for was popcorn (if I had paid for all of us it would have been over $40!) We saw X-Men: First Class and I LOVED it. It was one of the best prequels I've ever seen. It was loads better than the Wolverine film. The story and acting was absolutely great.
Food was under my limit. My parents offered to cook my up eggs this morning but I just had a piece of french bread toast and butter (125 cal) with coffee (10 cal) and strawberries (25 cal). Then I didn't eat again until dinner before the movie. I ate 3.5 oz of tri tip (170 cal), a small potato with sour cream (70 cal), another piece of french bread toast (grilled with no butter; 80 cal), a few bites of caesar salad (25 cal), and a desert of my mom's home made cheese cake (130 cal). Then I had about a fifth of the small popcorn at the movies (145 cal). I'm downplaying the amount of calories I burned to 225 because I really have no clue how much I burned, but I know I was sweating! I'm sure I burned more, but better safe than sorry, right? So my total intake today was 780 and my net intake was 555 calories. Aaaaaand I weighed in at 121.25 lbs. Good day. =)
Other miscellaneous things I did today was clean out all of my thinspo folders. Some times the old stuff just doesn't elicit the same response from me, so I got rid of like 250 photos and added some more from tumblr. A lot of fitspo, which I'm really getting into, as are a few other bloggers I'm noticing.
Like yesterday, I stayed on track again today. Part of that is due to the television believe it or not. I came home for summer to find that my parents switched to Xfinity and now we have On Demand, which means free exercise programs. I did, in total, probably an hour or so of pilates, cardio, abs, and thigh exercises. Now my inner thighs and glutes are sore, which is good. They haven't been sore in a long time.
I took my parents and sister out to a move for Father's Day. Now that I'm back to working I get the privilege of seeing free movies, so all I paid for was popcorn (if I had paid for all of us it would have been over $40!) We saw X-Men: First Class and I LOVED it. It was one of the best prequels I've ever seen. It was loads better than the Wolverine film. The story and acting was absolutely great.
Food was under my limit. My parents offered to cook my up eggs this morning but I just had a piece of french bread toast and butter (125 cal) with coffee (10 cal) and strawberries (25 cal). Then I didn't eat again until dinner before the movie. I ate 3.5 oz of tri tip (170 cal), a small potato with sour cream (70 cal), another piece of french bread toast (grilled with no butter; 80 cal), a few bites of caesar salad (25 cal), and a desert of my mom's home made cheese cake (130 cal). Then I had about a fifth of the small popcorn at the movies (145 cal). I'm downplaying the amount of calories I burned to 225 because I really have no clue how much I burned, but I know I was sweating! I'm sure I burned more, but better safe than sorry, right? So my total intake today was 780 and my net intake was 555 calories. Aaaaaand I weighed in at 121.25 lbs. Good day. =)
Other miscellaneous things I did today was clean out all of my thinspo folders. Some times the old stuff just doesn't elicit the same response from me, so I got rid of like 250 photos and added some more from tumblr. A lot of fitspo, which I'm really getting into, as are a few other bloggers I'm noticing.
I love her body
Sooooo taaaaaaaan
And a hello to hey.haha.Thanks for joining. ^_^
Shrinking Violet: Thank you! I'd really like to get rid of the rest of the little pooch on my belly but overall I think the difference in my body is really noticeable.And yes I thought JGL was so gorgeous in Inception, especially in all those suits.
Amber: Haha thanks for understanding my screen rant. And yeas, every day does make a difference. I'm glad I didn't decide to just keep screwing up because of one bad week.
Christy: Really? The whole time I was thinking "boy, I really want some chocolate, and gummi candy, and whipped cream, and sugar, and allthecandyintheworld!"
Sammy and Ulla: Doesn't Nolan just make the best movies? He's definitely my favorite modern director.
Shrinking Violet: Thank you! I'd really like to get rid of the rest of the little pooch on my belly but overall I think the difference in my body is really noticeable.And yes I thought JGL was so gorgeous in Inception, especially in all those suits.
Amber: Haha thanks for understanding my screen rant. And yeas, every day does make a difference. I'm glad I didn't decide to just keep screwing up because of one bad week.
Christy: Really? The whole time I was thinking "boy, I really want some chocolate, and gummi candy, and whipped cream, and sugar, and allthecandyintheworld!"
Sammy and Ulla: Doesn't Nolan just make the best movies? He's definitely my favorite modern director.
Hope you ladies are having a good day (or night if you're living in the States like me). And to all the girls who are having a tough time I hope tomorrow is a fresh start and you all feel a little better.
♥ Toni
Monday, June 13, 2011
Where has my will power gone?
Man, I don't understand how some girls can lose 3-4 lbs per week. I'm lucky if I lose 1 lb a week and 5 lbs in a month, but I guess I'm getting to the point where I'm small enough that I don't lose weight as quickly as I used to. Needless to say I've been fucking up the SGD. I feel like at this point I'm just eating what I want and not caring that I'm even on the SGD. I couldn't even stay in the limits for Saturday and Sunday. Actually, I don't even know how much I ate Sunday. That was the day I came home from college, so today was my first full day back home for the summer. But anyway yesterday I had half of a pepperoni calzone, a raspberry lemonade, a scoop of raspberry cheesecake ice cream, and a pork springroll. Only 4 things with calories and I'm sure it totaled over 1000. Sigh...at least this time last week I was a solid 125 lbs and today I fluctuated between 122.5 and 123.5. I count that as good.
Food-wise, today was slightly better. I worked up a sweat unpacking in this heat and I went for a little run before dinner. So that's gotta count for something. I tried not to eat too much before dinner. I find that when I'm home it's fairly easy for me to eat little throughout the day until dinner, and then I only eat a moderate portion of food. It usually has pretty good results and I lose weight. So today I had coffee with sugar and creamer (totally not my usual fat free milk and Equal; 55 cal), a home made cookie (90 cal), 6 Triscuits (120 cal), and 15 strawberries (25 cal). The strawberries are from my parent's farm and I haven't had them in so long. They tasted heavenly and will probably be one of my major safe foods all summer. I especially like to eat them when I'm picking them for the markets we do. So anyway around came dinner. Grilled everything. 2.5 oz grilled chicken (105 cal), grilled lettuce (20 cal), 3 pieces of grilled sourdough baguette (140 cal), and miscellaneous bites of food throughout the day (140 cal). Plus I walked/ran 2.1 mi around my neighborhood. 5 minutes of that was walking (-22 cal) and 18 minutes of that was running at 6 mi/hr (-168 cal), so a total of 190 calories burned. This would put me at exactly 450 calories, but then I had a home made strawberry milkshake. I want to say that's 230 calories. So my total intake for the day was 870 and my net intake was 680 calories. Blah. I really need to start controlling this food thing.
Fat chance. I went grocery shopping with my mom today and we bought bagels, cream cheese, rootbeer and Shasta Tiki Punch soda, Choco Tacos, and Klondike Bars. Good news: I had her get nonfat milk (for my coffee, whoop!), reduced fat cream cheese, celery, skinny cow spreadable swiss, and turkey. There was some other stuff too but I most likely won't eat a lot of it.
Tomorrow's plan of attack: waking up around 7:30 to take an hour long walk/run, come back and shower, pick up Jenna around 10 to go shopping (for new bras, running shoes, and dance attire for my summer classes), then go to class and come home. Hopefully food won't be in there much.
And another very good thing happened last night/today. Ok, so there's something you have to know about my parents and Aaron, neither really likes the other, especially my dad and Aaron. My mom is eh about it but my dad really doesn't like him. It's not like he's a jerk or anything, he just says the wrong thing...a lot. But last night my dad said that because I'm growing up (just turned 19) and just spent a year away from home doing my own thing that he's going to be more lenient about Aaron, especially because we're not living in the same town this summer. We both grew up in out hometown but Aaron's dad had to move about 40 minutes away so we won't be spending as much time together, but my dad said it was ok if I spent the day/night over there sometimes. I was floored. I thought I'd have to convince him for weeks to let me go visit him, but there he was telling me I could right off the bat. And today I asked if I could go Wednesday night and stay until Thursday evening and he said yes! I'm so excited! And Aaron lives in a big city too, the state's capital if that gives you any clues. So I think we might go clubbing with a friends from college who also lives there. I've never gone but I have the perfect LBD that I actually look good in now.
Damn ok so this post is already long, but I have to respond to comments.
Elbar7a: I can definitely see why you've never had Coldstone. If you did you'd probably never want to leave (like me). It takes me at least a good 10 minutes to decide what I want because everything looks good (and subsequently full of calories).
Amber: Yes, Olivia Lee and I are going to the same college next year but she'll be a year ahead of me. Haha I'm glad you remember. And yeah I have the feeling most of us would get along quite well if we all met in person. In fact it wold be awesome to meet you in person. You're one of my favorites.
Olivia Lee: Ditto. The rest of my weekend was full of packing and driving and hot weather. You were definitely one of the best parts of the weekend.
Ok, that was a lot of stuff. I congratulate you if you made it through to this part. So I have some much overdue thinspo:
Food-wise, today was slightly better. I worked up a sweat unpacking in this heat and I went for a little run before dinner. So that's gotta count for something. I tried not to eat too much before dinner. I find that when I'm home it's fairly easy for me to eat little throughout the day until dinner, and then I only eat a moderate portion of food. It usually has pretty good results and I lose weight. So today I had coffee with sugar and creamer (totally not my usual fat free milk and Equal; 55 cal), a home made cookie (90 cal), 6 Triscuits (120 cal), and 15 strawberries (25 cal). The strawberries are from my parent's farm and I haven't had them in so long. They tasted heavenly and will probably be one of my major safe foods all summer. I especially like to eat them when I'm picking them for the markets we do. So anyway around came dinner. Grilled everything. 2.5 oz grilled chicken (105 cal), grilled lettuce (20 cal), 3 pieces of grilled sourdough baguette (140 cal), and miscellaneous bites of food throughout the day (140 cal). Plus I walked/ran 2.1 mi around my neighborhood. 5 minutes of that was walking (-22 cal) and 18 minutes of that was running at 6 mi/hr (-168 cal), so a total of 190 calories burned. This would put me at exactly 450 calories, but then I had a home made strawberry milkshake. I want to say that's 230 calories. So my total intake for the day was 870 and my net intake was 680 calories. Blah. I really need to start controlling this food thing.
