Monday, July 25, 2011

The Fair!

So this past week hasn't been much different. I've been fluctuating between 121.5 and 124.5. My weight is lower on the days I eat only one meal, so I'm thinking I'll try more of that, although Aaron and I went to the state fair yesterday so of course I ate a bunch of carnival food. I tried a fried Twinkie and a fried Snickers for the first time, plus I had lemonade and an ice cream cone. And Aaron won me a giraffe pillow pet. =)

The other night we went out to one of my co-worker's parties. It was basically one of those alcohol parties. I didn't drink much though because I don't like beer. Go figure.

Today I was supposed to go over to Aaron's house for some alone time because his crazy mother is going to be gone for a few hours, but my sister thought it would be a good idea to finally spend the day with our Grandma, who has been meaning to take us out for our birthdays (it's been hell trying to find a day that works for all three of us). So Aaron is pretty disappointed. He's been so hung up on sex lately though. I really don't like it because it's really hard to ever get time alone. I think things will be so much better when we go back to school because we'll have our own rooms and whatnot.

Well, I just thought I'd update you all on recent events. I really need to do a proper post with thinspo but I just can't find the time. I'll try soon!

♥ Toni

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Saw nothing but good things today.

So this morning I saw 120.5 on the scale. YES! And I didn't eat too much today so hopefully it'll stay that way.

And I saw Deathly Hallows Part 2 today finally. With something like this waiting 3 days to see it feels like an eternity. I cried like a baby. A least during the epilogue. It's all over for me, and now I feel obligated to read all 7 books again, read some super good fanon, watch the movies, and join Pottermore when that gets started up. Oh and visit the theme park. I can't believe that was it. J.K. Rowling, you better write seven more books about Harry's kids. And now that no one's trying to maliciously kill anyone else, this time around you can focus solely on social drama. Yay!

Super short post today. I have to go to bed because I have work in the morning. I hope I have some good news for you all tomorrow!

♥ Toni

Tonsillitis: go away!

Thank you Dreaming of a Perfect Me, brixy, and molly-saurus-rex for joining my blog. =)

So...the past few days have been kind of sucky. First of all I have a mild case of tonsillitis. My voice is gone and it's painful to swallow, therefore very painful to eat. Yesterday I saw 121 on the scale, but it was back up to 122 today. I have been eating less overall so maybe I'll loose a few lbs from this? It still sucks BALLS though. It's like the inside of my throat is sandpaper...on fire.

HP news: like I've said in past posts I had to work the HP midnight premiere so I couldn't go, but there was supposed to be a sneak for employees Wednesday night. A mass text from my boss was sent out at 10 pm (when we got the physical prints in) for a sneak at midnight. To bad I DIDN'T get the text, along with a few other people. Yup, I missed HP. And I didn't find out until I had to work the premiere, so I was surrounded by hundreds of people pumped up to see a movie I missed out on. And because business is expected to do so well, employees aren't allowed to see the movie for free until July 25th. But all is well, because I sent a text to my boss telling him how important the movie is to me and how I never got word of the sneak, so he gave me two re-ad tickets (usually given as refunds for movies that break down) so I'm taking my best friend tomorrow so we can cry for 2 hours and 40 minutes.

Oh so guess who doesn't have to drive their boyfriend around everywhere because he finally got a car? Yeah, me! For virtually our entire relationship I've had to drive Aaron because he either hadn't had his license yet or didn't have a car to drive. Not anymore! It's nice to have a boyfriend who can drive me places for once (although I'm still a little scared of his driving). It's a nice change of pace.

Sorry to have another non-food dominated post. If I'm fortunate to still have you all with me by the time I go back to school, expect my posts to go back to normal. At least then I'll have my gym back and can more easily drop weight.

Ok, time for bed. Hope your summers are going well.
♥ Toni

P.S.-Finally learned how to hem my jeans with the original hem! Yay for pants that are the right length!!!

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Long-ish post. Please bear with me.

77 followers. I don't feel like I deserve 77 followers seeing as
1) I only post 1-3 times a week now and
2) I have lost zero weight in what? a month? more than a month?

Yes I'm still at 122, but I deserve it. I've been doing a limited amount of exercise and have been eating whatever I want (although never enough to make me feel painfully full or anything like that). Dance classes started on Saturday. I'm still trying to figure out what classes are right for me but I'm for sure taking a leaps/turns technique class and some sort of ballet class.

K- First off your English is fine! Better than some people on the internet who grew up with it as their first language. I was on my dance team in high school and we did some jazz but mostly drill team/military style dancing. Since I've been in college I've focused on jazz and I'm really looking to improve my turns and jumps technically as I'm trying to make my university's dance team. And gymnastics? I just could not ever imagine doing all those flips and stuff, I'd be way too afraid of getting hurt! But I respect anyone who has the discipline to stick with it into adulthood.

Olivia- I knooooooooooooooow. I swore I would text you if I ever ended up doing a market but I've been scheduled to work at the theater every. single. Saturday. And now on top of it I have dance class on Saturday too, so basically I probably won't be doing a Saturday market all summer. And if I do Wednesday classes I won't be able to do those markets either! I'm bummed because I really wanted to introduce you to my parents, and meeting Boy would have been so nice! Damn, I guess we'll just have to wait until September. I'm sorry, I really was hoping to see you there this summer. =(

Well, other than bad food news I got to spend some quality time with Aaron Sunday night when I slept over at his dad's house. Basically when he lives with his dad he's in this huge city with tons to do and we just sat around watching Harry Potter and, as he likes to call it, having a little "slap and tickle" (sorry if that was tmi). ^_~
But we did go see Horrible Bosses, which was pretty much as funny as I thought it would be. It was $7.75 well spent I guess.

