I might as well finish the 30 Day Challenge I dragged out into a whole summer.
Day Thirteen- Are you losing weight in a healthy or unhealthy way?
I suppose I'll be going about it the unhealthy way now.
Day fourteen- What’s your UGW? When you expect to reach it?
112 lbs. I want to reach it by the end of next quarter, which is some time in March.
Day Fifteen- Are you vegan or vegetarian? If so, has this helped you lose weight? If not, would you ever consider turning vegan or vegetarian?
No. I like meat and dairy too much. I tried and failed miraculously some time last year and decided after a week that it wasn't for me.
Day Sixteen- When did you first decide to lose weight?
Well I started this weight loss blog last December, but for the past 6 months I haven't been keeping up with my weight loss regimen, so I'm starting again now, today.
Day Seventeen- Do you have an eating disorder?
I consider myself ED/NOS at times. As of this very moment, no, I do not have an eating disorder, but once you go through a period of your life where you have disordered eating it's very hard not to carry that with you the rest of your life. At various times it'll just pop back up unexpectedly and there's really no telling when it could happen.
Day Eighteen- What food is your weakness?
Bread. No doubt about it. Bagels, potato bread, rolls, buns, ciabatta, baguettes, whatever you can think of really.
Day Nineteen- When is the last time you ate fast food?
Maybe a week ago? And it was Taco Bell.
Day Twenty- Favorite diet?
I rather enjoy the Skinny Girl Diet, but in general I like to keep my net calories under 800 every day.
Day Twenty-One- What are your clothing sizes?
I wear a small or medium shirt, dress, and skirt, depending on the brand, and anywhere from a size 4-8 in pants.
Day Twenty-Two- What was your lowest weight? How and why did you gain?
The summer before my freshman year I had my first brief flirtation with ED/NOS. I got down to 118 lbs. I gained because I got lazy I guess. I made my high school's dance/drill team and that consumed a lot of time.
Day Twenty-Three- Did the media play a role in your wanting to lose weight?
Not this time, no. Sure, thinspo helps, but I want to be the size I said I was going to get down to.
Day Twenty-Four- How do you feel about the terms pro-ana/pro-mia?
I'm ok with them. I'm well-aware that what I do is more of a lifestyle choice than an actual real-life disorder, but I'm sure it's a mix of both. I don't actively call what I post pro-ana or pro-mia, but I can see the appeal of that kind of branding.
Day Twenty-Five- Have you ever purged? If you have describe your first experience.
Yes. I'm not sure if this contradicts an earlier post of mine, because if very well might, but I believe my first successful purging took place last year. It was ice cream. It was still cold when it came up and didn't taste very different than it did going down. Since then the only other times I've successfully purged have been with ice cream.
Day Twenty-Six- What excites you most about reaching your ugw?
To be honest, I don't know. I want the cellulite to go away. I want to know that I can contort myself into any pose and not one part of me will look fat. I want a flat stomach and thighs that don't touch. I want my boobs to be small enough so that I don't have to wear a bra if I don't want to. And if I'm being honest, I want to be thinner than the girl Oliver had sex with. Is that stupid and vain? I think it is, but I still want it. I want to be able to know I can keep myself in check, that I can change something and that it's entirely in my hands to do so.
Day Twenty-Seven- How do you deal with being around food?
Well, we'll have to see, won't we?
Day Twenty-Eight- Do you want that “gap” between your legs? Why?
Yes. Because it'll mean that I'm thin.
Day Twenty-Nine- Your definition of beauty.
I'm still trying to figure that one out. Rose Byrne is a good example, though.
Day Thirty- 10 facts about you! And now, what are your stats?
I'll save this for tomorrow.
-Toni
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Sunday, December 4, 2011
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Day 12
30 Day Challenge
Day 12- What do you normally eat?
Well this is probably going to change once I get back to school but I really just eat whatever I want when I want, but I control the portion and the time in between meals. I think that has a lot to do with why I've maintained all through summer instead of gaining. During school I eat a lot of salad, yogurt, meat, water, coffee, and soup. And bread. I can't get enough of bread, especially rolls. I I'm having a good day I'll completely fuck it up over bread rolls. I expect I'll have a wider range of food now that me and my suite mates will be cooking for ourselves, but I'll be able to limit my intake and play around with food portions.