Fat chance. I went grocery shopping with my mom today and we bought bagels, cream cheese, rootbeer and Shasta Tiki Punch soda, Choco Tacos, and Klondike Bars. Good news: I had her get nonfat milk (for my coffee, whoop!), reduced fat cream cheese, celery, skinny cow spreadable swiss, and turkey. There was some other stuff too but I most likely won't eat a lot of it.
Tomorrow's plan of attack: waking up around 7:30 to take an hour long walk/run, come back and shower, pick up Jenna around 10 to go shopping (for new bras, running shoes, and dance attire for my summer classes), then go to class and come home. Hopefully food won't be in there much.
And another very good thing happened last night/today. Ok, so there's something you have to know about my parents and Aaron, neither really likes the other, especially my dad and Aaron. My mom is eh about it but my dad really doesn't like him. It's not like he's a jerk or anything, he just says the wrong thing...a lot. But last night my dad said that because I'm growing up (just turned 19) and just spent a year away from home doing my own thing that he's going to be more lenient about Aaron, especially because we're not living in the same town this summer. We both grew up in out hometown but Aaron's dad had to move about 40 minutes away so we won't be spending as much time together, but my dad said it was ok if I spent the day/night over there sometimes. I was floored. I thought I'd have to convince him for weeks to let me go visit him, but there he was telling me I could right off the bat. And today I asked if I could go Wednesday night and stay until Thursday evening and he said yes! I'm so excited! And Aaron lives in a big city too, the state's capital if that gives you any clues. So I think we might go clubbing with a friends from college who also lives there. I've never gone but I have the perfect LBD that I actually look good in now.
Damn ok so this post is already long, but I have to respond to comments.
Elbar7a: I can definitely see why you've never had Coldstone. If you did you'd probably never want to leave (like me). It takes me at least a good 10 minutes to decide what I want because everything looks good (and subsequently full of calories).
Amber: Yes, Olivia Lee and I are going to the same college next year but she'll be a year ahead of me. Haha I'm glad you remember. And yeah I have the feeling most of us would get along quite well if we all met in person. In fact it wold be awesome to meet you in person. You're one of my favorites.
Olivia Lee: Ditto. The rest of my weekend was full of packing and driving and hot weather. You were definitely one of the best parts of the weekend.
Ok, that was a lot of stuff. I congratulate you if you made it through to this part. So I have some much overdue thinspo:
No real theme, just stuff I like and what I thought you lovelies would like.
Here's to a better tomorrow,
♥ Toni
P.S.-Welcome Kate and JT! Thank you for signing in and following this journey of mine. =D
P.S.-Welcome Kate and JT! Thank you for signing in and following this journey of mine. =D
Monday, June 6, 2011
Getting back on the SGD track.
Thank you Christy and Amber for the birthday wishes. =)
My Facebook has been overflowing with "happy birthday this" and :have an awesome birthday that." I really wasn't sure how many people would comment outside of the people I go to college with, but even my boss wished me a happy birthday.
So today after my first final (which I'm pretty sure I got an A on, it was ridiculously easy) I went to the gym like I said I would. And the damage was right there on the scale: 125 lbs. How oh how did I manage to gain 5 lbs in 5 days? It ain't possible. Must be the tons of food still in my system, so despite it being my birthday I'm restricting today for the start of the SGD. And to be honest I feel really good about it. I'm not thinking "dammit it's my birthday and I should eat whatever I want. " I'm thinking "it's my birthday and I'm getting back into the game so I can get this weight off." And it feels pretty awesome. I'm glad I wasn't begging to get off of the elliptical today, which I was on for over an hour.
But yeah other than the final, my birthday and food nothing else is really going on today. I'm watching The Piano for my film music class and continuing my search for dance classes. I don't want to spend a bunch of money to take like 3 classes a week but switching from 4 classes to 1 or 2 a week will be difficult. I just want to dance! But I have other priorities this summer. My jobs mainly. And losing more weight. I went from having to lose only 8 more lbs to get to my UGW and now I'm back to having to lose 13. I'm praying a lot of what I gained will be gone tomorrow. I'm drinking tons of water and cutting back the calories, so we'll see.
Oh and something I found out today (more dance related stuff): one of the teachers at the studio right around the corner from my house is my old HS dance team assistant coach. Erm...I don't know what it'll be like if I choose to dance there this summer. I never quite warmed up to any of my coaches back in high school. They liked to favor certain girls and I wasn't really one of them, but she was the nicest out of the three so that's good. And another one of the instructors is actually a girl in the grade below me who I remember from high school. Weird! I can't imagine taking dance classes from a girl who is younger than myself, especially since I'm not even really a beginner. We'll see, we'll see...
Ok, time for food. I was very much on track today and I plan on having nothing more to eat until after my final tomorrow and after I hit the gym again.
Breakfast was 6 oz of cream of wheat (90 cal), 1 tbsp brown sugar (35 cal), coffee with 1 tbsp skim milk (5 cal), 1/2 of a canned peach (50 cal), and 1 bagel (160 cal) with toppings of butter (30 cal) and cream cheese (50 cal). It was kind of a bigger breakfast than I'm used to. 420 calories total. Then I went to lunch around 3 because it was fresh cookie day. I had two small chocolate chip cookies (110 cal) with 4 oz of 2% milk (60 cal), some french fries (60 cal), and veggies (25 cal) with ranch (75 cal). That came to 330 calories. So my intake today was 750 calories and at the gym I burned off 760, so my net total is -10 calories for the day. Phew! Great for my first day back to restricting in almost a week.
And one last thing. I might, might follow in Amber's footsteps and post a picture or two of myself. Might. I'll admit I'm not hesitant entirely because of self esteem issues (well, maybe slightly), but you know how it can be on the internet, although I have wanted to put a face to my blog for a while now. I don't quite know what you all think I look like and if what I actually look like contradicts greatly with your imaginations. It's always interesting to see the face behind the mask, although I did choose my profile picture because I'd like to think that I look a little like Kaya Scodelario. Well, maybe we don't look a whole lot alike, but I do have brown hair, blue eyes, and freckles. And we're the same age (as of today). Maybe if my face were just thinner...oh well, stay tuned. If I do put pics up it'll be on my picture progress page. I need to take a current picture of my body so I can put up before/after pics, plus my sister just unearthed a Christmas photo of me two years ago and my face was so much fatter! Haha I'll have to put that up.
Alright ladies, gotta study for my exams. If any of you are going through finals I wish you the best of luck!
♥ Toni
My Facebook has been overflowing with "happy birthday this" and :have an awesome birthday that." I really wasn't sure how many people would comment outside of the people I go to college with, but even my boss wished me a happy birthday.
So today after my first final (which I'm pretty sure I got an A on, it was ridiculously easy) I went to the gym like I said I would. And the damage was right there on the scale: 125 lbs. How oh how did I manage to gain 5 lbs in 5 days? It ain't possible. Must be the tons of food still in my system, so despite it being my birthday I'm restricting today for the start of the SGD. And to be honest I feel really good about it. I'm not thinking "dammit it's my birthday and I should eat whatever I want. " I'm thinking "it's my birthday and I'm getting back into the game so I can get this weight off." And it feels pretty awesome. I'm glad I wasn't begging to get off of the elliptical today, which I was on for over an hour.
But yeah other than the final, my birthday and food nothing else is really going on today. I'm watching The Piano for my film music class and continuing my search for dance classes. I don't want to spend a bunch of money to take like 3 classes a week but switching from 4 classes to 1 or 2 a week will be difficult. I just want to dance! But I have other priorities this summer. My jobs mainly. And losing more weight. I went from having to lose only 8 more lbs to get to my UGW and now I'm back to having to lose 13. I'm praying a lot of what I gained will be gone tomorrow. I'm drinking tons of water and cutting back the calories, so we'll see.
Oh and something I found out today (more dance related stuff): one of the teachers at the studio right around the corner from my house is my old HS dance team assistant coach. Erm...I don't know what it'll be like if I choose to dance there this summer. I never quite warmed up to any of my coaches back in high school. They liked to favor certain girls and I wasn't really one of them, but she was the nicest out of the three so that's good. And another one of the instructors is actually a girl in the grade below me who I remember from high school. Weird! I can't imagine taking dance classes from a girl who is younger than myself, especially since I'm not even really a beginner. We'll see, we'll see...
Ok, time for food. I was very much on track today and I plan on having nothing more to eat until after my final tomorrow and after I hit the gym again.
Breakfast was 6 oz of cream of wheat (90 cal), 1 tbsp brown sugar (35 cal), coffee with 1 tbsp skim milk (5 cal), 1/2 of a canned peach (50 cal), and 1 bagel (160 cal) with toppings of butter (30 cal) and cream cheese (50 cal). It was kind of a bigger breakfast than I'm used to. 420 calories total. Then I went to lunch around 3 because it was fresh cookie day. I had two small chocolate chip cookies (110 cal) with 4 oz of 2% milk (60 cal), some french fries (60 cal), and veggies (25 cal) with ranch (75 cal). That came to 330 calories. So my intake today was 750 calories and at the gym I burned off 760, so my net total is -10 calories for the day. Phew! Great for my first day back to restricting in almost a week.
