I'm sorry that I haven't been updating as frequently as I'd like for you all. My week has consisted of 10% class, 20% sleep, and 70% Oliver, who sleeps over and I have class with so...you get the picture.
I'm going to have to find a nice medium soon so I can actually get things done. It's just very difficult to concentrate on anything else except the guy I love but haven't seen in nearly a month.
I've started going back to the gym and counting my calories. Granted, I've been doing extremely light workouts and haven't kept a tight track on my food, but it's a start. I went grocery shopping Sunday night and got lots of healthy things. Oatmeal, dried fruit, grapes, snap peas, carrots, frozen veggies, radishes, and bok choy. It's not a lot, and I just got my last paycheck from home so I'll be getting lots more good stuff this weekend. Does anyone have any suggestions? I was thinking I'd get some nuts, some sort of low cal spread, low cal crackers, more fruits and veggies, possibly yogurt, soups, and popsicles. Please please please message me some safe foods that you all enjoy. I'd really like some ideas.
I have good news. Last time I got on the scale I saw 119.75 lbs. I am very happy with that number. I'm definitely going to the gym tomorrow morning to see if it's gone down any further, but this is the least I've weighed since I was 14, and I'm only 1.75 lbs away from that weight. I am so ready to get to my UGW you have no idea. Ugh! I'm excited. =)
♥ Toni
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Friday, January 13, 2012
Monday, August 1, 2011
Oh Goodness Me
Another week of no posting. I've caught up on all the blogs and I've decided to have a post of my own. I finally have a few exciting things (kind of) to talk about. Oh and I'm up to 86 followers! Thank you lovely girls! I'm less than 15 away to 100, that's crazy.
So...to celebrate the first of August I've decided to do the 30 Day Challenge:
Day One- Your stats.
Day Two- How tall are you? Do you like your height?
Day Three- A picture of your thinsperation. What features do you like about this person?
Day Four- Your greatest fears about weight loss.
Day Five- Why do you really want to lose this weight? Are you doing it for you?
Day Six- Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do.
Day Seven- Do your parents know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they care?
Day Eight- Your workout routine.
Day Nine- Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way?
Day Ten- What was the hardest thing you gave up during this “weight loss.”
Day Eleven- Your favorite thinspo blog and why!
Day Twelve- What do you normally eat?
Day Thirteen- Are you losing weight in a healthy or unhealthy way?
Day fourteen- What’s your UGW? When you expect to reach it?
Day Fifteen- Are you vegan or vegetarian? If so, has this helped you lose weight? If not, would you ever consider turning vegan or vegetarian?
Day Sixteen- When did you first decide to lose weight?
Day Seventeen- Do you have an eating disorder?
Day Eighteen- What food is your weakness?
Day Nineteen- When is the last time you ate fast food?
Day Twenty- Favorite diet?
Day Twenty-One- What are your clothing sizes?
Day Twenty-Two- What was your lowest weight? How and why did you gain?
Day Twenty-Three- Did the media play a role in your wanting to lose weight?
Day Twenty-Four- How do you feel about the terms pro-ana/pro-mia
Day Twenty-Five- Have you ever purged? If you have describe your first experience.
Day Twenty-Six- What excites you most about reaching your ugw?
Day Twenty-Seven- How do you deal with being around food?
Day Twenty-Eight- Do you want that “gap” between your legs? Why?
Day Twenty-Nine- Your definition of beauty.
Day Thirty- 10 facts about you! And now, what are your stats?
So there's all the questions. I've been wanting to do this for a while but I couldn't find a list of the questions all in one place.
I think I'm ready to start restricting again. The past few days I haven't been as hungry and I've probably eaten less than 1000 calories. I'm still at the 121/122 lbs range but I can probably lose a lb a week, which would put me at 116 by the time school starts. I probably won't start counting again until I go back to school but I can tell I'm just not eating as much.
I just watched a few episodes of Supersize vs. Superskinny. Those British women are a hoot. And now there;s a new episode of Dr. Phil on about anorexia. It's from 4 years ago and I've seen it before but there's nothing else on that I want to watch. Oh and you know how Borders is closing? Perfect time to but Wasted and Wintergirls at a super low price! I don't mean to sound like I'm diving into unhealthy eating habits because I'm not, but it would just be nice to have some motivation to stop eating whatever I want, you know?
Oh and so I slept over at my grandma's last night because I haven't spent time with her in a while and my younger cousins sometimes leave clothes in the dresser in the kid's guest room. My 12-year-old cousin left a pair of her old jeans, size 12 1/2. I tried them on. They fit. I fit in kid sizes again! Do you know what that means? No longer having to hem my jeans because I'm a mutant with midget legs. Of course I need to lose just a few more lbs to make sure I can fit comfortably into kid's sizes, but I'm pretty excited. Don't worry though, I'm not talking about weird fraying or bedazzled or acid wash kid's jeans, just basic denim that costs less and fits length-wise.
And is anyone else trying to get into Pottermore? I'm staying up as long as it takes to find that quill and get that clue! So I'm going to go refresh my Pottermore page every 30 seconds for the next two hours. I'll leave you with my first answer o the 30 Day Challenge:
Day One- Your stats.
Well they're on the side panel but I'll put them up on this post too.
Name: Toni
Age: 19
Height: 5 ft. 0 in.
Current weight: 122 lbs.
Highest weight: 148 lbs. (Thanksgiving 2010, age 18)
Lowest weight: 118 lbs. (Summer 2006, age 14)
And then all my goal weights are to the side as well.
Alright ladies, hopefully I'll be posting every day now that I'm doing the challenge so I'll see you all tomorrow. =)
♥ Toni
P.S.- I'm PISSED that Rachel and Brendon are up for eviction on Big Brother. Anyone else with me?
So...to celebrate the first of August I've decided to do the 30 Day Challenge:
Day One- Your stats.
Day Two- How tall are you? Do you like your height?
Day Three- A picture of your thinsperation. What features do you like about this person?
Day Four- Your greatest fears about weight loss.
Day Five- Why do you really want to lose this weight? Are you doing it for you?
Day Six- Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do.
Day Seven- Do your parents know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they care?
Day Eight- Your workout routine.
Day Nine- Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way?
Day Ten- What was the hardest thing you gave up during this “weight loss.”
Day Eleven- Your favorite thinspo blog and why!
Day Twelve- What do you normally eat?
Day Thirteen- Are you losing weight in a healthy or unhealthy way?
Day fourteen- What’s your UGW? When you expect to reach it?
Day Fifteen- Are you vegan or vegetarian? If so, has this helped you lose weight? If not, would you ever consider turning vegan or vegetarian?
Day Sixteen- When did you first decide to lose weight?
Day Seventeen- Do you have an eating disorder?
Day Eighteen- What food is your weakness?
Day Nineteen- When is the last time you ate fast food?
Day Twenty- Favorite diet?
Day Twenty-One- What are your clothing sizes?
Day Twenty-Two- What was your lowest weight? How and why did you gain?
Day Twenty-Three- Did the media play a role in your wanting to lose weight?
Day Twenty-Four- How do you feel about the terms pro-ana/pro-mia
Day Twenty-Five- Have you ever purged? If you have describe your first experience.
Day Twenty-Six- What excites you most about reaching your ugw?
Day Twenty-Seven- How do you deal with being around food?
Day Twenty-Eight- Do you want that “gap” between your legs? Why?
Day Twenty-Nine- Your definition of beauty.
Day Thirty- 10 facts about you! And now, what are your stats?
So there's all the questions. I've been wanting to do this for a while but I couldn't find a list of the questions all in one place.
I think I'm ready to start restricting again. The past few days I haven't been as hungry and I've probably eaten less than 1000 calories. I'm still at the 121/122 lbs range but I can probably lose a lb a week, which would put me at 116 by the time school starts. I probably won't start counting again until I go back to school but I can tell I'm just not eating as much.
I just watched a few episodes of Supersize vs. Superskinny. Those British women are a hoot. And now there;s a new episode of Dr. Phil on about anorexia. It's from 4 years ago and I've seen it before but there's nothing else on that I want to watch. Oh and you know how Borders is closing? Perfect time to but Wasted and Wintergirls at a super low price! I don't mean to sound like I'm diving into unhealthy eating habits because I'm not, but it would just be nice to have some motivation to stop eating whatever I want, you know?
Oh and so I slept over at my grandma's last night because I haven't spent time with her in a while and my younger cousins sometimes leave clothes in the dresser in the kid's guest room. My 12-year-old cousin left a pair of her old jeans, size 12 1/2. I tried them on. They fit. I fit in kid sizes again! Do you know what that means? No longer having to hem my jeans because I'm a mutant with midget legs. Of course I need to lose just a few more lbs to make sure I can fit comfortably into kid's sizes, but I'm pretty excited. Don't worry though, I'm not talking about weird fraying or bedazzled or acid wash kid's jeans, just basic denim that costs less and fits length-wise.
And is anyone else trying to get into Pottermore? I'm staying up as long as it takes to find that quill and get that clue! So I'm going to go refresh my Pottermore page every 30 seconds for the next two hours. I'll leave you with my first answer o the 30 Day Challenge:
Day One- Your stats.
Well they're on the side panel but I'll put them up on this post too.
Name: Toni
Age: 19
Height: 5 ft. 0 in.