Day 12- What do you normally eat?
Well this is probably going to change once I get back to school but I really just eat whatever I want when I want, but I control the portion and the time in between meals. I think that has a lot to do with why I've maintained all through summer instead of gaining. During school I eat a lot of salad, yogurt, meat, water, coffee, and soup. And bread. I can't get enough of bread, especially rolls. I I'm having a good day I'll completely fuck it up over bread rolls. I expect I'll have a wider range of food now that me and my suite mates will be cooking for ourselves, but I'll be able to limit my intake and play around with food portions.
Monday, August 8, 2011
A week of absence.
So I guess having the 30 Day Challenge to answer to didn't really change the fact that I only visit Blogger once a week. I'm looking forward to reading every one else's posts...but I'm not looking forward to how much time it's going to take. lol But really I need to get crackalacking on keeping up with everyone. I feel bad that I'm not contributing as much. =(
Day Three (August 3rd)- A picture of your thinspiration. What features do you like about this person?
I have literally hundreds of thinspo pictures, some of which I haven't looked at in weeks, which makes it pretty much impossible to pick just one picture that sums up the body I want, but this one does it pretty well:
Day Four (August 4th)- Your greatest fears about weight loss.
I guess my biggest one would be getting down to my UGW of 112 and finding out that it's not where I want to be. I'd hate to have spent so much time and effort getting down to 112 lbs only to find that I'd have to lose even more weight to feel really good about my body. As it is now I feel ok about it, but I want to feel great about it one day.
Day Five (August 5th)- Why do you really want to lose this weight? Are you doing it for you?
I am. I am totally doing it for me. People say I was never fat, but 130 lbs on a 5'0" 12-year-old girl doesn't look proportionally right. And then of course most of you know I ballooned up to almost 150 last Thanksgiving, so I decided to take control of my weight. And the fact that my boyfriend thinks I look even hotter is definitely a plus. He always thought I looked beautiful, even at my heaviest. And he's a great guy for that.
Day Six (August 6th)- Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do.
No, I've never eaten enough food to constitute what I would think of as a binge. To me that's eating thousands of calories in one sitting until you literally cannot eat anything else or you'll puke. I've wanted to upchuck my food at one point or another but that was only out of guilt, not being physically induced to do so.
Day Seven (August 7th)- Do your parents know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they care?
They know I've lost weight and they commented on it a lot when I first got home for the summer. They said I had a tiny waist and my butt had gotten smaller. I'm sure they know I'd like to lose a bit more weight but to them it's not really a cause for concern. I eat normally around them and since I haven't gained more than 1 or 2 lbs by my eating habits lately I'm just coasting through the summer and then hitting the gym hard once I get back to university. Then hopefully I can lose the last 10 lbs in a month or so.
Day Eight (August 8th)- Your workout routine.
Summer hasn't really yielded much exercise besides my dance classes, but during the school year I have kind of a bizarre (and potentially dangerous) workout routine. I try to go to the gym in the morning or early afternoon, and because I go early I try not to eat or drink anything before I go, which I know is bad. I do it so I can get the lowest possible weight for my weigh in afterward. So anyway, the last few months I went to the gym I basically just hit the elliptical for an hour, and in the final few weeks I'd jog a mile, go on the elliptical for an hour, and then jog another mile. Once I'm done I go to the locker room, use the bathroom, then strip down to my undies and weigh myself. And then I drink 24 oz of water in like 5 minutes because I'm so thirsty. As bad as it is this is probably what I'll revert back to once I head back to school.
So yeah I've been totally MIA the past few days. I've been working of course and yesterday I went to the lake with Aaron, a friend from school and his gf and then another friend from high school. It was a nice relaxing afternoon. We just laid out, ate some snacks, played around in the water, and that night we went to see the new Planet of the Apes movie. I think the CGI is AWESOME. All of the apes are CGI and they look soooooooo gooooooood. And he story is such a better origin story than the original 1980's sequel. I highly recommend it if you're into sci-fi...or James Franco.