And one last thing. I might, might follow in Amber's footsteps and post a picture or two of myself. Might. I'll admit I'm not hesitant entirely because of self esteem issues (well, maybe slightly), but you know how it can be on the internet, although I have wanted to put a face to my blog for a while now. I don't quite know what you all think I look like and if what I actually look like contradicts greatly with your imaginations. It's always interesting to see the face behind the mask, although I did choose my profile picture because I'd like to think that I look a little like Kaya Scodelario. Well, maybe we don't look a whole lot alike, but I do have brown hair, blue eyes, and freckles. And we're the same age (as of today). Maybe if my face were just thinner...oh well, stay tuned. If I do put pics up it'll be on my picture progress page. I need to take a current picture of my body so I can put up before/after pics, plus my sister just unearthed a Christmas photo of me two years ago and my face was so much fatter! Haha I'll have to put that up.
Alright ladies, gotta study for my exams. If any of you are going through finals I wish you the best of luck!
♥ Toni
Friday, May 27, 2011
My fat day was just a maintain day.
Just watched the season 2 finale of Glee. I don't want to give anything away just in case any of you are fans of the show and haven't seen the episode, but it was satisfying. Not as great as season one's finale. Loose ends were more or less tied up, with new story arcs being created for next season. I can't wait for season 3!
As for food today was alright, I didn't get to go to my regular jazz class because there was a dance show in the studio where class is held, so I went to that instead. It was amazing. It totally made me want to perform. I can't wait until I can. Ok yeah but anyway I didn't have those extra 350 calories burned, so all my exercise came from hopping on the elliptical this afternoon. I burned 770 calories.
Breakfast was relatively light. 30 blueberries (25 cal), a slice of cantaloupe (15 cal), 5 grapes (15 cal), half of a peach (45 cal), and an orange cranberry muffin (100 cal). Dinner was the killer tonight, but let me tell you it was sooooooo worth it. Tonight was the dining hall "ice creamery", meaning instead of machine frozen yogurt which sucks most of the time, the dining hall does it Coldstone style with real ice cream and mix in toppings. I waited a good 15 minutes in line for a scoop of chocolate and vanilla ice cream (260 cal) with walnuts (45 cal), and strawberries (55 cal). And actual dinner was better than usual. I had 5 oz of homestyle macaroni and cheese (130 cal), and 2.5 oz of bbq beef brisket (170 cal). While watching Glee I helped myself to two servings of miso soup (70 cal) and seaweed (15 cal). So my total intake today is 945 calories, and my net intake is 175 calories. I maintained my weight of 121 lbs when I got on the scale, so tomorrow I'm not letting one edible thing touch my lips until after my workout at 11 am. I need to start cutting back on the food. That -600 calorie day was awesome and I want another one soon.
As for food today was alright, I didn't get to go to my regular jazz class because there was a dance show in the studio where class is held, so I went to that instead. It was amazing. It totally made me want to perform. I can't wait until I can. Ok yeah but anyway I didn't have those extra 350 calories burned, so all my exercise came from hopping on the elliptical this afternoon. I burned 770 calories.
Breakfast was relatively light. 30 blueberries (25 cal), a slice of cantaloupe (15 cal), 5 grapes (15 cal), half of a peach (45 cal), and an orange cranberry muffin (100 cal). Dinner was the killer tonight, but let me tell you it was sooooooo worth it. Tonight was the dining hall "ice creamery", meaning instead of machine frozen yogurt which sucks most of the time, the dining hall does it Coldstone style with real ice cream and mix in toppings. I waited a good 15 minutes in line for a scoop of chocolate and vanilla ice cream (260 cal) with walnuts (45 cal), and strawberries (55 cal). And actual dinner was better than usual. I had 5 oz of homestyle macaroni and cheese (130 cal), and 2.5 oz of bbq beef brisket (170 cal). While watching Glee I helped myself to two servings of miso soup (70 cal) and seaweed (15 cal). So my total intake today is 945 calories, and my net intake is 175 calories. I maintained my weight of 121 lbs when I got on the scale, so tomorrow I'm not letting one edible thing touch my lips until after my workout at 11 am. I need to start cutting back on the food. That -600 calorie day was awesome and I want another one soon.
Working towards that flat stomach...
♥ Toni
P.S.-Olivia: Oh wow yeah maybe we'll actually run into each other, although I'll be on campus all day hanging around Porter. I'm super short and my best friend has fire engine red hair if that's any clue as to who I am. ;)
P.S.-Olivia: Oh wow yeah maybe we'll actually run into each other, although I'll be on campus all day hanging around Porter. I'm super short and my best friend has fire engine red hair if that's any clue as to who I am. ;)
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Fat Day
I'm sorry I didn't post. I was up until 3 am working on my game design project. Maybe I'll post it once it's done, but it's giving me so much trouble right now.
So yeah, I don't like fat days. I'm having one right now because of how much I ate last night and even from the small amount I ate this morning.
Yesterday for breakfast I had 30 blueberries (25 cal), 2 slices of pineapple (30 cal), 1/2 of a peach (45 cal), and coffee with 2% milk (10 cal) before my 8 am class. By the time I got out of the section at 10:30 I was starving, so I grabbed half of a bagel with butter (90 cal), a slice of ham (45 cal), half of a kiwi (20 cal), and 1/2 of a small orange (25 cal). All was fine and dandy after that. I went to dance class (-300 cal) and the gym (-515 cal) and weighed myself. 121.0 lbs. It was an ok day. Then I had dinner. 20 tortilla chips with nacho toppings (225 cal), a small slice of hawaiian pizza (115 cal), and 3 sugar cookies (240 cal). Then I was munching on seaweed all night while programming my game (40 cal). So my total for the day was 910 calories, and my net intake was 95 calories. Not terrible, but I know that was only because of all the exercise I got in.
Oh and with only 2 weeks left of school I lost my ID. Just great. Now I have to buy a new one. $20. For a piece of plastic. I'm going to try to convince the student housing building to charge me the replacement ID fee instead of the new ID fee. That would cost me only $5. Much better.
There's not much else to talk about. The day is still young. I'll post today's stats later. For now I'll leave you with two blogs I recently started following. There's ullalexie's Emerging From a Cocoon of Fat and Violet's Ethereal Dream. Go show them some love! Or at least browse a few of their posts.
Ok, I'll be back. I hope you all have a great day (or at least a skinnier one than mine).
♥ Toni
P.S.-49 followers! Gah so close to 50! You guys are awesome. =)
P.P.S.-I took a new picture of my thigh gap. It's like twice as big now! It's on my "Progress in Photos" tab.
So yeah, I don't like fat days. I'm having one right now because of how much I ate last night and even from the small amount I ate this morning.
Yesterday for breakfast I had 30 blueberries (25 cal), 2 slices of pineapple (30 cal), 1/2 of a peach (45 cal), and coffee with 2% milk (10 cal) before my 8 am class. By the time I got out of the section at 10:30 I was starving, so I grabbed half of a bagel with butter (90 cal), a slice of ham (45 cal), half of a kiwi (20 cal), and 1/2 of a small orange (25 cal). All was fine and dandy after that. I went to dance class (-300 cal) and the gym (-515 cal) and weighed myself. 121.0 lbs. It was an ok day. Then I had dinner. 20 tortilla chips with nacho toppings (225 cal), a small slice of hawaiian pizza (115 cal), and 3 sugar cookies (240 cal). Then I was munching on seaweed all night while programming my game (40 cal). So my total for the day was 910 calories, and my net intake was 95 calories. Not terrible, but I know that was only because of all the exercise I got in.
Oh and with only 2 weeks left of school I lost my ID. Just great. Now I have to buy a new one. $20. For a piece of plastic. I'm going to try to convince the student housing building to charge me the replacement ID fee instead of the new ID fee. That would cost me only $5. Much better.
There's not much else to talk about. The day is still young. I'll post today's stats later. For now I'll leave you with two blogs I recently started following. There's ullalexie's Emerging From a Cocoon of Fat and Violet's Ethereal Dream. Go show them some love! Or at least browse a few of their posts.
Ok, I'll be back. I hope you all have a great day (or at least a skinnier one than mine).
♥ Toni
P.S.-49 followers! Gah so close to 50! You guys are awesome. =)
P.P.S.-I took a new picture of my thigh gap. It's like twice as big now! It's on my "Progress in Photos" tab.
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
I'm getting that light-headed feeling...
Aww thank you girls for your support about last night and earlier today. I must say I'm feeling much better and here's why:
Food was excellent. I stuck to my goal of less than 250 calories and most of it was raw fruits and vegetables. I only had one meal that consisted of 6 slices of cucumber and 4 baby carrots (20 cal), 1/2 cup apple and celery root salad in a cinnamon dressing (60 cal), coffee with Equal and 2 tbsp 2% milk (15 cal), and 3 oz of spinach and celery in sesame dressing (40 cal). I just finished 2 cups of veggie broth (30 cal) and my total comes to 165 calories. I burned off 350 in dance and another 430 at the gym, so my net intake is -615 calories. I must say this is a personal best. And my weight is down almost 2 lbs from yesterday. It's now at 121.75 and should be in the teens by Friday...hopefully.
Sorry, this is going to be a quick post. No thinspo. No time! I have a lot of work to do before finals. I love you all though!
♥ Toni
Food was excellent. I stuck to my goal of less than 250 calories and most of it was raw fruits and vegetables. I only had one meal that consisted of 6 slices of cucumber and 4 baby carrots (20 cal), 1/2 cup apple and celery root salad in a cinnamon dressing (60 cal), coffee with Equal and 2 tbsp 2% milk (15 cal), and 3 oz of spinach and celery in sesame dressing (40 cal). I just finished 2 cups of veggie broth (30 cal) and my total comes to 165 calories. I burned off 350 in dance and another 430 at the gym, so my net intake is -615 calories. I must say this is a personal best. And my weight is down almost 2 lbs from yesterday. It's now at 121.75 and should be in the teens by Friday...hopefully.
Sorry, this is going to be a quick post. No thinspo. No time! I have a lot of work to do before finals. I love you all though!
♥ Toni
Monday, May 23, 2011
Back to the drawing board...