Current weight: 122 lbs.
Highest weight: 148 lbs. (Thanksgiving 2010, age 18)
Lowest weight: 118 lbs. (Summer 2006, age 14)
And then all my goal weights are to the side as well.
Alright ladies, hopefully I'll be posting every day now that I'm doing the challenge so I'll see you all tomorrow. =)
♥ Toni
P.S.- I'm PISSED that Rachel and Brendon are up for eviction on Big Brother. Anyone else with me?
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Saw nothing but good things today.
So this morning I saw 120.5 on the scale. YES! And I didn't eat too much today so hopefully it'll stay that way.
And I saw Deathly Hallows Part 2 today finally. With something like this waiting 3 days to see it feels like an eternity. I cried like a baby. A least during the epilogue. It's all over for me, and now I feel obligated to read all 7 books again, read some super good fanon, watch the movies, and join Pottermore when that gets started up. Oh and visit the theme park. I can't believe that was it. J.K. Rowling, you better write seven more books about Harry's kids. And now that no one's trying to maliciously kill anyone else, this time around you can focus solely on social drama. Yay!
Super short post today. I have to go to bed because I have work in the morning. I hope I have some good news for you all tomorrow!
♥ Toni
And I saw Deathly Hallows Part 2 today finally. With something like this waiting 3 days to see it feels like an eternity. I cried like a baby. A least during the epilogue. It's all over for me, and now I feel obligated to read all 7 books again, read some super good fanon, watch the movies, and join Pottermore when that gets started up. Oh and visit the theme park. I can't believe that was it. J.K. Rowling, you better write seven more books about Harry's kids. And now that no one's trying to maliciously kill anyone else, this time around you can focus solely on social drama. Yay!
Super short post today. I have to go to bed because I have work in the morning. I hope I have some good news for you all tomorrow!
♥ Toni
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Long-ish post. Please bear with me.
77 followers. I don't feel like I deserve 77 followers seeing as
1) I only post 1-3 times a week now and
2) I have lost zero weight in what? a month? more than a month?
Yes I'm still at 122, but I deserve it. I've been doing a limited amount of exercise and have been eating whatever I want (although never enough to make me feel painfully full or anything like that). Dance classes started on Saturday. I'm still trying to figure out what classes are right for me but I'm for sure taking a leaps/turns technique class and some sort of ballet class.
K- First off your English is fine! Better than some people on the internet who grew up with it as their first language. I was on my dance team in high school and we did some jazz but mostly drill team/military style dancing. Since I've been in college I've focused on jazz and I'm really looking to improve my turns and jumps technically as I'm trying to make my university's dance team. And gymnastics? I just could not ever imagine doing all those flips and stuff, I'd be way too afraid of getting hurt! But I respect anyone who has the discipline to stick with it into adulthood.
Olivia- I knooooooooooooooow. I swore I would text you if I ever ended up doing a market but I've been scheduled to work at the theater every. single. Saturday. And now on top of it I have dance class on Saturday too, so basically I probably won't be doing a Saturday market all summer. And if I do Wednesday classes I won't be able to do those markets either! I'm bummed because I really wanted to introduce you to my parents, and meeting Boy would have been so nice! Damn, I guess we'll just have to wait until September. I'm sorry, I really was hoping to see you there this summer. =(
Well, other than bad food news I got to spend some quality time with Aaron Sunday night when I slept over at his dad's house. Basically when he lives with his dad he's in this huge city with tons to do and we just sat around watching Harry Potter and, as he likes to call it, having a little "slap and tickle" (sorry if that was tmi). ^_~
But we did go see Horrible Bosses, which was pretty much as funny as I thought it would be. It was $7.75 well spent I guess.
Oh and speaking of money I've been stressing out about paying for next year's tuition and housing and all that stuff because I'm getting $5000 less than I did last year. Good news though because my housing and meal plan will cost less (apartment=less dining hall food) and hopefully I'll be able to get an on campus job in a mail room or at the gym or something. But anyway turns out I only have to pay $250 more a quarter than my financial aid will cover which is good! I thought it would be a lot more. So now I just have to worry about buying groceries and books.
So now I'm watching both Kill Bill volumes and I've already caught up on everyone's blogs. Is it just me or does it seem like everyone's posting a bit less? I know personally I just haven't had much time and I'm not exactly living up to what this blog is supposed to be about at the moment, but it just seems like summer is a bad time for blogging. Funny, you'd think there would be an influx of activity. Maybe we're all getting busy. I can relate.
Well, off to bed I suppose. Again I apologize for my lack of posting and my inability to lose any weight. I swear if I just wasn't working so much I'd be at least a few lbs thinner. But I'll take a maintain and earning money over a loss and earning no money any day. I always have the school year to lose that last 10, right?
♥ Toni
P.S.- Anyone watching this season's Big Brother? I just got into it after reading an article about the show and all I have to say is: what the fuck is up with Rachel and her annoying laugh? I really hope she doesn't stay in the house too much longer. Blegh.
1) I only post 1-3 times a week now and
2) I have lost zero weight in what? a month? more than a month?
Yes I'm still at 122, but I deserve it. I've been doing a limited amount of exercise and have been eating whatever I want (although never enough to make me feel painfully full or anything like that). Dance classes started on Saturday. I'm still trying to figure out what classes are right for me but I'm for sure taking a leaps/turns technique class and some sort of ballet class.
K- First off your English is fine! Better than some people on the internet who grew up with it as their first language. I was on my dance team in high school and we did some jazz but mostly drill team/military style dancing. Since I've been in college I've focused on jazz and I'm really looking to improve my turns and jumps technically as I'm trying to make my university's dance team. And gymnastics? I just could not ever imagine doing all those flips and stuff, I'd be way too afraid of getting hurt! But I respect anyone who has the discipline to stick with it into adulthood.
Olivia- I knooooooooooooooow. I swore I would text you if I ever ended up doing a market but I've been scheduled to work at the theater every. single. Saturday. And now on top of it I have dance class on Saturday too, so basically I probably won't be doing a Saturday market all summer. And if I do Wednesday classes I won't be able to do those markets either! I'm bummed because I really wanted to introduce you to my parents, and meeting Boy would have been so nice! Damn, I guess we'll just have to wait until September. I'm sorry, I really was hoping to see you there this summer. =(
Well, other than bad food news I got to spend some quality time with Aaron Sunday night when I slept over at his dad's house. Basically when he lives with his dad he's in this huge city with tons to do and we just sat around watching Harry Potter and, as he likes to call it, having a little "slap and tickle" (sorry if that was tmi). ^_~
But we did go see Horrible Bosses, which was pretty much as funny as I thought it would be. It was $7.75 well spent I guess.
Oh and speaking of money I've been stressing out about paying for next year's tuition and housing and all that stuff because I'm getting $5000 less than I did last year. Good news though because my housing and meal plan will cost less (apartment=less dining hall food) and hopefully I'll be able to get an on campus job in a mail room or at the gym or something. But anyway turns out I only have to pay $250 more a quarter than my financial aid will cover which is good! I thought it would be a lot more. So now I just have to worry about buying groceries and books.
So now I'm watching both Kill Bill volumes and I've already caught up on everyone's blogs. Is it just me or does it seem like everyone's posting a bit less? I know personally I just haven't had much time and I'm not exactly living up to what this blog is supposed to be about at the moment, but it just seems like summer is a bad time for blogging. Funny, you'd think there would be an influx of activity. Maybe we're all getting busy. I can relate.
Well, off to bed I suppose. Again I apologize for my lack of posting and my inability to lose any weight. I swear if I just wasn't working so much I'd be at least a few lbs thinner. But I'll take a maintain and earning money over a loss and earning no money any day. I always have the school year to lose that last 10, right?
♥ Toni
P.S.- Anyone watching this season's Big Brother? I just got into it after reading an article about the show and all I have to say is: what the fuck is up with Rachel and her annoying laugh? I really hope she doesn't stay in the house too much longer. Blegh.
Thursday, July 7, 2011
Still Struggling
I haven't posted in a week? Over a week? Oh who cares, it's been too long. I'm hovering around the same weight as I was a week ago: 122. Oh and if anyone didn't notice or got confused I changed my display name to my actual name, Toni. I've also caught up on all of your posts and even followed a new follower, Yasmin. She just started her blog Beautiful Waif, so if you like following blogs from the very beginning go check her out. =)
So in the week I was gone I've pretty much done away with most of the habits I developed while I was in college. Is it healthier? Yes. Do I like it? Sort of. Would I trade this for what I was doing before? Totally. The only reason I'm eating more is because the food is just here. I know some girls can restrain themselves but I struggle a lot. Plus I haven't been to an actual gym in almost a month. And it's too damn hot (think high 90's low 100's) to go jogging at any reasonable time, so for the past few days I've been sticking to 40 minutes of the Barre program on my OnDemand exercise listings. It's pretty much a muscle toning exercise for dancers but boy does it make me sweat. I'm trying to get into some kind of shape for dance classes which start in no less than two days! I'll be trying out a leaps and turns technique class taught by my former dance team assistant coach on Saturday. Then on Monday I'll be trying out an intermediate jazz class taught by the same person and on Tuesday (hopefully my leotard will have arrived by then) I'll be attending an intermediate/advanced ballet class. That one's taught by a dude. Am I nervous to be taking an advanced level ballet class when I've ever only taken jazz? Hell yes. But who knows? Maybe I'll be ok at it. And I don't even know if I can afford to take all three, but we'll see. I'm very excited!