Ok time for sleep. I really need to update these earlier in the day. I'm always so tired I feel like I don't post properly. Hope you're all well.
♥ Toni
Day Three (August 3rd)- A picture of your thinspiration. What features do you like about this person?
I have literally hundreds of thinspo pictures, some of which I haven't looked at in weeks, which makes it pretty much impossible to pick just one picture that sums up the body I want, but this one does it pretty well:
This comes from a folder I've labled "abs." I want tight, flat abs...that are also tan, just like these. And I want to show them off in a little white bikini someday.
Day Four (August 4th)- Your greatest fears about weight loss.
I guess my biggest one would be getting down to my UGW of 112 and finding out that it's not where I want to be. I'd hate to have spent so much time and effort getting down to 112 lbs only to find that I'd have to lose even more weight to feel really good about my body. As it is now I feel ok about it, but I want to feel great about it one day.
Day Five (August 5th)- Why do you really want to lose this weight? Are you doing it for you?
I am. I am totally doing it for me. People say I was never fat, but 130 lbs on a 5'0" 12-year-old girl doesn't look proportionally right. And then of course most of you know I ballooned up to almost 150 last Thanksgiving, so I decided to take control of my weight. And the fact that my boyfriend thinks I look even hotter is definitely a plus. He always thought I looked beautiful, even at my heaviest. And he's a great guy for that.
Day Six (August 6th)- Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do.
No, I've never eaten enough food to constitute what I would think of as a binge. To me that's eating thousands of calories in one sitting until you literally cannot eat anything else or you'll puke. I've wanted to upchuck my food at one point or another but that was only out of guilt, not being physically induced to do so.
Day Seven (August 7th)- Do your parents know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they care?
They know I've lost weight and they commented on it a lot when I first got home for the summer. They said I had a tiny waist and my butt had gotten smaller. I'm sure they know I'd like to lose a bit more weight but to them it's not really a cause for concern. I eat normally around them and since I haven't gained more than 1 or 2 lbs by my eating habits lately I'm just coasting through the summer and then hitting the gym hard once I get back to university. Then hopefully I can lose the last 10 lbs in a month or so.
Day Eight (August 8th)- Your workout routine.
Summer hasn't really yielded much exercise besides my dance classes, but during the school year I have kind of a bizarre (and potentially dangerous) workout routine. I try to go to the gym in the morning or early afternoon, and because I go early I try not to eat or drink anything before I go, which I know is bad. I do it so I can get the lowest possible weight for my weigh in afterward. So anyway, the last few months I went to the gym I basically just hit the elliptical for an hour, and in the final few weeks I'd jog a mile, go on the elliptical for an hour, and then jog another mile. Once I'm done I go to the locker room, use the bathroom, then strip down to my undies and weigh myself. And then I drink 24 oz of water in like 5 minutes because I'm so thirsty. As bad as it is this is probably what I'll revert back to once I head back to school.
So yeah I've been totally MIA the past few days. I've been working of course and yesterday I went to the lake with Aaron, a friend from school and his gf and then another friend from high school. It was a nice relaxing afternoon. We just laid out, ate some snacks, played around in the water, and that night we went to see the new Planet of the Apes movie. I think the CGI is AWESOME. All of the apes are CGI and they look soooooooo gooooooood. And he story is such a better origin story than the original 1980's sequel. I highly recommend it if you're into sci-fi...or James Franco.
Ok time for sleep. I really need to update these earlier in the day. I'm always so tired I feel like I don't post properly. Hope you're all well.
♥ Toni
Monday, August 1, 2011
Oh Goodness Me
Another week of no posting. I've caught up on all the blogs and I've decided to have a post of my own. I finally have a few exciting things (kind of) to talk about. Oh and I'm up to 86 followers! Thank you lovely girls! I'm less than 15 away to 100, that's crazy.
So...to celebrate the first of August I've decided to do the 30 Day Challenge:
Day One- Your stats.