So yeah, of course I gained weight over the weekend. I'm so ashamed of all I ate. How bad was it? Popcorn, candy, pizza, hotdogs, nachos, cereal, the list goes on.123.5 lbs today after dance and an hour at the gym. Fuck. That's a gain of almost 3 lbs! Tomorrow I'm waking up at 8am to get in a nice, long workout to burn off this FAT.
Food today was ok. I feel like I ate a lot more than I did. For breakfast I had half of a bagel, with half of it spread with butter and the other cream cheese (150 cal) and a fruit salad/yogurt combo. 3 oz of peach yogurt (80 cal), 10 grapes (35 cal), 20 blueberries (15 cal), 1/4 green apple (20 cal), 1/2 banana (40 cal), 1 slice of pineapple (15 cal), and one slice of cantaloupe (15 cal). So breakfast totaled 370. I didn't eat for another 8 hours until dinner. I had a small roasted potato (55 cal), 1/2 cup macaroni noodles with 3 tbsp red sauce (125 cal), a small salad with 2 cups of lettuce (15 cal), 1.25 tbsp ranch (90 cal), 1/2 tbsp bacon bits (15 cal), and cherry tomatoes and cucumber (20 cal). I overindulged with dessert. I had a peanut butter cookie (70 cal), a small piece of lemon poppyseed cake (80 cal), and 5 cubes of jello (20 cal). All of this food adds up to 860 calories. Not as good as I wanted to do today, but I burned off 1,050 calories with dance and the gym, so my net intake is -190 calories. A negative day. Good. I'd still like to keep my actual intakes to less than 600, and ideally less than 500. And I'd really like my net intakes to be at -200 for the next two weeks. That should get me to somewhere around 118 lbs by my birthday...and dance tryouts.
Food today was ok. I feel like I ate a lot more than I did. For breakfast I had half of a bagel, with half of it spread with butter and the other cream cheese (150 cal) and a fruit salad/yogurt combo. 3 oz of peach yogurt (80 cal), 10 grapes (35 cal), 20 blueberries (15 cal), 1/4 green apple (20 cal), 1/2 banana (40 cal), 1 slice of pineapple (15 cal), and one slice of cantaloupe (15 cal). So breakfast totaled 370. I didn't eat for another 8 hours until dinner. I had a small roasted potato (55 cal), 1/2 cup macaroni noodles with 3 tbsp red sauce (125 cal), a small salad with 2 cups of lettuce (15 cal), 1.25 tbsp ranch (90 cal), 1/2 tbsp bacon bits (15 cal), and cherry tomatoes and cucumber (20 cal). I overindulged with dessert. I had a peanut butter cookie (70 cal), a small piece of lemon poppyseed cake (80 cal), and 5 cubes of jello (20 cal). All of this food adds up to 860 calories. Not as good as I wanted to do today, but I burned off 1,050 calories with dance and the gym, so my net intake is -190 calories. A negative day. Good. I'd still like to keep my actual intakes to less than 600, and ideally less than 500. And I'd really like my net intakes to be at -200 for the next two weeks. That should get me to somewhere around 118 lbs by my birthday...and dance tryouts.
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Finally I get some time to myself.
So at this very moment, right now, is probably the last time for another, oh, 70 or so hours that I'll have time to breathe. But before I go into that I want to respond to some comments.
Ariana - Yeah I know what you mean about the digital scales. I also heard not to use them on carpet? I just don't trust them, so I use scales with a needle or sliding scales. Like those ancient ones where you stand on it and move the little weights yourself.
Olivia - Oh man really? I know all the transfers who live on campus are put into Porter, but if you're thinking about somewhere off campus there are some awesome houses at the base of the university near the entrance. I don't know much else about off campus housing though. As for being in town, I know some friends of mine who are always down for partying. We'll need some stress relief from finals. haha
Thin_Envy - Can I tell you a secret? I have no idea how I'm motivation for you because for the past few months I've been trying so hard to catch up with you weight-wise. I know my UGW right now is 112, but I can't imagine how 110 would look on me. I've never been that small, so if you're ever having a "fat day" come to me and I'll tell you how silly and thin you are! Because you're one of the girls who keeps me most motivated!
Ok, so this weekend. Here's the sitch:
Friday
7 am: wake up to go to the gym
9:30-10:40 am: go to section
11 am: fill out paperwork to declare film pre-major
11:30 am-2 pm: get in a sun soaking session and start reading Beloved, then shower
2-3:10 pm: class
3:10-7:30 pm: go get tickets for Pirates 4, go to CVS for misc girly things, do laundry, read more Beloved
7:30: leave for Pirates 4 for friend's b-day
10:05: watch Pirates 4
approx midnight: go to sleep
Saturday
8 am: wake up to get ready for cheer tryouts
9:15 am: head to dance studio to get to cheer tryouts early
10 am-2 pm: tryouts
2-7pm: HOMEWORK (reading, programming, essay, etc), possibly eat somewhere in there
7-8 pm: get dressed for club (alien themed)
8 pm: head to club for other friend's b-day
9-11:30 pm: clubbin!
approx 11:30: head out early to get sleep for tryouts on Sunday
approx midnight: go to sleep
Sunday
8 am: wake up for cheer tryouts
9:15 am: head to tryouts
10 am-2 pm: tryouts
2pm on: FREEDOM!!! (and probably homework)
So basically I'm dead. By Sunday afternoon I'll be running on empty.
Food:
Yesterday I totaled in at 620 calories. I won't bore you with the food. I burned 650 calories that day so my net total was -30 calories. Not terrible, especially since I weighed in at 120.5.
Today was soooooo much better. I had one actual meal and one snack-like meal later in the day. Earlier I ate 1/2 penne pasta with meat sauce and parmesan (155 cal), 4 thick cut french fries (40 cal), and 4 oz of chicken ortega soup (150 cal). Later I just had some frozen yogurt (75 cal), and veggies with ranch (100 cal). So my total comes to 495 calories, and I burned off 700 through dance and the gym so my net intake today was -205 calories. The downside: I weighed in at 121.5 lbs, which of course only pushed me harder to burn more calories on the elliptical. I did weigh myself at 9 pm, so I'm sure my weigh in tomorrow morning will be much more accurate.
I know this post is already looooooooooooong, but I want to talk quickly about my birthday. It's coming up in early June and I know what I want to do. Have I talked about this? Well if I have I'm mentioning it again.The local theater plays previously released (usually cult or classic) movies every weekend at midnight. The movie they're playing 2 days before my birthday? Mean Girls!!! Only one of my most favorite movies ever! My mom took me out of school early the day it premiered (I was in 6th grade) so we could see it together. I've seen it over 40 times and know all the dialogue! I'm so excited for this, it's really one of the best ways to celebrate my birthday. And there's this really cool burger place downtown that everyone but me has been to, so I want to go. Hopefully I'll be at least 118 lbs, so I may allow myself an indulgence. This burger place is known for their unique burgers. A patty in between two grilled cheese sandwiches anyone? How about one surrounded by two glazed doughnuts? One topped with macaroni and tomato? I'm really looking forward to this.
Hot damn, enough about me. I congratulate you if you've read this far. Your reward:
Ariana - Yeah I know what you mean about the digital scales. I also heard not to use them on carpet? I just don't trust them, so I use scales with a needle or sliding scales. Like those ancient ones where you stand on it and move the little weights yourself.
Olivia - Oh man really? I know all the transfers who live on campus are put into Porter, but if you're thinking about somewhere off campus there are some awesome houses at the base of the university near the entrance. I don't know much else about off campus housing though. As for being in town, I know some friends of mine who are always down for partying. We'll need some stress relief from finals. haha
Thin_Envy - Can I tell you a secret? I have no idea how I'm motivation for you because for the past few months I've been trying so hard to catch up with you weight-wise. I know my UGW right now is 112, but I can't imagine how 110 would look on me. I've never been that small, so if you're ever having a "fat day" come to me and I'll tell you how silly and thin you are! Because you're one of the girls who keeps me most motivated!
Ok, so this weekend. Here's the sitch:
Friday
7 am: wake up to go to the gym
9:30-10:40 am: go to section
11 am: fill out paperwork to declare film pre-major
11:30 am-2 pm: get in a sun soaking session and start reading Beloved, then shower
2-3:10 pm: class
3:10-7:30 pm: go get tickets for Pirates 4, go to CVS for misc girly things, do laundry, read more Beloved
7:30: leave for Pirates 4 for friend's b-day
10:05: watch Pirates 4
approx midnight: go to sleep
Saturday
8 am: wake up to get ready for cheer tryouts
9:15 am: head to dance studio to get to cheer tryouts early
10 am-2 pm: tryouts
2-7pm: HOMEWORK (reading, programming, essay, etc), possibly eat somewhere in there
7-8 pm: get dressed for club (alien themed)
8 pm: head to club for other friend's b-day
9-11:30 pm: clubbin!
approx 11:30: head out early to get sleep for tryouts on Sunday
approx midnight: go to sleep
Sunday
8 am: wake up for cheer tryouts
9:15 am: head to tryouts
10 am-2 pm: tryouts
2pm on: FREEDOM!!! (and probably homework)
So basically I'm dead. By Sunday afternoon I'll be running on empty.
Food:
Yesterday I totaled in at 620 calories. I won't bore you with the food. I burned 650 calories that day so my net total was -30 calories. Not terrible, especially since I weighed in at 120.5.
Today was soooooo much better. I had one actual meal and one snack-like meal later in the day. Earlier I ate 1/2 penne pasta with meat sauce and parmesan (155 cal), 4 thick cut french fries (40 cal), and 4 oz of chicken ortega soup (150 cal). Later I just had some frozen yogurt (75 cal), and veggies with ranch (100 cal). So my total comes to 495 calories, and I burned off 700 through dance and the gym so my net intake today was -205 calories. The downside: I weighed in at 121.5 lbs, which of course only pushed me harder to burn more calories on the elliptical. I did weigh myself at 9 pm, so I'm sure my weigh in tomorrow morning will be much more accurate.