Aaron and I have been good. He's living with his mom in our home town for an unspecified period of time which means we've been together more than when he lived with his dad 40 minutes away. But I'm sure he'll be going back soon, and then we can go to the state fair! I've never gone and I want to see what all the hooplah is about.
Oh ok so just yesterday I found out something very surprising that also made me a little sad. Did you know that Kelly Osborne is now 122 lbs?!?! What? She's seriously 10 lbs lighter than me? I was just floored. I mean good for her, she look's fantastic but man, that really makes me want to get down to my UGW of 112 now. Who knew KO weighed that little?
Alright it's 3am and I'm probably going to have to wake up around 9 so good night. I promise I'll start posting more consistently. Part of it is me being ashamed of getting off track and the other is just not having enough time. Summer is supposed to be relaxing! Not busy!
♥ Toni
So in the week I was gone I've pretty much done away with most of the habits I developed while I was in college. Is it healthier? Yes. Do I like it? Sort of. Would I trade this for what I was doing before? Totally. The only reason I'm eating more is because the food is just here. I know some girls can restrain themselves but I struggle a lot. Plus I haven't been to an actual gym in almost a month. And it's too damn hot (think high 90's low 100's) to go jogging at any reasonable time, so for the past few days I've been sticking to 40 minutes of the Barre program on my OnDemand exercise listings. It's pretty much a muscle toning exercise for dancers but boy does it make me sweat. I'm trying to get into some kind of shape for dance classes which start in no less than two days! I'll be trying out a leaps and turns technique class taught by my former dance team assistant coach on Saturday. Then on Monday I'll be trying out an intermediate jazz class taught by the same person and on Tuesday (hopefully my leotard will have arrived by then) I'll be attending an intermediate/advanced ballet class. That one's taught by a dude. Am I nervous to be taking an advanced level ballet class when I've ever only taken jazz? Hell yes. But who knows? Maybe I'll be ok at it. And I don't even know if I can afford to take all three, but we'll see. I'm very excited!
Aaron and I have been good. He's living with his mom in our home town for an unspecified period of time which means we've been together more than when he lived with his dad 40 minutes away. But I'm sure he'll be going back soon, and then we can go to the state fair! I've never gone and I want to see what all the hooplah is about.
Oh ok so just yesterday I found out something very surprising that also made me a little sad. Did you know that Kelly Osborne is now 122 lbs?!?! What? She's seriously 10 lbs lighter than me? I was just floored. I mean good for her, she look's fantastic but man, that really makes me want to get down to my UGW of 112 now. Who knew KO weighed that little?
Alright it's 3am and I'm probably going to have to wake up around 9 so good night. I promise I'll start posting more consistently. Part of it is me being ashamed of getting off track and the other is just not having enough time. Summer is supposed to be relaxing! Not busy!
♥ Toni
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Disappointed in my body.
So today I had work and I decided all I would have was coffee and water until I got home. I thought I'd be down at least a half lb, but nooooooooo, my body decided to be a little rebel and gain to 121.5 lbs. Well, maybe when I weigh myself tomorrow morning I'll be smaller.
Boy did I think I was sore last night. Today was so much worse. Climbing stairs was painful. My thighs, obliques, and butt are screaming. Today my mom said how skinny my legs look and gave them a little squeeze and I gasped in pain. I guess I worked harder than I thought I did. And guess what? I did it again today. I'm guessing I burned maybe 185 calories, but again I'm downplaying it.
So food was coffee this morning (10 cal), and a fun size twix (80 cal) plus bite of cookie dough (35 cal) when I got home. Despite my mom using Crisco in her cookies, most of everything else is fairly healthy. Almond meal, oats, and unbleached flour among other things. Plus they taste great. We went to Carl's Jr. for dinner and I got a Cranberry Walnut Salad with grilled chicken. I only used half of the raspberry vinaigrette and feta cheese, so instead of a 360 calorie salad it was more like 305. And then I had a super small piece of my mom's cheese cake (55 cal) So my total intake today was 485 and my net intake was 300 calories. I'm glad I'm finding the energy to actually keep up with the SGD, and your lovely comments and support really help push me along. =)
Camille: No I don't live in the UK, California is my house and home. I guess Xfinity is a subset of Comcast, so maybe that rings more of a bell? And thank you for the support. You and your hubby are totally adorable. =)
So yeah my day hasn't been too exciting...at all. I hope I have more to talk about tomorrow. I gotta go to bed soon though, I'm getting up early to go to my parents' farm. Oh joy...
I really want to eat a whole bakery right now.
♥ Toni
Boy did I think I was sore last night. Today was so much worse. Climbing stairs was painful. My thighs, obliques, and butt are screaming. Today my mom said how skinny my legs look and gave them a little squeeze and I gasped in pain. I guess I worked harder than I thought I did. And guess what? I did it again today. I'm guessing I burned maybe 185 calories, but again I'm downplaying it.
So food was coffee this morning (10 cal), and a fun size twix (80 cal) plus bite of cookie dough (35 cal) when I got home. Despite my mom using Crisco in her cookies, most of everything else is fairly healthy. Almond meal, oats, and unbleached flour among other things. Plus they taste great. We went to Carl's Jr. for dinner and I got a Cranberry Walnut Salad with grilled chicken. I only used half of the raspberry vinaigrette and feta cheese, so instead of a 360 calorie salad it was more like 305. And then I had a super small piece of my mom's cheese cake (55 cal) So my total intake today was 485 and my net intake was 300 calories. I'm glad I'm finding the energy to actually keep up with the SGD, and your lovely comments and support really help push me along. =)
Camille: No I don't live in the UK, California is my house and home. I guess Xfinity is a subset of Comcast, so maybe that rings more of a bell? And thank you for the support. You and your hubby are totally adorable. =)
So yeah my day hasn't been too exciting...at all. I hope I have more to talk about tomorrow. I gotta go to bed soon though, I'm getting up early to go to my parents' farm. Oh joy...
I really want to eat a whole bakery right now.
♥ Toni
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Happy Father's Day (you know, because tons of my followers are dads, tee hee)
But seriously, I think this year was a pretty alright Father's Day. I got my dad a shirt from my university. :D
Like yesterday, I stayed on track again today. Part of that is due to the television believe it or not. I came home for summer to find that my parents switched to Xfinity and now we have On Demand, which means free exercise programs. I did, in total, probably an hour or so of pilates, cardio, abs, and thigh exercises. Now my inner thighs and glutes are sore, which is good. They haven't been sore in a long time.
I took my parents and sister out to a move for Father's Day. Now that I'm back to working I get the privilege of seeing free movies, so all I paid for was popcorn (if I had paid for all of us it would have been over $40!) We saw X-Men: First Class and I LOVED it. It was one of the best prequels I've ever seen. It was loads better than the Wolverine film. The story and acting was absolutely great.
Food was under my limit. My parents offered to cook my up eggs this morning but I just had a piece of french bread toast and butter (125 cal) with coffee (10 cal) and strawberries (25 cal). Then I didn't eat again until dinner before the movie. I ate 3.5 oz of tri tip (170 cal), a small potato with sour cream (70 cal), another piece of french bread toast (grilled with no butter; 80 cal), a few bites of caesar salad (25 cal), and a desert of my mom's home made cheese cake (130 cal). Then I had about a fifth of the small popcorn at the movies (145 cal). I'm downplaying the amount of calories I burned to 225 because I really have no clue how much I burned, but I know I was sweating! I'm sure I burned more, but better safe than sorry, right? So my total intake today was 780 and my net intake was 555 calories. Aaaaaand I weighed in at 121.25 lbs. Good day. =)
Other miscellaneous things I did today was clean out all of my thinspo folders. Some times the old stuff just doesn't elicit the same response from me, so I got rid of like 250 photos and added some more from tumblr. A lot of fitspo, which I'm really getting into, as are a few other bloggers I'm noticing.
Like yesterday, I stayed on track again today. Part of that is due to the television believe it or not. I came home for summer to find that my parents switched to Xfinity and now we have On Demand, which means free exercise programs. I did, in total, probably an hour or so of pilates, cardio, abs, and thigh exercises. Now my inner thighs and glutes are sore, which is good. They haven't been sore in a long time.
I took my parents and sister out to a move for Father's Day. Now that I'm back to working I get the privilege of seeing free movies, so all I paid for was popcorn (if I had paid for all of us it would have been over $40!) We saw X-Men: First Class and I LOVED it. It was one of the best prequels I've ever seen. It was loads better than the Wolverine film. The story and acting was absolutely great.
Food was under my limit. My parents offered to cook my up eggs this morning but I just had a piece of french bread toast and butter (125 cal) with coffee (10 cal) and strawberries (25 cal). Then I didn't eat again until dinner before the movie. I ate 3.5 oz of tri tip (170 cal), a small potato with sour cream (70 cal), another piece of french bread toast (grilled with no butter; 80 cal), a few bites of caesar salad (25 cal), and a desert of my mom's home made cheese cake (130 cal). Then I had about a fifth of the small popcorn at the movies (145 cal). I'm downplaying the amount of calories I burned to 225 because I really have no clue how much I burned, but I know I was sweating! I'm sure I burned more, but better safe than sorry, right? So my total intake today was 780 and my net intake was 555 calories. Aaaaaand I weighed in at 121.25 lbs. Good day. =)
Other miscellaneous things I did today was clean out all of my thinspo folders. Some times the old stuff just doesn't elicit the same response from me, so I got rid of like 250 photos and added some more from tumblr. A lot of fitspo, which I'm really getting into, as are a few other bloggers I'm noticing.