Oh and speaking of money I've been stressing out about paying for next year's tuition and housing and all that stuff because I'm getting $5000 less than I did last year. Good news though because my housing and meal plan will cost less (apartment=less dining hall food) and hopefully I'll be able to get an on campus job in a mail room or at the gym or something. But anyway turns out I only have to pay $250 more a quarter than my financial aid will cover which is good! I thought it would be a lot more. So now I just have to worry about buying groceries and books.

So now I'm watching both Kill Bill volumes and I've already caught up on everyone's blogs. Is it just me or does it seem like everyone's posting a bit less? I know personally I just haven't had much time and I'm not exactly living up to what this blog is supposed to be about at the moment, but it just seems like summer is a bad time for blogging. Funny, you'd think there would be an influx of activity. Maybe we're all getting busy. I can relate.

Well, off to bed I suppose. Again I apologize for my lack of posting and my inability to lose any weight. I swear if I just wasn't working so much I'd be at least a few lbs thinner. But I'll take a maintain and earning money over a loss and earning no money any day. I always have the school year to lose that last 10, right?

♥ Toni

P.S.- Anyone watching this season's Big Brother? I just got into it after reading an article about the show and all I have to say is: what the fuck is up with Rachel and her annoying laugh? I really hope she doesn't stay in the house too much longer. Blegh.

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Harry Potter is coming!!!

Olivia, you do always manage to see a silver lining. Thanks for making me feel a bit better, and you've been doing awesome adjusting to your new dietary needs. A few slip ups here and there will only make you stronger once you get through them. =)
75 followers! That's 3/4 of the way to 100. Wow. Thanks awesome blossoms!

So guess who got scheduled to work the HP7 pt. 2 premiere? This girl right here. And I can't even go to see the HP marathon my work is holding all week because my dad is lame and gives me a curfew of midnight. I'm nineteen. WTF? So I guess I'll have to settle on seeing the advanced employee screening of part 2 and getting to wear an HP5 Ron t-shirt to work for the premiere. Better than nothing I suppose.

Food has been ok. I think I'm eating a little less every day and I'm seeing very minute changes on the scale. I'm hoping for a weigh in of 121 after my dance class from 10-11:30am. And then I get to look forward to a 1:30-10pm shift right after that, so I won't have a ton of time to eat. Eh, right now I'm mostly worries about how much my dance classes will cost. If I take 3 that's already close to $130 for the month. =/
I only make about $160 a week and I need to save all I can for next year. I could be cutting it very close if I can't fit in an on-campus job. Life sucks.

Sorry this post is super short and not very food related, but I need some sleep for tomorrow.

Hope you all had a great day,
♥ Toni

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Still Struggling

I haven't posted in a week? Over a week? Oh who cares, it's been too long. I'm hovering around the same weight as I was a week ago: 122. Oh and if anyone didn't notice or got confused I changed my display name to my actual name, Toni. I've also caught up on all of your posts and even followed a new follower, Yasmin. She just started her blog Beautiful Waif, so if you like following blogs from the very beginning go check her out. =)

So in the week I was gone I've pretty much done away with most of the habits I developed while I was in college. Is it healthier? Yes. Do I like it? Sort of. Would I trade this for what I was doing before? Totally. The only reason I'm eating more is because the food is just here. I know some girls can restrain themselves but I struggle a lot. Plus I haven't been to an actual gym in almost a month. And it's too damn hot (think high 90's low 100's) to go jogging at any reasonable time, so for the past few days I've been sticking to 40 minutes of the Barre program on my OnDemand exercise listings. It's pretty much a muscle toning exercise for dancers but boy does it make me sweat. I'm trying to get into some kind of shape for dance classes which start in no less than two days! I'll be trying out a leaps and turns technique class taught by my former dance team assistant coach on Saturday. Then on Monday I'll be trying out an intermediate jazz class taught by the same person and on Tuesday (hopefully my leotard will have arrived by then) I'll be attending an intermediate/advanced ballet class. That one's taught by a dude. Am I nervous to be taking an advanced level ballet class when I've ever only taken jazz? Hell yes. But who knows? Maybe I'll be ok at it. And I don't even know if I can afford to take all three, but we'll see. I'm very excited!

Aaron and I have been good. He's living with his mom in our home town for an unspecified period of time which means we've been together more than when he lived with his dad 40 minutes away. But I'm sure he'll be going back soon, and then we can go to the state fair! I've never gone and I want to see what all the hooplah is about.

Oh ok so just yesterday I found out something very surprising that also made me a little sad. Did you know that Kelly Osborne is now 122 lbs?!?! What? She's seriously 10 lbs lighter than me? I was just floored. I mean good for her, she look's fantastic but man, that really makes me want to get down to my UGW of 112 now. Who knew KO weighed that little?

Alright it's 3am and I'm probably going to have to wake up around 9 so good night. I promise I'll start posting more consistently. Part of it is me being ashamed of getting off track and the other is just not having enough time. Summer is supposed to be relaxing! Not busy!

♥ Toni