I know this post is already looooooooooooong, but I want to talk quickly about my birthday. It's coming up in early June and I know what I want to do. Have I talked about this? Well if I have I'm mentioning it again.The local theater plays previously released (usually cult or classic) movies every weekend at midnight. The movie they're playing 2 days before my birthday? Mean Girls!!! Only one of my most favorite movies ever! My mom took me out of school early the day it premiered (I was in 6th grade) so we could see it together. I've seen it over 40 times and know all the dialogue! I'm so excited for this, it's really one of the best ways to celebrate my birthday. And there's this really cool burger place downtown that everyone but me has been to, so I want to go. Hopefully I'll be at least 118 lbs, so I may allow myself an indulgence. This burger place is known for their unique burgers. A patty in between two grilled cheese sandwiches anyone? How about one surrounded by two glazed doughnuts? One topped with macaroni and tomato? I'm really looking forward to this.
Hot damn, enough about me. I congratulate you if you've read this far. Your reward:
I guess I'm feeling a little leggy today.
♥ Toni
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
My post from earlier was getting too long, so I decided to make a new one.
Alright so my -150 plan didn't go so well today. I ate a little more than I planned and didn't exercise as much as I wanted to, but I was also feeling sore as hell after dance class, plus I'm already sick. I did break my ritual though. Yes, I have one. One that I follow every time I weigh myself, I'll explain in a sec. And even though I broke it just this once I weighed in at 121.5 lbs. Down .25 lbs from yesterday, yay! I think I'll actually be able to get to 121.0 by Saturday, maybe less!
Food was about 700 today. As i said earlier the yogurt, blueberries and banana were 200 cals. Then for lunch I had 6 oz beef &barley soup (75 cal), a few bites of bean, cucumber, and tomato salad in sesame sauce (45 cal), 2 wheat rolls (150 cal), 1 oatmeal raisin cookie (75 cal), a small brownie (60 cal), and another cookie later on (90 cal). Total calories consumed was 690 calories, and I burned off 350 in dance, so net total is 340 calories. Still not bad, still under 500 calories.
Dance was AWESOME today. We started a routine to Lady Gaga's "Judas". Despite my teacher's reluctance to the Gaga, she obliged us and gave us a really fun routine! I'm so excited for the last 3 1/2 weeks of class. =)
Ok yes, the ritual I mentioned. I do it to minimize the weight I carry every time I weigh myself. First off, I try not to eat or drink anything for at least 6 hours before I go to the gym, and waking up early and hitting the elliptical is even better. Then, when I sweated all the pounds off, I go into the girl's locker room and go to the bathroom. While I'm in there I change my sports bra to a thin, cotton training bra and then come out, wash my hands, and go weigh myself, and when I do this I'm wearing nothing but my undies and cotton bra. This is the closest I can come to being totally naked so I can optimize the weight I've lost. And then afterwards I fill up my water bottle and drink at least 24 oz of water to rehydrate myself. So there you have it. I think it works pretty well. I seem to be a little bit smaller every time I do it.
Ok gotta finish a draft of this essay that's due for peer review tomorrow!
Food was about 700 today. As i said earlier the yogurt, blueberries and banana were 200 cals. Then for lunch I had 6 oz beef &barley soup (75 cal), a few bites of bean, cucumber, and tomato salad in sesame sauce (45 cal), 2 wheat rolls (150 cal), 1 oatmeal raisin cookie (75 cal), a small brownie (60 cal), and another cookie later on (90 cal). Total calories consumed was 690 calories, and I burned off 350 in dance, so net total is 340 calories. Still not bad, still under 500 calories.
Dance was AWESOME today. We started a routine to Lady Gaga's "Judas". Despite my teacher's reluctance to the Gaga, she obliged us and gave us a really fun routine! I'm so excited for the last 3 1/2 weeks of class. =)
Ok yes, the ritual I mentioned. I do it to minimize the weight I carry every time I weigh myself. First off, I try not to eat or drink anything for at least 6 hours before I go to the gym, and waking up early and hitting the elliptical is even better. Then, when I sweated all the pounds off, I go into the girl's locker room and go to the bathroom. While I'm in there I change my sports bra to a thin, cotton training bra and then come out, wash my hands, and go weigh myself, and when I do this I'm wearing nothing but my undies and cotton bra. This is the closest I can come to being totally naked so I can optimize the weight I've lost. And then afterwards I fill up my water bottle and drink at least 24 oz of water to rehydrate myself. So there you have it. I think it works pretty well. I seem to be a little bit smaller every time I do it.
Ok gotta finish a draft of this essay that's due for peer review tomorrow!
Big sweaters, my favorite!
I really want a form fitting white dress.
Think Lindsay Lohan court appearance. I looooooved that dress.
What I wouldn't do for legs like these.
Hope all of your nights are going well. Mine's a hell of a lot better than last night.
♥ Toni
P.S.- This is from like a week ago and I never answered this question. My roommates were ragging on Nicole Richie because they think she's too thin and looks anorexic. If only they knew she's pretty much my body idol, especially since we're about the same height.
P.S.- This is from like a week ago and I never answered this question. My roommates were ragging on Nicole Richie because they think she's too thin and looks anorexic. If only they knew she's pretty much my body idol, especially since we're about the same height.
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Maybe I'll at least hit Weight Goal #5.
I'm sorry for not commenting much the past few days...and I'm sorry I haven't been sticking to my eating goals.
First it was 118 lbs by this Saturday.
Then it changed to 120.
Now I'm moving it up to 121.
This is because yesterday I did spectacular, and then not so spectacular. I finished the day with only 245 calories, and had burned off 675 at the gym, so a net total of -430. I didn't weigh myself though. I wanted Friday's disaster to wear off a little. Then I went to go see Raiders of the Lost Ark with Aaron and my friends at the local movie theater (they do midnight movies every weekend with classics films). I had a hot chocolate, some popcorn, and Reese's Pieces. Even though I know it wasn't much, I must have eaten at least 450 more calories, bringing my total to 695 calories and my net total to 20 calories. Yes, I know that's actually really good but I really wanted to stick to my planned intake for the week. So I've compromised. I'll try to stick to losing only 2 lbs by Saturday - at least I'll be at my next weight goal. =)
Today I didn't fare so well. Throughout the day I've been feeling more and more sick. Sneezing, fatigue (despite 8 hours of sleep), soreness. The whole 9 yards. And I had the runs. Sorry, that was probably TMA. How did I cope? I ate and didn't exercise. I had a turkey sandwich (375 cal), a slice of pepperoni pizza (150 cal), a milkshake (at least 450 cal), french fries (didn't keep track), and some cookies (something like 200 cal). So well over 1,200 calories. Not a binge, not restriction. I feel awful just the same though. My only solace is that my RMR will probably balance it out and I'll be neutral when it comes to weight gain. Tomorrow I'll at least be getting exercise.
New plan: eat a maximum of 550 calories and burn at least 700 calories a day. Actually, all I need is a net total of -150. With a resting metabolic rate of 1,250 I should, mathematically, be at 121 lbs by Saturday.
Mini celebration I've been forgetting to mention: at 123 lbs I've officially lost 25 lbs since my highest goal weight last Thanksgiving.
First it was 118 lbs by this Saturday.
Then it changed to 120.
Now I'm moving it up to 121.
This is because yesterday I did spectacular, and then not so spectacular. I finished the day with only 245 calories, and had burned off 675 at the gym, so a net total of -430. I didn't weigh myself though. I wanted Friday's disaster to wear off a little. Then I went to go see Raiders of the Lost Ark with Aaron and my friends at the local movie theater (they do midnight movies every weekend with classics films). I had a hot chocolate, some popcorn, and Reese's Pieces. Even though I know it wasn't much, I must have eaten at least 450 more calories, bringing my total to 695 calories and my net total to 20 calories. Yes, I know that's actually really good but I really wanted to stick to my planned intake for the week. So I've compromised. I'll try to stick to losing only 2 lbs by Saturday - at least I'll be at my next weight goal. =)
Today I didn't fare so well. Throughout the day I've been feeling more and more sick. Sneezing, fatigue (despite 8 hours of sleep), soreness. The whole 9 yards. And I had the runs. Sorry, that was probably TMA. How did I cope? I ate and didn't exercise. I had a turkey sandwich (375 cal), a slice of pepperoni pizza (150 cal), a milkshake (at least 450 cal), french fries (didn't keep track), and some cookies (something like 200 cal). So well over 1,200 calories. Not a binge, not restriction. I feel awful just the same though. My only solace is that my RMR will probably balance it out and I'll be neutral when it comes to weight gain. Tomorrow I'll at least be getting exercise.
New plan: eat a maximum of 550 calories and burn at least 700 calories a day. Actually, all I need is a net total of -150. With a resting metabolic rate of 1,250 I should, mathematically, be at 121 lbs by Saturday.
Mini celebration I've been forgetting to mention: at 123 lbs I've officially lost 25 lbs since my highest goal weight last Thanksgiving.
Will I ever be that thin, hot college chick?
♥ Toni
P.S.- Could be my imagination, but I think my gap is ever so slightly bigger. Progress. :D
P.S.- Could be my imagination, but I think my gap is ever so slightly bigger. Progress. :D
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Will I ever get the hang of this?
I ate outside of my rules today. I had dinner...real dinner. And I felt so good about yesterday too. =(
I was doing so well too! Breakfast was 4.5 oz of yogurt with 1 tbsp granola and 30 blueberries (195 cal) plus 8 oz of coffee with equal and plain creamer (30 cal). Good.
Lunch was a green apple (30 cal), 2 pieces of pineapple (40 cal), and 1/2 cup of mango pieces (55 cal). Good.
Dinner was 3 mini cinnamon buns (190 cal), 8 oz of hot chocolate with whipped cream (150 cal), a small serving of spaghetti (120 cal), and a piece of flatbread pizza (175 cal). BAD.