I love her body
Sooooo taaaaaaaan
And a hello to hey.haha.Thanks for joining. ^_^
Shrinking Violet: Thank you! I'd really like to get rid of the rest of the little pooch on my belly but overall I think the difference in my body is really noticeable.And yes I thought JGL was so gorgeous in Inception, especially in all those suits.
Amber: Haha thanks for understanding my screen rant. And yeas, every day does make a difference. I'm glad I didn't decide to just keep screwing up because of one bad week.
Christy: Really? The whole time I was thinking "boy, I really want some chocolate, and gummi candy, and whipped cream, and sugar, and allthecandyintheworld!"
Sammy and Ulla: Doesn't Nolan just make the best movies? He's definitely my favorite modern director.
Shrinking Violet: Thank you! I'd really like to get rid of the rest of the little pooch on my belly but overall I think the difference in my body is really noticeable.And yes I thought JGL was so gorgeous in Inception, especially in all those suits.
Amber: Haha thanks for understanding my screen rant. And yeas, every day does make a difference. I'm glad I didn't decide to just keep screwing up because of one bad week.
Christy: Really? The whole time I was thinking "boy, I really want some chocolate, and gummi candy, and whipped cream, and sugar, and allthecandyintheworld!"
Sammy and Ulla: Doesn't Nolan just make the best movies? He's definitely my favorite modern director.
Hope you ladies are having a good day (or night if you're living in the States like me). And to all the girls who are having a tough time I hope tomorrow is a fresh start and you all feel a little better.
♥ Toni
Saturday, June 18, 2011
INCEPTION!!! (and thinspo)
Thank you astridwillbe50 for joining my blog
You're in a place of no judgement. =)
I'm currently watching Inception on HBO. It's my favorite movie and I'm very disappointed that HBO is playing it in fullscreen. If any of you are movie screen ratio savvy then you know that movie theater screen are very rectangular, and 75 mm film is formatted to make the picture look very wide, so that landscapes look humungous. TV screen are more square, so when movies air on television, they either air in widescreen (hence the thick black lines on the top and bottom of your tv screen) or in full screen, which means the edges of the film are cut off to make the picture small enough. It's just not the same. =/
But anyway I love Inception and Christopher Nolan and the score by Hans Zimmer and the story and the acting and the 4 Oscars the film won and everything about it! He was possessed with some radical notions...
I started work again today back at the movie theater. They put me on reg (concessions). It was an 8 hour day but I was glad to be back, and 3 of my co-workers commented on my weight loss! So anyway I had no time to eat and didn't eat much when I got back home. I only had a cup of coffee in the morning (10 cal), and when I got home I had an oatmeal raisin cookie (170 cal), a few bites of bread (75 cal), 1/4 of an apple danish (80 cal), and a home made soft taco (255 cal) for a total of 590 calories, which is 60 calories under my limit for the SGD!
FINALLY!
I finally stayed under my calories limits. Holy crap does it feel good, and today I weighed 122.25 to boot, .75 lbs under yesterday. I think I'm getting on the right track.
Ok and I actually took the after pics for the Pictures Page so check it out if you want.
Alright not much else to say for today. Got some thinspo though. :D
P.S. Now I'm watching Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory. This day is just getting better.
You're in a place of no judgement. =)
I'm currently watching Inception on HBO. It's my favorite movie and I'm very disappointed that HBO is playing it in fullscreen. If any of you are movie screen ratio savvy then you know that movie theater screen are very rectangular, and 75 mm film is formatted to make the picture look very wide, so that landscapes look humungous. TV screen are more square, so when movies air on television, they either air in widescreen (hence the thick black lines on the top and bottom of your tv screen) or in full screen, which means the edges of the film are cut off to make the picture small enough. It's just not the same. =/
But anyway I love Inception and Christopher Nolan and the score by Hans Zimmer and the story and the acting and the 4 Oscars the film won and everything about it! He was possessed with some radical notions...
I started work again today back at the movie theater. They put me on reg (concessions). It was an 8 hour day but I was glad to be back, and 3 of my co-workers commented on my weight loss! So anyway I had no time to eat and didn't eat much when I got back home. I only had a cup of coffee in the morning (10 cal), and when I got home I had an oatmeal raisin cookie (170 cal), a few bites of bread (75 cal), 1/4 of an apple danish (80 cal), and a home made soft taco (255 cal) for a total of 590 calories, which is 60 calories under my limit for the SGD!
FINALLY!
I finally stayed under my calories limits. Holy crap does it feel good, and today I weighed 122.25 to boot, .75 lbs under yesterday. I think I'm getting on the right track.
Ok and I actually took the after pics for the Pictures Page so check it out if you want.
Alright not much else to say for today. Got some thinspo though. :D
Night lovelies.
♥ ToniP.S. Now I'm watching Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory. This day is just getting better.
Friday, June 17, 2011
I hope this post makes sense because I'm severely tired.
Thank you Savanna, Shrinking Violet and Miwo for joining my blog. =)
I can't believe I'm up to 65 followers. I feel bad that I haven't updated in 4 days and people are still signing up to follow, but I'm very grateful for you lovelies.
SGD has bee such a total and complete bust. I've only had one good day. Today was 730 calories total. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that I'm not going to the gym. I would be running but my schedule has been busy with work and on Wednesday I went on that trip to see Aaron. I had so much fun. I stayed the night at his place and...uh...played the best game of doctor ever. And then the next day we went to a water park. The best part? I felt good in my new black bikini (oh yeah I bought a new bathing suit, bras, running shoes, and lacy panties on Tuesday with Jenna). I didn't feel like a fat whale for the first time in my life. You know how girl always compare themselves to other girls at water parks? I felt like one of those girls that some might compare themselves to, and Aaron not being able to keep his hands off me boosted my confidence as well. And one of my closest friends is having a start of summer pool party in a week, so I want to lose maybe just a few more lbs before then to really feel good.
I'm up to 123 lbs, but I'm sure some of it is food still in my tummy. I go back to my actual job at the movie theater (my other one is working for my parents) tomorrow at 8:30 am. I think I'll be able to go all day without much food. I'm in a good place right now, but I know if I keep slipping up I'll gain some weight back and I don't want that to happen. Up until Wednesday I was losing about a half lb a day and I was down to 120.25 lbs, so I know if I just restrict I'll be pretty ok. I'm going to go jogging more and do some body exercises in my room to maybe make up for the fact that I don't have a gym membership and probably wouldn't be able to go much if I got one anyway.
I promise I'll post more tomorrow. I'm so tired and need to get up early for work. I'll post pictures of thinspo, lots of it. Oh and I think I can finally do before/after pictures. I've been meaning to do that...ugh ok going to bed. I've read most of your updates from the past few days and will read the rest tomorrow. =)
♥ Toni
I can't believe I'm up to 65 followers. I feel bad that I haven't updated in 4 days and people are still signing up to follow, but I'm very grateful for you lovelies.
SGD has bee such a total and complete bust. I've only had one good day. Today was 730 calories total. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that I'm not going to the gym. I would be running but my schedule has been busy with work and on Wednesday I went on that trip to see Aaron. I had so much fun. I stayed the night at his place and...uh...played the best game of doctor ever. And then the next day we went to a water park. The best part? I felt good in my new black bikini (oh yeah I bought a new bathing suit, bras, running shoes, and lacy panties on Tuesday with Jenna). I didn't feel like a fat whale for the first time in my life. You know how girl always compare themselves to other girls at water parks? I felt like one of those girls that some might compare themselves to, and Aaron not being able to keep his hands off me boosted my confidence as well. And one of my closest friends is having a start of summer pool party in a week, so I want to lose maybe just a few more lbs before then to really feel good.
I'm up to 123 lbs, but I'm sure some of it is food still in my tummy. I go back to my actual job at the movie theater (my other one is working for my parents) tomorrow at 8:30 am. I think I'll be able to go all day without much food. I'm in a good place right now, but I know if I keep slipping up I'll gain some weight back and I don't want that to happen. Up until Wednesday I was losing about a half lb a day and I was down to 120.25 lbs, so I know if I just restrict I'll be pretty ok. I'm going to go jogging more and do some body exercises in my room to maybe make up for the fact that I don't have a gym membership and probably wouldn't be able to go much if I got one anyway.
I promise I'll post more tomorrow. I'm so tired and need to get up early for work. I'll post pictures of thinspo, lots of it. Oh and I think I can finally do before/after pictures. I've been meaning to do that...ugh ok going to bed. I've read most of your updates from the past few days and will read the rest tomorrow. =)
♥ Toni
Monday, June 6, 2011
Getting back on the SGD track.
Thank you Christy and Amber for the birthday wishes. =)
My Facebook has been overflowing with "happy birthday this" and :have an awesome birthday that." I really wasn't sure how many people would comment outside of the people I go to college with, but even my boss wished me a happy birthday.