Day Two- How tall are you? Do you like your height?
Day Three- A picture of your thinsperation. What features do you like about this person?
Day Four- Your greatest fears about weight loss.
Day Five- Why do you really want to lose this weight? Are you doing it for you?
Day Six- Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do.
Day Seven- Do your parents know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they care?
Day Eight- Your workout routine.
Day Nine- Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way?
Day Ten- What was the hardest thing you gave up during this “weight loss.”
Day Eleven- Your favorite thinspo blog and why!
Day Twelve- What do you normally eat?
Day Thirteen- Are you losing weight in a healthy or unhealthy way?
Day fourteen- What’s your UGW? When you expect to reach it?
Day Fifteen- Are you vegan or vegetarian? If so, has this helped you lose weight? If not, would you ever consider turning vegan or vegetarian?
Day Sixteen- When did you first decide to lose weight?
Day Seventeen- Do you have an eating disorder?
Day Eighteen- What food is your weakness?
Day Nineteen- When is the last time you ate fast food?
Day Twenty- Favorite diet?
Day Twenty-One- What are your clothing sizes?
Day Twenty-Two- What was your lowest weight? How and why did you gain?
Day Twenty-Three- Did the media play a role in your wanting to lose weight?
Day Twenty-Four- How do you feel about the terms pro-ana/pro-mia
Day Twenty-Five- Have you ever purged? If you have describe your first experience.
Day Twenty-Six- What excites you most about reaching your ugw?
Day Twenty-Seven- How do you deal with being around food?
Day Twenty-Eight- Do you want that “gap” between your legs? Why?
Day Twenty-Nine- Your definition of beauty.
Day Thirty- 10 facts about you! And now, what are your stats?
So there's all the questions. I've been wanting to do this for a while but I couldn't find a list of the questions all in one place.
I think I'm ready to start restricting again. The past few days I haven't been as hungry and I've probably eaten less than 1000 calories. I'm still at the 121/122 lbs range but I can probably lose a lb a week, which would put me at 116 by the time school starts. I probably won't start counting again until I go back to school but I can tell I'm just not eating as much.
I just watched a few episodes of Supersize vs. Superskinny. Those British women are a hoot. And now there;s a new episode of Dr. Phil on about anorexia. It's from 4 years ago and I've seen it before but there's nothing else on that I want to watch. Oh and you know how Borders is closing? Perfect time to but Wasted and Wintergirls at a super low price! I don't mean to sound like I'm diving into unhealthy eating habits because I'm not, but it would just be nice to have some motivation to stop eating whatever I want, you know?
Oh and so I slept over at my grandma's last night because I haven't spent time with her in a while and my younger cousins sometimes leave clothes in the dresser in the kid's guest room. My 12-year-old cousin left a pair of her old jeans, size 12 1/2. I tried them on. They fit. I fit in kid sizes again! Do you know what that means? No longer having to hem my jeans because I'm a mutant with midget legs. Of course I need to lose just a few more lbs to make sure I can fit comfortably into kid's sizes, but I'm pretty excited. Don't worry though, I'm not talking about weird fraying or bedazzled or acid wash kid's jeans, just basic denim that costs less and fits length-wise.
And is anyone else trying to get into Pottermore? I'm staying up as long as it takes to find that quill and get that clue! So I'm going to go refresh my Pottermore page every 30 seconds for the next two hours. I'll leave you with my first answer o the 30 Day Challenge:
Day One- Your stats.
Well they're on the side panel but I'll put them up on this post too.
Name: Toni
Age: 19
Height: 5 ft. 0 in.
Current weight: 122 lbs.
Highest weight: 148 lbs. (Thanksgiving 2010, age 18)
Lowest weight: 118 lbs. (Summer 2006, age 14)
And then all my goal weights are to the side as well.
Alright ladies, hopefully I'll be posting every day now that I'm doing the challenge so I'll see you all tomorrow. =)
♥ Toni
P.S.- I'm PISSED that Rachel and Brendon are up for eviction on Big Brother. Anyone else with me?
So...to celebrate the first of August I've decided to do the 30 Day Challenge:
Day One- Your stats.