Despite this big weakness, I burned 300 calories at the gym this morning and another 350 at dance, so my total is only 380 calories for the day. Good. Would have been better if I had just stuck to shrimp chowder, but whatever.
I weighed in at 125.25 lbs this morning after my 9 am workout. I was hoping for a lower number...and now with this pig out I had I'll be lucky if I'm any smaller tomorrow. Seriously, I'm going to try to survive on just coffee until 5 pm, which is when my modern dance class is over. It makes me pee like nothing else, which is good because the less water weight the better.
I have no crazy rants to go on this evening except this annoying thing I like to call: roommates and their friends. Currently I have 6 extra people in my room who are being hella loud and I'm definitely trying to go to sleep by midnight tonight considering I have to get up at 7 to go to my 8 am class. I'm...really tired of having roommates to be honest. I'll be so happy when I'm just rooming with Jenna next year in the apartments. And to top it off, they dissed the goddess that is Nicole Richie.
I was doing so well too! Breakfast was 4.5 oz of yogurt with 1 tbsp granola and 30 blueberries (195 cal) plus 8 oz of coffee with equal and plain creamer (30 cal). Good.
Lunch was a green apple (30 cal), 2 pieces of pineapple (40 cal), and 1/2 cup of mango pieces (55 cal). Good.
Dinner was 3 mini cinnamon buns (190 cal), 8 oz of hot chocolate with whipped cream (150 cal), a small serving of spaghetti (120 cal), and a piece of flatbread pizza (175 cal). BAD.
Despite this big weakness, I burned 300 calories at the gym this morning and another 350 at dance, so my total is only 380 calories for the day. Good. Would have been better if I had just stuck to shrimp chowder, but whatever.
I weighed in at 125.25 lbs this morning after my 9 am workout. I was hoping for a lower number...and now with this pig out I had I'll be lucky if I'm any smaller tomorrow. Seriously, I'm going to try to survive on just coffee until 5 pm, which is when my modern dance class is over. It makes me pee like nothing else, which is good because the less water weight the better.
I have no crazy rants to go on this evening except this annoying thing I like to call: roommates and their friends. Currently I have 6 extra people in my room who are being hella loud and I'm definitely trying to go to sleep by midnight tonight considering I have to get up at 7 to go to my 8 am class. I'm...really tired of having roommates to be honest. I'll be so happy when I'm just rooming with Jenna next year in the apartments. And to top it off, they dissed the goddess that is Nicole Richie.
I mean, come on, is she not perfection?
Whatever, I still like her.
Monday, May 9, 2011
Getting easier
I don't know why this is a separate post rather than an addition to my last post, but whatever. That post was mainly concerned with fashion faux pas anyway, which I'm happily surprised to find that a lot of you agreed with. I was sure that post would ruffle some feathers, but I guess we're pant-wearing ladies.
Savanna- I didn't even notice that guy! Haha too funny.
A.beautiful.mess- Red? Really? At least go for a classy black or nude, but red? Some girls, I swear...
Ok, this is just a record of the food I had today. I already posted my breakfast which ended in 215 calories. I didn't have much of a lunch, just 6 oz of tortilla soup (with some tortilla strips; 190 cal), and a cheat: a small piece of carrot cake (100 cal) and a few steak fries (115 cal). But I burned most of it off with dance (-300 cal) and 25 minutes on the elliptical (-305 cal). Then another quick bowl of tortilla soup (sans the tortilla strips; 160 cal) and some beef broth (plus 75% of my daily sodium, yuck; 20 cal), and my intake for the day is 800 calories, and my net intake is 195 calories. Yay.
I'm still trying to get a hold of not eating solid food, but considering the only non-raw, solid food I had today was the carrot cake and fries I think I'm doing ok. I may just change this to a liquid, soft, and raw food diet and then wean myself into ditching the raw food for a few days. I weighed in at 126 today (granted I had just eaten 3 hours ago) and want this extra weight off. 122 by the end of the week: that's my goal. Tomorrow I'm waking up at 8 and getting in a super early workout. Goal: burn at least 350 calories. Plus I know that because it's the morning I'll weigh less. And besides the 20 calories of beef broth in my tummy I'm going to bed hungry.
I can feel it, tomorrow is going to be a good day.
Savanna- I didn't even notice that guy! Haha too funny.
A.beautiful.mess- Red? Really? At least go for a classy black or nude, but red? Some girls, I swear...
Ok, this is just a record of the food I had today. I already posted my breakfast which ended in 215 calories. I didn't have much of a lunch, just 6 oz of tortilla soup (with some tortilla strips; 190 cal), and a cheat: a small piece of carrot cake (100 cal) and a few steak fries (115 cal). But I burned most of it off with dance (-300 cal) and 25 minutes on the elliptical (-305 cal). Then another quick bowl of tortilla soup (sans the tortilla strips; 160 cal) and some beef broth (plus 75% of my daily sodium, yuck; 20 cal), and my intake for the day is 800 calories, and my net intake is 195 calories. Yay.
I'm still trying to get a hold of not eating solid food, but considering the only non-raw, solid food I had today was the carrot cake and fries I think I'm doing ok. I may just change this to a liquid, soft, and raw food diet and then wean myself into ditching the raw food for a few days. I weighed in at 126 today (granted I had just eaten 3 hours ago) and want this extra weight off. 122 by the end of the week: that's my goal. Tomorrow I'm waking up at 8 and getting in a super early workout. Goal: burn at least 350 calories. Plus I know that because it's the morning I'll weigh less. And besides the 20 calories of beef broth in my tummy I'm going to bed hungry.
I can feel it, tomorrow is going to be a good day.
Motivation:
Woooooow, did I really just post thinspo
of a girl wearing jeggings and a crop top?
She's thin, it's mildly ok.
'night all,
♥ Toni
P.S.-45 followers! Thank you!
P.S.-45 followers! Thank you!
Shirts are NOT dresses, and leggings are NOT pants.
Ok I wasn't going to post so early but there are a few things I don't want to wait to talk about.
First, Ariana: I totally forgot about broth! A few months ago I bought a few cans and I still haven't eaten (drank?) them. I will definitely use those up and probably buy some bullion cubes. They take up way less space.
Second: Is there some sort of correlation between getting up early and sweating like you're in 102 degree weather? Because if there is I have it. I'm sorry, I know it's gross, but I feel like there's an ocean under my armpits right now, and this hasn't happened to me all year. In high school I used to sweat really badly, but since college started I've noticed a sharp decline in my perspiration, and I think it's because I wake up later. Today I woke up at 7:20, still later than high school (5:55, ugh how did I do that?) but I definitely think it has something to do with this yuckiness, and I am none too happy about it.
Third: I'm definitely taking in people's advice on this liquid fast thing and starting out very slow. For breakfast I had a 12 oz coffee with a tbsp of creamer (30 cal), 4 oz of strawberry yogurt (115 cal), and 1/4 cup of blueberries (25 cal). Then I had a second breakfast, but that was just another 8 ox of coffee with creamer (10 cal) and a clementine (35 cal). So my total is only up to 215 calories and I feel very content. I'm incorporating semi-solid foods and fruits. No breads, no meat, no sweets.
Fourth: This is totally unrelated, but I guess it could count as thinspo. This picture comes from a Facebook album of a friend of a friend. She's second to the right in light blue. Her and the girl in the LBD have very nice, thin legs. Legs that I'm jealous of, but...
First, Ariana: I totally forgot about broth! A few months ago I bought a few cans and I still haven't eaten (drank?) them. I will definitely use those up and probably buy some bullion cubes. They take up way less space.
Second: Is there some sort of correlation between getting up early and sweating like you're in 102 degree weather? Because if there is I have it. I'm sorry, I know it's gross, but I feel like there's an ocean under my armpits right now, and this hasn't happened to me all year. In high school I used to sweat really badly, but since college started I've noticed a sharp decline in my perspiration, and I think it's because I wake up later. Today I woke up at 7:20, still later than high school (5:55, ugh how did I do that?) but I definitely think it has something to do with this yuckiness, and I am none too happy about it.
Third: I'm definitely taking in people's advice on this liquid fast thing and starting out very slow. For breakfast I had a 12 oz coffee with a tbsp of creamer (30 cal), 4 oz of strawberry yogurt (115 cal), and 1/4 cup of blueberries (25 cal). Then I had a second breakfast, but that was just another 8 ox of coffee with creamer (10 cal) and a clementine (35 cal). So my total is only up to 215 calories and I feel very content. I'm incorporating semi-solid foods and fruits. No breads, no meat, no sweets.
Fourth: This is totally unrelated, but I guess it could count as thinspo. This picture comes from a Facebook album of a friend of a friend. She's second to the right in light blue. Her and the girl in the LBD have very nice, thin legs. Legs that I'm jealous of, but...
I am sorry but whoever the fuck says that piece of light blue cloth is a dress is off their fucking rocker. That is not a dress. That's barely even a tunic. I can't believe she kept her ass from showing the entire night (she's not wearing spanks underneath). What the fuck is the world coming to when that is considered a dress? If you notice the hem considerably higher than all the others, which are dresses, not a shirt parading around as a dress. I'm sorry, I just get a little OCD about girls and the things they call "clothes".
For instance:
This
(leggings as pants)
Is only ok when you do this
(wear a tunic/dress/skirt or shorts over them)
Or when you're doing this
(working out)
Otherwise you look like this
(camel toe out for everyone to see)
Or this
(ass out for everyone to see)
The absolute worst is when I see girls around my campus wearing leggings as pants and a crop top. It's just...no! Leggings aren't a substitute for pants. Pants are a substitute for pants. How hard is is to put on a nice pair of skinny jeans, or at the very least jeggings, than it is to parade around showing me your ass (and if you bend over most likely your thong too) because you couldn't put pants on? I mean, right? Does anyone else feel this way? I just hate it. I only wear leggings when I'm going to the gym. That's the only time. None of this cropped tee and sandals crap. Ugggggggggggggh! I'm sorry, it's just one of my biggest pet peeves.