So today after my first final (which I'm pretty sure I got an A on, it was ridiculously easy) I went to the gym like I said I would. And the damage was right there on the scale: 125 lbs. How oh how did I manage to gain 5 lbs in 5 days? It ain't possible. Must be the tons of food still in my system, so despite it being my birthday I'm restricting today for the start of the SGD. And to be honest I feel really good about it. I'm not thinking "dammit it's my birthday and I should eat whatever I want. " I'm thinking "it's my birthday and I'm getting back into the game so I can get this weight off." And it feels pretty awesome. I'm glad I wasn't begging to get off of the elliptical today, which I was on for over an hour.
But yeah other than the final, my birthday and food nothing else is really going on today. I'm watching The Piano for my film music class and continuing my search for dance classes. I don't want to spend a bunch of money to take like 3 classes a week but switching from 4 classes to 1 or 2 a week will be difficult. I just want to dance! But I have other priorities this summer. My jobs mainly. And losing more weight. I went from having to lose only 8 more lbs to get to my UGW and now I'm back to having to lose 13. I'm praying a lot of what I gained will be gone tomorrow. I'm drinking tons of water and cutting back the calories, so we'll see.
Oh and something I found out today (more dance related stuff): one of the teachers at the studio right around the corner from my house is my old HS dance team assistant coach. Erm...I don't know what it'll be like if I choose to dance there this summer. I never quite warmed up to any of my coaches back in high school. They liked to favor certain girls and I wasn't really one of them, but she was the nicest out of the three so that's good. And another one of the instructors is actually a girl in the grade below me who I remember from high school. Weird! I can't imagine taking dance classes from a girl who is younger than myself, especially since I'm not even really a beginner. We'll see, we'll see...
Ok, time for food. I was very much on track today and I plan on having nothing more to eat until after my final tomorrow and after I hit the gym again.
Breakfast was 6 oz of cream of wheat (90 cal), 1 tbsp brown sugar (35 cal), coffee with 1 tbsp skim milk (5 cal), 1/2 of a canned peach (50 cal), and 1 bagel (160 cal) with toppings of butter (30 cal) and cream cheese (50 cal). It was kind of a bigger breakfast than I'm used to. 420 calories total. Then I went to lunch around 3 because it was fresh cookie day. I had two small chocolate chip cookies (110 cal) with 4 oz of 2% milk (60 cal), some french fries (60 cal), and veggies (25 cal) with ranch (75 cal). That came to 330 calories. So my intake today was 750 calories and at the gym I burned off 760, so my net total is -10 calories for the day. Phew! Great for my first day back to restricting in almost a week.
And one last thing. I might, might follow in Amber's footsteps and post a picture or two of myself. Might. I'll admit I'm not hesitant entirely because of self esteem issues (well, maybe slightly), but you know how it can be on the internet, although I have wanted to put a face to my blog for a while now. I don't quite know what you all think I look like and if what I actually look like contradicts greatly with your imaginations. It's always interesting to see the face behind the mask, although I did choose my profile picture because I'd like to think that I look a little like Kaya Scodelario. Well, maybe we don't look a whole lot alike, but I do have brown hair, blue eyes, and freckles. And we're the same age (as of today). Maybe if my face were just thinner...oh well, stay tuned. If I do put pics up it'll be on my picture progress page. I need to take a current picture of my body so I can put up before/after pics, plus my sister just unearthed a Christmas photo of me two years ago and my face was so much fatter! Haha I'll have to put that up.
Alright ladies, gotta study for my exams. If any of you are going through finals I wish you the best of luck!
♥ Toni
My Facebook has been overflowing with "happy birthday this" and :have an awesome birthday that." I really wasn't sure how many people would comment outside of the people I go to college with, but even my boss wished me a happy birthday.
So today after my first final (which I'm pretty sure I got an A on, it was ridiculously easy) I went to the gym like I said I would. And the damage was right there on the scale: 125 lbs. How oh how did I manage to gain 5 lbs in 5 days? It ain't possible. Must be the tons of food still in my system, so despite it being my birthday I'm restricting today for the start of the SGD. And to be honest I feel really good about it. I'm not thinking "dammit it's my birthday and I should eat whatever I want. " I'm thinking "it's my birthday and I'm getting back into the game so I can get this weight off." And it feels pretty awesome. I'm glad I wasn't begging to get off of the elliptical today, which I was on for over an hour.
But yeah other than the final, my birthday and food nothing else is really going on today. I'm watching The Piano for my film music class and continuing my search for dance classes. I don't want to spend a bunch of money to take like 3 classes a week but switching from 4 classes to 1 or 2 a week will be difficult. I just want to dance! But I have other priorities this summer. My jobs mainly. And losing more weight. I went from having to lose only 8 more lbs to get to my UGW and now I'm back to having to lose 13. I'm praying a lot of what I gained will be gone tomorrow. I'm drinking tons of water and cutting back the calories, so we'll see.
Oh and something I found out today (more dance related stuff): one of the teachers at the studio right around the corner from my house is my old HS dance team assistant coach. Erm...I don't know what it'll be like if I choose to dance there this summer. I never quite warmed up to any of my coaches back in high school. They liked to favor certain girls and I wasn't really one of them, but she was the nicest out of the three so that's good. And another one of the instructors is actually a girl in the grade below me who I remember from high school. Weird! I can't imagine taking dance classes from a girl who is younger than myself, especially since I'm not even really a beginner. We'll see, we'll see...
Ok, time for food. I was very much on track today and I plan on having nothing more to eat until after my final tomorrow and after I hit the gym again.
Breakfast was 6 oz of cream of wheat (90 cal), 1 tbsp brown sugar (35 cal), coffee with 1 tbsp skim milk (5 cal), 1/2 of a canned peach (50 cal), and 1 bagel (160 cal) with toppings of butter (30 cal) and cream cheese (50 cal). It was kind of a bigger breakfast than I'm used to. 420 calories total. Then I went to lunch around 3 because it was fresh cookie day. I had two small chocolate chip cookies (110 cal) with 4 oz of 2% milk (60 cal), some french fries (60 cal), and veggies (25 cal) with ranch (75 cal). That came to 330 calories. So my intake today was 750 calories and at the gym I burned off 760, so my net total is -10 calories for the day. Phew! Great for my first day back to restricting in almost a week.
And one last thing. I might, might follow in Amber's footsteps and post a picture or two of myself. Might. I'll admit I'm not hesitant entirely because of self esteem issues (well, maybe slightly), but you know how it can be on the internet, although I have wanted to put a face to my blog for a while now. I don't quite know what you all think I look like and if what I actually look like contradicts greatly with your imaginations. It's always interesting to see the face behind the mask, although I did choose my profile picture because I'd like to think that I look a little like Kaya Scodelario. Well, maybe we don't look a whole lot alike, but I do have brown hair, blue eyes, and freckles. And we're the same age (as of today). Maybe if my face were just thinner...oh well, stay tuned. If I do put pics up it'll be on my picture progress page. I need to take a current picture of my body so I can put up before/after pics, plus my sister just unearthed a Christmas photo of me two years ago and my face was so much fatter! Haha I'll have to put that up.
Alright ladies, gotta study for my exams. If any of you are going through finals I wish you the best of luck!
♥ Toni
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
AH! So excited!
Dance audition information is uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuup!!! Finally!!!!!!!!!!! And it's right after my jazz class!!!!!!!!!!!! Soooooooooooooooo excitedddddddd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok, that was way too much energy. Sorry for that. Ok so yeah, auditions are on Thursday of this week. There's absolutely NO WAY I can get to 118 by then unless I just eat nothing...and then I'd pass out. Not good. So I'm aiming for a flat 120. Yesterday's "fast" was anything but. I had maybe 700 calories at dinner. Fucking dinner screwed it all up, and this morning I was 123! Good news is that I've only had 230 calories today (mostly fruit and veggies) and burned 755, so my net intake is -525 calories. I'm hitting the gym right after my lit class and I'm praying the number I see on the scale is waaaaaaaaaaay less than it was today, because I know a lot of that was from the food still in my tummy.
In non-food related news I stayed after my jazz class today to talk with my teacher. She told me I'm very dedicated and pick up things very quickly and I'm smart when it comes to dance. Basically she told me I'm at a higher level than everyone else in the class, which really boosted my confidence. She told me I need to have more fun with my dancing though, which I agree with. I'm really competitive and focused with my dancing and I like being the very best I can be. I am just so hyped for Thursday now! Gah! Can't wait!
♥ Toni
P.S.-Thank you Ariana for your warm wishes. =)
P.P.S. 51 followers!
Ok, that was way too much energy. Sorry for that. Ok so yeah, auditions are on Thursday of this week. There's absolutely NO WAY I can get to 118 by then unless I just eat nothing...and then I'd pass out. Not good. So I'm aiming for a flat 120. Yesterday's "fast" was anything but. I had maybe 700 calories at dinner. Fucking dinner screwed it all up, and this morning I was 123! Good news is that I've only had 230 calories today (mostly fruit and veggies) and burned 755, so my net intake is -525 calories. I'm hitting the gym right after my lit class and I'm praying the number I see on the scale is waaaaaaaaaaay less than it was today, because I know a lot of that was from the food still in my tummy.
