Shirts are NOT dresses, and leggings are NOT pants.

Ok I wasn't going to post so early but there are a few things I don't want to wait to talk about.

First, Ariana: I totally forgot about broth! A few months ago I bought a few cans and I still haven't eaten (drank?) them. I will definitely use those up and probably buy some bullion cubes. They take up way less space.

Second: Is there some sort of correlation between getting up early and sweating like you're in 102 degree weather? Because if there is I have it. I'm sorry, I know it's gross, but I feel like there's an ocean under my armpits right now, and this hasn't happened to me all year. In high school I used to sweat really badly, but since college started I've noticed a sharp decline in my perspiration, and I think it's because I wake up later. Today I woke up at 7:20, still later than high school (5:55, ugh how did I do that?) but I definitely think it has something to do with this yuckiness, and I am none too happy about it.

Third: I'm definitely taking in people's advice on this liquid fast thing and starting out very slow. For breakfast I had a 12 oz coffee with a tbsp of creamer (30 cal), 4 oz of strawberry yogurt (115 cal), and 1/4 cup of blueberries (25 cal). Then I had a second breakfast, but that was just another 8 ox of coffee with creamer (10 cal) and a clementine (35 cal). So my total is only up to 215 calories and I feel very content. I'm incorporating semi-solid foods and fruits. No breads, no meat, no sweets.

Fourth: This is totally unrelated, but I guess it could count as thinspo. This picture comes from a Facebook album of a friend of a friend. She's second to the right in light blue. Her and the girl in the LBD have very nice, thin legs. Legs that I'm jealous of, but...

I am sorry but whoever the fuck says that piece of light blue cloth is a dress is off their fucking rocker. That is not a dress. That's barely even a tunic. I can't believe she kept her ass from showing the entire night (she's not wearing spanks underneath). What the fuck is the world coming to when that is considered a dress? If you notice the hem considerably higher than all the others, which are dresses, not a shirt parading around as a dress. I'm sorry, I just get a little OCD about girls and the things they call "clothes".

For instance:

This

 (leggings as pants)

Is only ok when you do this

(wear a tunic/dress/skirt or shorts over them)

Or when you're doing this

(working out)

Otherwise you look like this

(camel toe out for everyone to see)

 Or this

 

(ass out for everyone to see)

The absolute worst is when I see girls around my campus wearing leggings as pants and a crop top. It's just...no! Leggings aren't a substitute for pants. Pants are a substitute for pants. How hard is is to put on a nice pair of skinny jeans, or at the very least jeggings, than it is to parade around showing me your ass (and if you bend over most likely your thong too) because you couldn't put pants on? I mean, right? Does anyone else feel this way? I just hate it. I only wear leggings when I'm going to the gym. That's the only time. None of this cropped tee and sandals crap. Ugggggggggggggh! I'm sorry, it's just one of my biggest pet peeves.

Ok I feel like my exasperated rant over clothes and such has gone on long enough. I'll post back later concerning food and exercise and all that good stuff.

Stay lovely,

♥ Toni

Weight, Exercise, and Dancing

Official weigh-in: 125 lbs. Boooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
Well, I guess I'm not still at 127, and I've exercised every day this week, and I've been in the negatives, and I know I'll drop some weight when my digestive track gets back to normal, so I guess that's not all bad. I just want to weigh less. =(

Christy: a sea salt bath you say? Sounds tempting, and I would try it if I had 1) sea salt and 2) a bath tub. Damn my dorm bathrooms and it's endless supply of showers!

Otherwise thank you girls for the supportive comments last night. I actually just ate a little bit ago after going to the gym. I feel ok. I burned off 640 calories. I don't know my calorie count yet. I'll update on that later.

Food has been weird lately. I've been having a hard time telling whether or not I'm hungry or full. The feelings are the same. And no matter how much I do eat, I don't feel overtly full and I've been going to bed with a growling tummy. Maybe I just think I'm eating a lot? Right now I don't think I'm eating much like a disordered person. French fries, hot dogs, frozen yogurt, tacos. I mean I've really been indulging. I do think, however, that I've started to exercise like a disordered person. It's not just "Oh I'll go dance class for 90 minutes then do a little workout." It's "I'm going to dance class with the intent of being the best and then going to exercise to burn off the most amount of calories I can." I mean, I'm getting light headed a lot and my legs have been continually sore. I'm short of breath and my resting heart rate has gone up. I know this isn't normal. It's my perfectionist drive. Example: yesterday a new girl came into my jazz dance class (I prefer my jazz class much more to my modern dance class) and that sense of competition came over me. For about half the class I watched her. She was thin and pretty and I wanted to see if she was good at dancing, or at least catching on. I watched her stretch, do combinations across the floor, leaps and turns, and finally I concluded that she wasn't a threat, that she wasn't as good as me. Aren't I a self-centered egotistical bitch? At least that's what I think. Again, I'm a perfectionist. And I'm a girl. Those two traits are bound to manifest themselves into bitchiness at one point or another. I just like being the best, or one of the best. I feel like a failure any other way.

Ok I'm rambling again, and I still have more to post later. But for now I have to go, I'm taking a little shopping trip with some friends. Leggings, headbands, jeans, so much I need to buy!

Later: Alright, so I'm back from my trip. I bought leggings, but no headbands or jeans. One terrible thing about being short: jeans are nearly impossible to buy. I did get some new sports bras and cotton shorts. Yay for new exercise clothes!

When we got back to campus I indulged in a dining hall crunch wrap...on top of having two kid's scoops at Baskin Robin. Oh goody joy, I can't wait to see which number appears on the scale tomorrow. For now though, I'm too tired to calculate all that I ate. I'm sure it was horrid. All I want is sleep. Day 6 of consecutive gym time coming up tomorrow at 10 am. I hope you all are having a great start to your weekend. =)

♥ Toni