Ok I feel like my exasperated rant over clothes and such has gone on long enough. I'll post back later concerning food and exercise and all that good stuff.
Stay lovely,
♥ Toni
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Easing into liquid fasting...
First day at attempted liquid fasting=kind of bad. Ok, pretty bad. I started out the day with a cheat. I had 4 oz of vegan chili (40 cal), green tea (0 cal), 6 oz of hot chocolate (115 cal), and 3/4 of an old fashioned glazed doughnut (225 cal). Not...terrible. Mostly liquid. Then I got back to my room and had some spiced cider (80 cal) and 4 packs of seaweed (15 cal). Then I had a mini box of Reese's Puffs cereal sans milk (120 cal), redvines (140 cal), and chips (150 cal). Yeah, so much for liquid. At least I've been peeing all day. I'll try better tomorrow, and I'll actually have exercise tomorrow, but for today my total came to 885 calories. At least it was under 1000, unlike the rest of my weekend.
Thank you to the girls who gave me tips on this diet excursion. I can't really juice my own stuff (I live in a dorm without a kitchen), but if I do drink juice I'll try to buy some organic pulpy stuff. I'll probably stick to mostly water, tea, and hot chocolate (haha, need the sugar). Maybe some Gatorade or V8 juice. No soda, no concentrate crap. Maybe if I'm feeling up to it a real piece of fruit
Oh and I'm up to 44 followers. =)
I'm always surprised to see that number go up. Thank you ladies for making me feel like I'm not completely boring.
Thank you to the girls who gave me tips on this diet excursion. I can't really juice my own stuff (I live in a dorm without a kitchen), but if I do drink juice I'll try to buy some organic pulpy stuff. I'll probably stick to mostly water, tea, and hot chocolate (haha, need the sugar). Maybe some Gatorade or V8 juice. No soda, no concentrate crap. Maybe if I'm feeling up to it a real piece of fruit
Oh and I'm up to 44 followers. =)
I'm always surprised to see that number go up. Thank you ladies for making me feel like I'm not completely boring.
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Yuuuuck
Alright I'm officially disgusted with myself. I ate helllllllllllllllllllla. Like, really, a lot.
So for dinner we all went to an Italian restaurant. It was a really good one too, the kind that keeps giving you bread when you don't ask for it. So guess who had 4, with butter (275 cal)? That's right, me. At least I also got a side salad with red wine vinaigrette (80 cal). My entree was a salami and mozzarella sandwich on a french roll (520 cal). So all in all it wasn't terrible. With the 525 calories I burned I was down to 350 total. But wait! There's more. We wen to Coldstone afterward...big mistake. I got a Cheesecake Fantasy in the love it size...in a waffle cone. It was, drum roll please, 660 calories total. Six hundred and sixty calories. For ice cream. Not even real food. So my grand total for the night was 1010 calories. No surprise that I was a whopping 127 lbs on the scale today after the gym. With all the damn food and smoothie in my stomach I'm sure I won't even be able to get rid of it by tomorrow.
Speaking of, Christy: I try to hop on the elliptical when I go to the gym, and on those I burn anywhere from 10.5-12 calories a minute, so that's how I burn so many in so little time. Like today I burned 710 calories in a 65 minute time span.
So far today my net intake is only 140. Brunch was pretty gruesome. I had some beef and barley soup (115 cal), veggies with ranch (55 cal), 12 oz of reduced fat chocolate milk (155 cal), and an apple danish (175 cal). Then a little bit later I had a mango smoothie (350 cal). It's an 850 total, but my exercise brings it down to 140. Aaron wants to go to Taco Bell for dinner. I don't know...they have some relatively low-cal options, so it's a possibility.
I'll try to update later, but you know me, I kind of procrastinate on that...oops.
So for dinner we all went to an Italian restaurant. It was a really good one too, the kind that keeps giving you bread when you don't ask for it. So guess who had 4, with butter (275 cal)? That's right, me. At least I also got a side salad with red wine vinaigrette (80 cal). My entree was a salami and mozzarella sandwich on a french roll (520 cal). So all in all it wasn't terrible. With the 525 calories I burned I was down to 350 total. But wait! There's more. We wen to Coldstone afterward...big mistake. I got a Cheesecake Fantasy in the love it size...in a waffle cone. It was, drum roll please, 660 calories total. Six hundred and sixty calories. For ice cream. Not even real food. So my grand total for the night was 1010 calories. No surprise that I was a whopping 127 lbs on the scale today after the gym. With all the damn food and smoothie in my stomach I'm sure I won't even be able to get rid of it by tomorrow.
Speaking of, Christy: I try to hop on the elliptical when I go to the gym, and on those I burn anywhere from 10.5-12 calories a minute, so that's how I burn so many in so little time. Like today I burned 710 calories in a 65 minute time span.
So far today my net intake is only 140. Brunch was pretty gruesome. I had some beef and barley soup (115 cal), veggies with ranch (55 cal), 12 oz of reduced fat chocolate milk (155 cal), and an apple danish (175 cal). Then a little bit later I had a mango smoothie (350 cal). It's an 850 total, but my exercise brings it down to 140. Aaron wants to go to Taco Bell for dinner. I don't know...they have some relatively low-cal options, so it's a possibility.
I'll try to update later, but you know me, I kind of procrastinate on that...oops.
Motivation:
To be tan and thin...I only wish.
Sorry for the depressing post.
♥ Toni
P.S.-Aaron's been sitting next to me this whole time. He'd like me to tell you all "hi." :)
P.S.-Aaron's been sitting next to me this whole time. He'd like me to tell you all "hi." :)
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Bored
So I'm totally waiting on Aaron to give me his headphones to do my homework right now...and I'm bored...so I thought I'd put a post up.
First of all he does not need those headphones to do his chem homework. We're in the library and I forgot mine in my room, so you think he'd be nice and give them to me. Nope. All he's doing is listening to freaking dub-step. I, however, need them to watch My Cousin Vinny for my film music essay. Ugh I wish he would be a bit more consideratesome of the time most of the time.
So the fast is going well, I guess. I'm eyeing this guy's chocolate muffin right about now. Splendid. At least I only have 6 more hours to go. How long did I say this fast was? 28 hours? Well let's hope I can hit 123 today. If not I'm going to rage super hard.
Ok got the headphones. I'll post later, probably really late. Sorry. =(
Later:
Good news - I'm down to 124.75 lbs.
Bad news - that means I only lost 1/2 a pound!
I guess I can't blame my body. I ended up eating at 6. Not the 28 hour fast I thought I'd have, but 24 hours is good enough. And I only had 4 oz of chicken & wild rice soup (100 cal), a small corner piece of focaccia (50 cal), and a super small piece of poppy seed cake (75 cal). And then I came home and had a mini pig out. 1 redvine and 1 peep (55 cal) and sour cream &onion chips (190 cal). Total for the day: 470 calories. Burned off 350 in jazz so net intake: 120 calories. At least I got all 80 points today for the 10 Day Diet. Hopefully if I can lose .5 lbs today, I can do the same tomorrow. Aiming for 124.0 lbs. And thanks for all the comments on my gap! I know it's tiny, but I'll post pics every 5 lbs maybe? to show the progress.
First of all he does not need those headphones to do his chem homework. We're in the library and I forgot mine in my room, so you think he'd be nice and give them to me. Nope. All he's doing is listening to freaking dub-step. I, however, need them to watch My Cousin Vinny for my film music essay. Ugh I wish he would be a bit more considerate
So the fast is going well, I guess. I'm eyeing this guy's chocolate muffin right about now. Splendid. At least I only have 6 more hours to go. How long did I say this fast was? 28 hours? Well let's hope I can hit 123 today. If not I'm going to rage super hard.
Ok got the headphones. I'll post later, probably really late. Sorry. =(
Later:
Good news - I'm down to 124.75 lbs.
Bad news - that means I only lost 1/2 a pound!
I guess I can't blame my body. I ended up eating at 6. Not the 28 hour fast I thought I'd have, but 24 hours is good enough. And I only had 4 oz of chicken & wild rice soup (100 cal), a small corner piece of focaccia (50 cal), and a super small piece of poppy seed cake (75 cal). And then I came home and had a mini pig out. 1 redvine and 1 peep (55 cal) and sour cream &onion chips (190 cal). Total for the day: 470 calories. Burned off 350 in jazz so net intake: 120 calories. At least I got all 80 points today for the 10 Day Diet. Hopefully if I can lose .5 lbs today, I can do the same tomorrow. Aiming for 124.0 lbs. And thanks for all the comments on my gap! I know it's tiny, but I'll post pics every 5 lbs maybe? to show the progress.
Motivation:
Yes, yes, yes, tanned and toned, just what I want to be. =)
Wishing a lovely evening for my lovely ladies,
♥ Toni
Monday, May 2, 2011
The Meaning of Life
Yes, the number of followers has reached that point. 42: the meaning of life.
My weekend was so-so. We'll see exactly how bad it was when in weigh in today.
Saturday was relatively ok. I had a turkey sandwich that I made in the dining hall. Bread (120 cal), 3 oz turkey (90 cal), 3 slices cheddar cheese (115 cal), and pickles, mustard, and lettuce (10 cal). I also had an orange (60 cal), some frozen yogurt (50cal), and a small piece of a blondie (45 cal) for a total of 490 calories. Then I burned 565 calories off with some jogging and the elliptical. I drank 2 L of water and got 8 hours of sleep, so another 80 point day for the 10 Day Diet.