In non-food related news I stayed after my jazz class today to talk with my teacher. She told me I'm very dedicated and pick up things very quickly and I'm smart when it comes to dance. Basically she told me I'm at a higher level than everyone else in the class, which really boosted my confidence. She told me I need to have more fun with my dancing though, which I agree with. I'm really competitive and focused with my dancing and I like being the very best I can be. I am just so hyped for Thursday now! Gah! Can't wait!
♥ Toni
P.S.-Thank you Ariana for your warm wishes. =)
P.P.S. 51 followers!
Friday, May 6, 2011
Update on last night:
So...yeah, I know I forgot to update. And the update itself isn't very pretty.
After dance class I weighed in at 124.75. Up 1.25 lbs. Sigh...
And then as I was on the bus Aaron called. He ended up getting at another stop and convinced me to go eat with him at a dining hall, so I did, and had Special K, a piece of pizza, a brownie, and 3 cookies. It's not much, and I know my total is less than 1000, but I felt pretty shitty afterwards.
I think for the next two weeks I'm going to give the 10 Day Diet a little break. I think I'll just stick to having a net total of 500 or below and I'll be happy. And I think my goal for cheer tryouts is going to change to 120 lbs instead of 118, but 115 is still ideal for dance tryouts. I've just been so overwhelmed lately and I need a break from putting my body through so much stress.
I think my weigh in today will be satisfactory. It'd be awesome to be back down to 123.5, but a solid 124 will please me. I'm not going to eat until after my midterm (that whole "you perform better on tests after you've eaten" just never really applied to me) and burn maybe 400-500 calories and then weigh in. I think that'll get me down to something I like.
Ok, I'm off to read everyone's posts before I go get some sun and then head off to my midterm. Thank you for all the support on that! I think it should be fairly easy, just 100 multiple choice questions, but you never know!
After dance class I weighed in at 124.75. Up 1.25 lbs. Sigh...
And then as I was on the bus Aaron called. He ended up getting at another stop and convinced me to go eat with him at a dining hall, so I did, and had Special K, a piece of pizza, a brownie, and 3 cookies. It's not much, and I know my total is less than 1000, but I felt pretty shitty afterwards.
I think for the next two weeks I'm going to give the 10 Day Diet a little break. I think I'll just stick to having a net total of 500 or below and I'll be happy. And I think my goal for cheer tryouts is going to change to 120 lbs instead of 118, but 115 is still ideal for dance tryouts. I've just been so overwhelmed lately and I need a break from putting my body through so much stress.
I think my weigh in today will be satisfactory. It'd be awesome to be back down to 123.5, but a solid 124 will please me. I'm not going to eat until after my midterm (that whole "you perform better on tests after you've eaten" just never really applied to me) and burn maybe 400-500 calories and then weigh in. I think that'll get me down to something I like.
Ok, I'm off to read everyone's posts before I go get some sun and then head off to my midterm. Thank you for all the support on that! I think it should be fairly easy, just 100 multiple choice questions, but you never know!
Motivation to keep me going:
I love it when you can tell a girl is still thin under a baggy t-shirt.
I'll catch up with you guys after my workout!
♥ Toni
Update #1
I saw it: 123.5! It was a nice little surprise to behold. And I was planning on getting a smoothie after my workout (burned 525 calories in 45 minutes!), especially after seeing that number, but a bunch of us are going out to an Italian restaurant for a friend's birthday, so I'll try to keep it under 800. Maybe I'll split a dish with someone. Too much pasta fills me up like nothing else, except maybe pancakes. =/
Ok, update #2 will come after dinner. Wish me luck!
Update #1
I saw it: 123.5! It was a nice little surprise to behold. And I was planning on getting a smoothie after my workout (burned 525 calories in 45 minutes!), especially after seeing that number, but a bunch of us are going out to an Italian restaurant for a friend's birthday, so I'll try to keep it under 800. Maybe I'll split a dish with someone. Too much pasta fills me up like nothing else, except maybe pancakes. =/
Ok, update #2 will come after dinner. Wish me luck!
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Today is a gorgeous day. =)
Oh I'm sorry for not posting last night. I had a lot to read and I just didn't have time after dance class and the gym (which I was at for only 20 minutes, this...whatever sickness I have is really taking a lot out of me).
As always thank you for all the comments on last night's post. They motivate me so much! And I'm up to 35 followers! The newest one: Ana-answer. Go follow her! Show her some support on the journey we're all taking. =)
Thin_Envy: Girl you are 111 lbs. That's 15 lbs lighter than me. I know you want to be 90 lbs but come on, I'm sure you could wear that midriff shirt right now and look great in it! Although it is always nice to have a visual reminder of your goals.
So yesterday was alright with food. I only had a piece of crustless toast with butter (110 cal) and half a grapefruit (30 cal) for breakfast. Lunch was something called Mayan pork with veggies (125 cal) and 4.5 oz of vegan chili (45 cal). That comes to 310 calories, and the remaining 190 were used up with some leftover Chinese I ate with Aaron. I didn't have a lot, just enough to wade off a growling tummy. Dance nixed 350 calories and I burned 160 on a cycle at the gym, so my intake was 500 calories and my net intake was -10 calories. I can live with that. Aaaaand my digestive system is getting back on track which means I'm losing again. 126 lbs on the scale last night. It's not much but it's enough to get lift my spirits. Getting to 118 by May 21st looks a little easier now.
I got another 80 points for the 10 Day Diet. 500 calories (20 pts), 1 hr 50 min exercise (20 pts), 2 L water (20 pts), and 8.5 hrs sleep (20 pts).
Alright so in other news I was found. Granted it was only by my boyfriend, but I thought he would make a big deal over it. Instead all he said was that all I talk about it what I eat and the 2 paragraphs he read were boring and he didn't really want to read anything else. That got me thinking: do I write boring posts? I try not to, but do I? Is there something else you all want me to touch on? I guess I could write more about my personal life, but I just don't have a very exciting life at the moment.
Ok, I'm about to go finally have some real food, but I'll catch up with you later, post my intake for today, and show some thinspo love.
Laterrrrr:
I really didn't want to go to dance today because of whatever sickness I've been going through, but it made me feel a lot better. It burned 300 calories and I spent only 20 minutes on an elliptical right after and burned another 270. The scale said 125.75. It's progress I guess.
Food was ok. Despite getting my 8 hours of sleep I was really groggy at my 8 am class so I had a 10 oz coffee with a smidge of splenda, non-fat milk, and half and half (15 cal). Lunch was 7.5 oz of black bean soup (90 cal), some cooked zucchini (35 cal), a small fish patty with tartar sauce (125 cal), and a small plateful of carrot sticks (55 cal). Dinner was 1/2 of a beef tamale (45 cal), some strawberry fro yo (50 cal), and half of a brownie (75 cal) bringing my total to 490 calories and with exercise to -80 calories.
Alright I got my 8 hours of sleep, 2 liters of water, under 500 calories, and 1 hr 50 minutes of exercise, bringing me to another 80 points. It's slightly monotonous, but it's relatively easy and I'm seeing results.
As always I'm loving you girls and your comments, especially regarding what I mentioned earlier about Aaron. On the one hand I'm glad he's not very interested in my blog, but on the other it kind of surprised me that he wasn't more concerned about my dietary habits, but I guess that's due to him not caring enough to read. Oh well...
Christy: Fat and carbs? Wow I can't believe he memorized all of that!
Ok I've got work to do, so I'll leave you with this little beauty:
As always thank you for all the comments on last night's post. They motivate me so much! And I'm up to 35 followers! The newest one: Ana-answer. Go follow her! Show her some support on the journey we're all taking. =)
Thin_Envy: Girl you are 111 lbs. That's 15 lbs lighter than me. I know you want to be 90 lbs but come on, I'm sure you could wear that midriff shirt right now and look great in it! Although it is always nice to have a visual reminder of your goals.
So yesterday was alright with food. I only had a piece of crustless toast with butter (110 cal) and half a grapefruit (30 cal) for breakfast. Lunch was something called Mayan pork with veggies (125 cal) and 4.5 oz of vegan chili (45 cal). That comes to 310 calories, and the remaining 190 were used up with some leftover Chinese I ate with Aaron. I didn't have a lot, just enough to wade off a growling tummy. Dance nixed 350 calories and I burned 160 on a cycle at the gym, so my intake was 500 calories and my net intake was -10 calories. I can live with that. Aaaaand my digestive system is getting back on track which means I'm losing again. 126 lbs on the scale last night. It's not much but it's enough to get lift my spirits. Getting to 118 by May 21st looks a little easier now.
I got another 80 points for the 10 Day Diet. 500 calories (20 pts), 1 hr 50 min exercise (20 pts), 2 L water (20 pts), and 8.5 hrs sleep (20 pts).
Alright so in other news I was found. Granted it was only by my boyfriend, but I thought he would make a big deal over it. Instead all he said was that all I talk about it what I eat and the 2 paragraphs he read were boring and he didn't really want to read anything else. That got me thinking: do I write boring posts? I try not to, but do I? Is there something else you all want me to touch on? I guess I could write more about my personal life, but I just don't have a very exciting life at the moment.
Ok, I'm about to go finally have some real food, but I'll catch up with you later, post my intake for today, and show some thinspo love.