Day Two- How tall are you? Do you like your height?
Day Three- A picture of your thinsperation. What features do you like about this person?
Day Four- Your greatest fears about weight loss.
Day Five- Why do you really want to lose this weight? Are you doing it for you?
Day Six- Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do.
Day Seven- Do your parents know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they care?
Day Eight- Your workout routine.
Day Nine- Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way?
Day Ten- What was the hardest thing you gave up during this “weight loss.”
Day Eleven- Your favorite thinspo blog and why!
Day Twelve- What do you normally eat?
Day Thirteen- Are you losing weight in a healthy or unhealthy way?
Day fourteen- What’s your UGW? When you expect to reach it?
Day Fifteen- Are you vegan or vegetarian? If so, has this helped you lose weight? If not, would you ever consider turning vegan or vegetarian?
Day Sixteen- When did you first decide to lose weight?
Day Seventeen- Do you have an eating disorder?
Day Eighteen- What food is your weakness?
Day Nineteen- When is the last time you ate fast food?
Day Twenty- Favorite diet?
Day Twenty-One- What are your clothing sizes?
Day Twenty-Two- What was your lowest weight? How and why did you gain?
Day Twenty-Three- Did the media play a role in your wanting to lose weight?
Day Twenty-Four- How do you feel about the terms pro-ana/pro-mia
Day Twenty-Five- Have you ever purged? If you have describe your first experience.
Day Twenty-Six- What excites you most about reaching your ugw?
Day Twenty-Seven- How do you deal with being around food?
Day Twenty-Eight- Do you want that “gap” between your legs? Why?
Day Twenty-Nine- Your definition of beauty.
Day Thirty- 10 facts about you! And now, what are your stats?
So there's all the questions. I've been wanting to do this for a while but I couldn't find a list of the questions all in one place.
I think I'm ready to start restricting again. The past few days I haven't been as hungry and I've probably eaten less than 1000 calories. I'm still at the 121/122 lbs range but I can probably lose a lb a week, which would put me at 116 by the time school starts. I probably won't start counting again until I go back to school but I can tell I'm just not eating as much.
I just watched a few episodes of Supersize vs. Superskinny. Those British women are a hoot. And now there;s a new episode of Dr. Phil on about anorexia. It's from 4 years ago and I've seen it before but there's nothing else on that I want to watch. Oh and you know how Borders is closing? Perfect time to but Wasted and Wintergirls at a super low price! I don't mean to sound like I'm diving into unhealthy eating habits because I'm not, but it would just be nice to have some motivation to stop eating whatever I want, you know?
Oh and so I slept over at my grandma's last night because I haven't spent time with her in a while and my younger cousins sometimes leave clothes in the dresser in the kid's guest room. My 12-year-old cousin left a pair of her old jeans, size 12 1/2. I tried them on. They fit. I fit in kid sizes again! Do you know what that means? No longer having to hem my jeans because I'm a mutant with midget legs. Of course I need to lose just a few more lbs to make sure I can fit comfortably into kid's sizes, but I'm pretty excited. Don't worry though, I'm not talking about weird fraying or bedazzled or acid wash kid's jeans, just basic denim that costs less and fits length-wise.
And is anyone else trying to get into Pottermore? I'm staying up as long as it takes to find that quill and get that clue! So I'm going to go refresh my Pottermore page every 30 seconds for the next two hours. I'll leave you with my first answer o the 30 Day Challenge:
Day One- Your stats.
Well they're on the side panel but I'll put them up on this post too.
Name: Toni
Age: 19
Height: 5 ft. 0 in.
Current weight: 122 lbs.
Highest weight: 148 lbs. (Thanksgiving 2010, age 18)
Lowest weight: 118 lbs. (Summer 2006, age 14)
And then all my goal weights are to the side as well.
Alright ladies, hopefully I'll be posting every day now that I'm doing the challenge so I'll see you all tomorrow. =)
♥ Toni
P.S.- I'm PISSED that Rachel and Brendon are up for eviction on Big Brother. Anyone else with me?
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