Yesterday was kind of a blip. I had Easter candy and chips and was going to leave it at that because it was under 500 calories, but I ended up eating dinner which was a slice of pizza, some vegan chili, granola squares, and 1 piece of french toast. It's likely under 1000 calories total but I felt super terrible about it after, so I'm fasting today until I weigh in. Plus I didn't get any exercise yesterday, so my point count is only 50. =/
Today so far I've only had a cup of coffee with 3/4 tbsp of creamer (25 cal) and water, and I'm hoping I'll pee most of that out by 5. If I've gained anything more than 1 lb than I'll just fast until tomorrow's dance class. =)
So less than 3 weeks until cheer tryouts and about a month until dance tryouts. I need to be 118 in 19 days. We'll see how feasible that is once I've weighed in. If nothing else I want to be 118 by dance tryouts, which gives me an extra two weeks, so maybe 115. I'm going to have to work hard, but I think I can give it a go.
Ok, I'll post what I see on the scale later tonight and have more thinspiration for you lovely ladies soon.
♥ Toni
Later:
125.25. Only .75 lbs up from Friday. I can deal with that. It wasn't a full lb, so I allowed myself to eat dinner, but tomorrow I'm planning on going the whole day without food. At least until after dance class. So by the time I get home it'll be about 10 pm. That's...28 hours of fasting I believe. I just want to see a new number. I want 123. 122. 121...all the way down to 118.
Upside: I'm getting tanner. =)
Another upside: Remember the post on Thursday about jazz class and how I died afterwards because my teacher asked me to do the dance so many times? Today she told me I was the absolute best one in that routine.
And I really needed it at the time, too. It's that time of year again: the dance/drill team I was on in high school just got done with their week of tryouts and today they announced who made leadership. I was getting my nostalgia on like you wouldn't believe, but I was also really jealous because all that time I put into that team bubbled back up and the memory of never getting on leadership crept into my brain. Captain, co-captain, Senior Lieutenant, Junior Lieutenant. I was never any of it. But the past has passed. All I hope for now is to make the cheer or dance team. I'll worry about leadership only after I've crossed that bridge.
Ok food time. I've only had dinner, and tonight was Meatless Monday in my dining hall, so I had some vegetarian nachos (205 cal), veggie lasagna (95 cal), 6 oz. of Pepsi (75 cal), and 3 oz of apple crisp (135 cal), plus that coffee this morning (25 cal) equals 535 calories. Not ideal, but my all-day fast tomorrow should take care of it. Plus I burned 300 calories at dance today so my net total is 235 calories. I skipped the gym. I just really wasn't feeling up to it.
Ariana: It's ok! I totally fell off the 10 Day Diet my first go around. I'm planning on pretty much just making this a 30 Day Diet, so just jump back on after the first 10 days are up and we'll be on track together. =)
Speaking of the 10 Day Diet. My point total today is 70. 10 for food, 20 for everything else.
My weekend was so-so. We'll see exactly how bad it was when in weigh in today.
Saturday was relatively ok. I had a turkey sandwich that I made in the dining hall. Bread (120 cal), 3 oz turkey (90 cal), 3 slices cheddar cheese (115 cal), and pickles, mustard, and lettuce (10 cal). I also had an orange (60 cal), some frozen yogurt (50cal), and a small piece of a blondie (45 cal) for a total of 490 calories. Then I burned 565 calories off with some jogging and the elliptical. I drank 2 L of water and got 8 hours of sleep, so another 80 point day for the 10 Day Diet.
Yesterday was kind of a blip. I had Easter candy and chips and was going to leave it at that because it was under 500 calories, but I ended up eating dinner which was a slice of pizza, some vegan chili, granola squares, and 1 piece of french toast. It's likely under 1000 calories total but I felt super terrible about it after, so I'm fasting today until I weigh in. Plus I didn't get any exercise yesterday, so my point count is only 50. =/
Today so far I've only had a cup of coffee with 3/4 tbsp of creamer (25 cal) and water, and I'm hoping I'll pee most of that out by 5. If I've gained anything more than 1 lb than I'll just fast until tomorrow's dance class. =)
So less than 3 weeks until cheer tryouts and about a month until dance tryouts. I need to be 118 in 19 days. We'll see how feasible that is once I've weighed in. If nothing else I want to be 118 by dance tryouts, which gives me an extra two weeks, so maybe 115. I'm going to have to work hard, but I think I can give it a go.
Ok, I'll post what I see on the scale later tonight and have more thinspiration for you lovely ladies soon.
♥ Toni
Later:
125.25. Only .75 lbs up from Friday. I can deal with that. It wasn't a full lb, so I allowed myself to eat dinner, but tomorrow I'm planning on going the whole day without food. At least until after dance class. So by the time I get home it'll be about 10 pm. That's...28 hours of fasting I believe. I just want to see a new number. I want 123. 122. 121...all the way down to 118.
Upside: I'm getting tanner. =)
Another upside: Remember the post on Thursday about jazz class and how I died afterwards because my teacher asked me to do the dance so many times? Today she told me I was the absolute best one in that routine.
This was me today:
And I really needed it at the time, too. It's that time of year again: the dance/drill team I was on in high school just got done with their week of tryouts and today they announced who made leadership. I was getting my nostalgia on like you wouldn't believe, but I was also really jealous because all that time I put into that team bubbled back up and the memory of never getting on leadership crept into my brain. Captain, co-captain, Senior Lieutenant, Junior Lieutenant. I was never any of it. But the past has passed. All I hope for now is to make the cheer or dance team. I'll worry about leadership only after I've crossed that bridge.
Ok food time. I've only had dinner, and tonight was Meatless Monday in my dining hall, so I had some vegetarian nachos (205 cal), veggie lasagna (95 cal), 6 oz. of Pepsi (75 cal), and 3 oz of apple crisp (135 cal), plus that coffee this morning (25 cal) equals 535 calories. Not ideal, but my all-day fast tomorrow should take care of it. Plus I burned 300 calories at dance today so my net total is 235 calories. I skipped the gym. I just really wasn't feeling up to it.
Ariana: It's ok! I totally fell off the 10 Day Diet my first go around. I'm planning on pretty much just making this a 30 Day Diet, so just jump back on after the first 10 days are up and we'll be on track together. =)
Speaking of the 10 Day Diet. My point total today is 70. 10 for food, 20 for everything else.
Motivation:
Waiting for the days when I
can look this good in gym clothes.
Friday, April 29, 2011
Dance Toni Dance
Wow, 7 comments on last night's post, and 40 followers! It's crazy how fast this blog is growing and I couldn't be more appreciative.
I'm sorry I didn't update last night. I weighed in at 124.75 lbs after I totally died in dance class. It was really awesome though. My teacher split us up into 2 groups. I was in group 2. Before all of this we learned the last couple of 8 counts to our dance, then performed it. Ok so group 1 performs and literally all of them (the group was maybe 10 girls big) forgot the end to the dance. No biggie, we just learned it. Then Group 2 goes up. I get a surge of adrenaline and perform it without a hitch, so my teacher asks if I could stay up to dance with group1 one again. So I do. Then group 2 performs again. Then we all perform together. So I performed our dance 4. times. in. a. row. It was awesome, especially since some of the dance team girls were in the room before their practice. But damn was I tired and sweaty afterward. But also hyper. It was such a great feeling.
This morning I just had a quick workout. I went 45 minutes on the elliptical and burned 475 calories then opted for a cool down on the treadmill for 20 minutes and burned another 45 calories. So 510 calories burned in total.
So far I've only had lunch (and plan to keep it that way). I had a super small salad with 1/2 tbsp of ranch (40 cal), 6 oz of black bean soup (70 cal), a really small piece of pepperoni pizza (125 cal), 3 orange slices (20 cal), a bit of coconut frozen yogurt (50 cal), and 3 snickerdoodle cookies (really they were just sugar cookies with cinnamon on top; 190 cal) for a grand total of 495 calories. Juuuuuuuust under my limit, phew!
Alright, this was just a quick post, but I'll be back later. I'm going to go outside to do some more reading on Frankenstein and a little tanning. I know, I know. It's bad. I know. But dammit my legs are so white! Can you blame a Cali girl for wanting to be thin and tan? Haha. I'll catch up with you girlies later.
♥ Toni
I'm sorry I didn't update last night. I weighed in at 124.75 lbs after I totally died in dance class. It was really awesome though. My teacher split us up into 2 groups. I was in group 2. Before all of this we learned the last couple of 8 counts to our dance, then performed it. Ok so group 1 performs and literally all of them (the group was maybe 10 girls big) forgot the end to the dance. No biggie, we just learned it. Then Group 2 goes up. I get a surge of adrenaline and perform it without a hitch, so my teacher asks if I could stay up to dance with group1 one again. So I do. Then group 2 performs again. Then we all perform together. So I performed our dance 4. times. in. a. row. It was awesome, especially since some of the dance team girls were in the room before their practice. But damn was I tired and sweaty afterward. But also hyper. It was such a great feeling.
This morning I just had a quick workout. I went 45 minutes on the elliptical and burned 475 calories then opted for a cool down on the treadmill for 20 minutes and burned another 45 calories. So 510 calories burned in total.
So far I've only had lunch (and plan to keep it that way). I had a super small salad with 1/2 tbsp of ranch (40 cal), 6 oz of black bean soup (70 cal), a really small piece of pepperoni pizza (125 cal), 3 orange slices (20 cal), a bit of coconut frozen yogurt (50 cal), and 3 snickerdoodle cookies (really they were just sugar cookies with cinnamon on top; 190 cal) for a grand total of 495 calories. Juuuuuuuust under my limit, phew!
Alright, this was just a quick post, but I'll be back later. I'm going to go outside to do some more reading on Frankenstein and a little tanning. I know, I know. It's bad. I know. But dammit my legs are so white! Can you blame a Cali girl for wanting to be thin and tan? Haha. I'll catch up with you girlies later.
♥ Toni
Daily dose of thinspo:
Ugh I want a thin group of friends sooooo bad.
Well, might as well try to be the thinnest if we can't all be tiny.
Oh and a dash of extra thinspo:
Was she not the epitome of elegance today? And gorgeously thin?
I must say, Kate Middleton, er, Catherine, Duchess of Cambridge,
is now officially on my fashion radar. This dress was perfect.
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