Laterrrrr:
I really didn't want to go to dance today because of whatever sickness I've been going through, but it made me feel a lot better. It burned 300 calories and I spent only 20 minutes on an elliptical right after and burned another 270. The scale said 125.75. It's progress I guess.
Food was ok. Despite getting my 8 hours of sleep I was really groggy at my 8 am class so I had a 10 oz coffee with a smidge of splenda, non-fat milk, and half and half (15 cal). Lunch was 7.5 oz of black bean soup (90 cal), some cooked zucchini (35 cal), a small fish patty with tartar sauce (125 cal), and a small plateful of carrot sticks (55 cal). Dinner was 1/2 of a beef tamale (45 cal), some strawberry fro yo (50 cal), and half of a brownie (75 cal) bringing my total to 490 calories and with exercise to -80 calories.
Alright I got my 8 hours of sleep, 2 liters of water, under 500 calories, and 1 hr 50 minutes of exercise, bringing me to another 80 points. It's slightly monotonous, but it's relatively easy and I'm seeing results.
As always I'm loving you girls and your comments, especially regarding what I mentioned earlier about Aaron. On the one hand I'm glad he's not very interested in my blog, but on the other it kind of surprised me that he wasn't more concerned about my dietary habits, but I guess that's due to him not caring enough to read. Oh well...
Christy: Fat and carbs? Wow I can't believe he memorized all of that!
Ok I've got work to do, so I'll leave you with this little beauty:
I am so obsessed with stomachs! I wish I had a flatter one. =/
Hoping you girlies have a lovely night,
♥ Toni
Friday, April 22, 2011
Weight, Exercise, and Dancing
Official weigh-in: 125 lbs. Boooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
Well, I guess I'm not still at 127, and I've exercised every day this week, and I've been in the negatives, and I know I'll drop some weight when my digestive track gets back to normal, so I guess that's not all bad. I just want to weigh less. =(
Christy: a sea salt bath you say? Sounds tempting, and I would try it if I had 1) sea salt and 2) a bath tub. Damn my dorm bathrooms and it's endless supply of showers!
Otherwise thank you girls for the supportive comments last night. I actually just ate a little bit ago after going to the gym. I feel ok. I burned off 640 calories. I don't know my calorie count yet. I'll update on that later.
Food has been weird lately. I've been having a hard time telling whether or not I'm hungry or full. The feelings are the same. And no matter how much I do eat, I don't feel overtly full and I've been going to bed with a growling tummy. Maybe I just think I'm eating a lot? Right now I don't think I'm eating much like a disordered person. French fries, hot dogs, frozen yogurt, tacos. I mean I've really been indulging. I do think, however, that I've started to exercise like a disordered person. It's not just "Oh I'll go dance class for 90 minutes then do a little workout." It's "I'm going to dance class with the intent of being the best and then going to exercise to burn off the most amount of calories I can." I mean, I'm getting light headed a lot and my legs have been continually sore. I'm short of breath and my resting heart rate has gone up. I know this isn't normal. It's my perfectionist drive. Example: yesterday a new girl came into my jazz dance class (I prefer my jazz class much more to my modern dance class) and that sense of competition came over me. For about half the class I watched her. She was thin and pretty and I wanted to see if she was good at dancing, or at least catching on. I watched her stretch, do combinations across the floor, leaps and turns, and finally I concluded that she wasn't a threat, that she wasn't as good as me. Aren't I a self-centered egotistical bitch? At least that's what I think. Again, I'm a perfectionist. And I'm a girl. Those two traits are bound to manifest themselves into bitchiness at one point or another. I just like being the best, or one of the best. I feel like a failure any other way.
Ok I'm rambling again, and I still have more to post later. But for now I have to go, I'm taking a little shopping trip with some friends. Leggings, headbands, jeans, so much I need to buy!
Later: Alright, so I'm back from my trip. I bought leggings, but no headbands or jeans. One terrible thing about being short: jeans are nearly impossible to buy. I did get some new sports bras and cotton shorts. Yay for new exercise clothes!
When we got back to campus I indulged in a dining hall crunch wrap...on top of having two kid's scoops at Baskin Robin. Oh goody joy, I can't wait to see which number appears on the scale tomorrow. For now though, I'm too tired to calculate all that I ate. I'm sure it was horrid. All I want is sleep. Day 6 of consecutive gym time coming up tomorrow at 10 am. I hope you all are having a great start to your weekend. =)
♥ Toni
Well, I guess I'm not still at 127, and I've exercised every day this week, and I've been in the negatives, and I know I'll drop some weight when my digestive track gets back to normal, so I guess that's not all bad. I just want to weigh less. =(
Christy: a sea salt bath you say? Sounds tempting, and I would try it if I had 1) sea salt and 2) a bath tub. Damn my dorm bathrooms and it's endless supply of showers!
Otherwise thank you girls for the supportive comments last night. I actually just ate a little bit ago after going to the gym. I feel ok. I burned off 640 calories. I don't know my calorie count yet. I'll update on that later.
Food has been weird lately. I've been having a hard time telling whether or not I'm hungry or full. The feelings are the same. And no matter how much I do eat, I don't feel overtly full and I've been going to bed with a growling tummy. Maybe I just think I'm eating a lot? Right now I don't think I'm eating much like a disordered person. French fries, hot dogs, frozen yogurt, tacos. I mean I've really been indulging. I do think, however, that I've started to exercise like a disordered person. It's not just "Oh I'll go dance class for 90 minutes then do a little workout." It's "I'm going to dance class with the intent of being the best and then going to exercise to burn off the most amount of calories I can." I mean, I'm getting light headed a lot and my legs have been continually sore. I'm short of breath and my resting heart rate has gone up. I know this isn't normal. It's my perfectionist drive. Example: yesterday a new girl came into my jazz dance class (I prefer my jazz class much more to my modern dance class) and that sense of competition came over me. For about half the class I watched her. She was thin and pretty and I wanted to see if she was good at dancing, or at least catching on. I watched her stretch, do combinations across the floor, leaps and turns, and finally I concluded that she wasn't a threat, that she wasn't as good as me. Aren't I a self-centered egotistical bitch? At least that's what I think. Again, I'm a perfectionist. And I'm a girl. Those two traits are bound to manifest themselves into bitchiness at one point or another. I just like being the best, or one of the best. I feel like a failure any other way.
Ok I'm rambling again, and I still have more to post later. But for now I have to go, I'm taking a little shopping trip with some friends. Leggings, headbands, jeans, so much I need to buy!
Later: Alright, so I'm back from my trip. I bought leggings, but no headbands or jeans. One terrible thing about being short: jeans are nearly impossible to buy. I did get some new sports bras and cotton shorts. Yay for new exercise clothes!
When we got back to campus I indulged in a dining hall crunch wrap...on top of having two kid's scoops at Baskin Robin. Oh goody joy, I can't wait to see which number appears on the scale tomorrow. For now though, I'm too tired to calculate all that I ate. I'm sure it was horrid. All I want is sleep. Day 6 of consecutive gym time coming up tomorrow at 10 am. I hope you all are having a great start to your weekend. =)
♥ Toni
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Ummmmmmm?
Alright, so I don't care what the scale says but there is no way on earth I gained 2.5 lbs in one day. No way. I wouldn't say all the food in my system got me to 127 today, but I haven't gone big girl potty for over 24 hours. I just wish my digestive system would make up it's mind, or better yet go back to normal.
Trinity: the Super Slimdown Competition is something created by sunshinechild. It's a competition between several girls that started on April 1 and is going until May 20. Basically it's a competition to see who can lose the most weight in that amount of time.
Christy: Thank you for being so supportive these past few days. It's been really hard hitting the gym as often as I have been but your comments help make me stronger. =) And I hope your fast is still going well.
Ok so again I'm in the negatives for the day. I only had one meal (lunch) around 2 pm that consisted of 2 oz mashed potatoes (110 cal), 1/2 of a hotdog with the bun (135 cal), 15 large-ish cut fries (110 cal), 3/4 of a dinner roll (105 cal), a marshmallow egg I got in my Easter basket my grandma sent me in the mail (80 cal), 3/4 of a piece of chocolate cream cake (150 cal), some pina colada fro yo (50 cal), and 4 redvines (110 cal) which comes to 850 calories. Dance was -350 calories and I burned off 775 calories on the elliptical after that so my net total for the day is -275 calories. Not terrible. I hope I can get back down to 124 by tomorrow since I know I can't be burning all of these calories and gain weight at the same time. Hopefully my body will agree with me on that and shed all the extra yuckiness in me.
Day 4 of the 10 Day Diet went as follows: 850 calories (10 points), 8 hours of sleep (20 points), 2 liters of water (20 points), 2.5 hrs of exercise (20 points). Total: 70 points. Acceptable. I don't think I'll be getting many 80 point days, but I've been in the negatives all week so I guess I don't mind too much.
So I've resolved to try out for both cheer and dance. I have a feeling I have a better chance of making cheer rather than dance, but we'll see come audition time. I only say this because from what I've heard the cheer team isn't terribly hard to make. In contrast, when I tried out for dance in the fall less than 10 girls out of over 50 who tried out made the team. Ugh...
Ok I think I'm rambling, and not in a particularly interesting way. Aaaaand I have 70 pages of a book to read before 9:30 am tomorrow. I'll check back in the afternoon and let you all know how the gym goes!
Oh BTW, I got up to 31 followers. =) You should check out my newest follower's blog, thin and bones, she posts great thinspo.
♥ Toni
Trinity: the Super Slimdown Competition is something created by sunshinechild. It's a competition between several girls that started on April 1 and is going until May 20. Basically it's a competition to see who can lose the most weight in that amount of time.
Christy: Thank you for being so supportive these past few days. It's been really hard hitting the gym as often as I have been but your comments help make me stronger. =) And I hope your fast is still going well.
Ok so again I'm in the negatives for the day. I only had one meal (lunch) around 2 pm that consisted of 2 oz mashed potatoes (110 cal), 1/2 of a hotdog with the bun (135 cal), 15 large-ish cut fries (110 cal), 3/4 of a dinner roll (105 cal), a marshmallow egg I got in my Easter basket my grandma sent me in the mail (80 cal), 3/4 of a piece of chocolate cream cake (150 cal), some pina colada fro yo (50 cal), and 4 redvines (110 cal) which comes to 850 calories. Dance was -350 calories and I burned off 775 calories on the elliptical after that so my net total for the day is -275 calories. Not terrible. I hope I can get back down to 124 by tomorrow since I know I can't be burning all of these calories and gain weight at the same time. Hopefully my body will agree with me on that and shed all the extra yuckiness in me.
Day 4 of the 10 Day Diet went as follows: 850 calories (10 points), 8 hours of sleep (20 points), 2 liters of water (20 points), 2.5 hrs of exercise (20 points). Total: 70 points. Acceptable. I don't think I'll be getting many 80 point days, but I've been in the negatives all week so I guess I don't mind too much.
So I've resolved to try out for both cheer and dance. I have a feeling I have a better chance of making cheer rather than dance, but we'll see come audition time. I only say this because from what I've heard the cheer team isn't terribly hard to make. In contrast, when I tried out for dance in the fall less than 10 girls out of over 50 who tried out made the team. Ugh...
Ok I think I'm rambling, and not in a particularly interesting way. Aaaaand I have 70 pages of a book to read before 9:30 am tomorrow. I'll check back in the afternoon and let you all know how the gym goes!
Oh BTW, I got up to 31 followers. =) You should check out my newest follower's blog, thin and bones, she posts great thinspo.
♥ Toni
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Feeling smaller, feeling sicker?
124.5 lbs today. Sooooo close. I have the feeling though that my weight tomorrow will be farther away from 124 than it was today...
I almost went for a 24 hours fast. The last time I ate was yesterday after class at 2, and I kept it up until 1 pm today. I was starving. My stomach was rumbling in 8 am lecture this morning, but some gum and 3 oz of water calmed it down, then I went for a workout at the gym and burned 755 calories.I came home, showered, then ate 540 calories' worth of food (eggplant, garlic bread, tomato bisque, and veggies), then went off to dance where I burned another 300 calories, then came back and ate more food. Nachos, I'd say 375? So my net total comes to -140 calories, although I still only get 10 points for food being over 500, 10 points for sleep (6 hrs), and 20 points for both exercise and water (2 hrs, 35 minutes and 2 liters, respectively).
Speaking of water, I've been experiencing very, er, loose stools lately, if you catch my drift. It started the night before I began the 10 Day Diet, but all the water I've been drinking hasn't been helping much, in fact I think it's making it worse. 3 days this has been going on, and I can't help but think that my weight loss may be linked to my apparent malnutrition according to my toilet. Have any of you experienced this? I think I'll wait it out until Friday (hey, I'll take any way I can to get my weight down in time for the Super Slimdown Competition weigh in). If I'm still having potty problems then I'll go to the campus health center. Having a virus or parasite would be no fun.
On a less disgusting note, today is 420! Or at least it was. I largely didn't celebrate it as I was very much against smoking before dance class, but I took a snicker doodle edible about an hour ago. So far...nothing. That's fine with me I guess, I need to get some reading done. Harriet Jacobs here I come!
Oh and yesterday I e-mailed the captain of my university's dance team and asked if there would be spring tryouts for next year. Turns out they're in early June. I've been getting more confident in my dancing and even though I didn't make the team in the fall I think I may have a shot with my improved technique and shrinking physique. So now I have a dilemma, try out for cheer, try out for dance, or plan on trying out for both? I may just suck at cheer tryouts which would give me a free conscience to go out for dance, but if I made the team I'd still really want to try dancing and I'd feel like a big traitor. The again I could just plan on trying out for dance, but if I didn't make it I'd always wonder if I could have made the cheer team, but then again they do both hold more tryouts in early fall. Ah! Decisions, decisions.
Ok lovelies, that's all I have today.
Wishing you a happy Thursday,
♥ Toni
I almost went for a 24 hours fast. The last time I ate was yesterday after class at 2, and I kept it up until 1 pm today. I was starving. My stomach was rumbling in 8 am lecture this morning, but some gum and 3 oz of water calmed it down, then I went for a workout at the gym and burned 755 calories.I came home, showered, then ate 540 calories' worth of food (eggplant, garlic bread, tomato bisque, and veggies), then went off to dance where I burned another 300 calories, then came back and ate more food. Nachos, I'd say 375? So my net total comes to -140 calories, although I still only get 10 points for food being over 500, 10 points for sleep (6 hrs), and 20 points for both exercise and water (2 hrs, 35 minutes and 2 liters, respectively).
Speaking of water, I've been experiencing very, er, loose stools lately, if you catch my drift. It started the night before I began the 10 Day Diet, but all the water I've been drinking hasn't been helping much, in fact I think it's making it worse. 3 days this has been going on, and I can't help but think that my weight loss may be linked to my apparent malnutrition according to my toilet. Have any of you experienced this? I think I'll wait it out until Friday (hey, I'll take any way I can to get my weight down in time for the Super Slimdown Competition weigh in). If I'm still having potty problems then I'll go to the campus health center. Having a virus or parasite would be no fun.
On a less disgusting note, today is 420! Or at least it was. I largely didn't celebrate it as I was very much against smoking before dance class, but I took a snicker doodle edible about an hour ago. So far...nothing. That's fine with me I guess, I need to get some reading done. Harriet Jacobs here I come!
Oh and yesterday I e-mailed the captain of my university's dance team and asked if there would be spring tryouts for next year. Turns out they're in early June. I've been getting more confident in my dancing and even though I didn't make the team in the fall I think I may have a shot with my improved technique and shrinking physique. So now I have a dilemma, try out for cheer, try out for dance, or plan on trying out for both? I may just suck at cheer tryouts which would give me a free conscience to go out for dance, but if I made the team I'd still really want to try dancing and I'd feel like a big traitor. The again I could just plan on trying out for dance, but if I didn't make it I'd always wonder if I could have made the cheer team, but then again they do both hold more tryouts in early fall. Ah! Decisions, decisions.
Ok lovelies, that's all I have today.
Wishing you a happy Thursday,
♥ Toni
Monday, April 18, 2011
Day 1 of the 10 Day Diet
So I tried out the 10 Day Diet for the first time today. It went well. I got 6 hours of sleep (10 points), exercised for 2.5 hours (20 points), drank 9 fl oz of water (20 points) and ate a total of 480 calories (20 points). So out of a max of 80 points I got 70, not bad. I was just up late working on an essay, but I'll be going to bed by midnight so I can wake up bright and early at 8 am to go to the gym.
Today's food went great considering last night I went out for a friend's birthday with 13 other people to an Italian place. Most people, including myself, got calzones - big calzones. Out of all the girls (7 total including myself) I was the only one to eat their entire dinner. Everyone else kept half for later. Surprisingly I didn't feel like too much of a pig. Some of that was due to the fact that everyone was constantly saying how much I deserved to eat out and how I earned a great dinner and stuff like that. I guess it's true. Just today I burned a total of 1,065 calories from the elliptical at the gym and dance class. But I'm not slacking! I just needed a two-day buffer before starting another diet.
Food was minimal. Lunch was a small bowl of fire roasted corn soup (125 cal), and some veggies with dressing (145 cal). Dinner was a bowl of minestrone (110 cal), 1/4 cup of tapioca pudding (65 cal), and a few spoonfuls of banana/mango frozen yogurt (45 cal). My net intake today is -575 and I am desperately trying to make up for losing no weight this past week. The scale today was at 127. Something tells me that calzone has a lot to do with it...but hopefully all the bathroom trips I've had due to the massive amounts of water I've been putting into my system has pushed some of that out!
I'm crossing my fingers for a lower number on the scale tomorrow!
Hello to 30 followers! It's amazing to me to think I'm at all interesting for 30 people to read about my life on a daily basis. Thank you lovelies. =)
♥ Toni
Today's food went great considering last night I went out for a friend's birthday with 13 other people to an Italian place. Most people, including myself, got calzones - big calzones. Out of all the girls (7 total including myself) I was the only one to eat their entire dinner. Everyone else kept half for later. Surprisingly I didn't feel like too much of a pig. Some of that was due to the fact that everyone was constantly saying how much I deserved to eat out and how I earned a great dinner and stuff like that. I guess it's true. Just today I burned a total of 1,065 calories from the elliptical at the gym and dance class. But I'm not slacking! I just needed a two-day buffer before starting another diet.
Food was minimal. Lunch was a small bowl of fire roasted corn soup (125 cal), and some veggies with dressing (145 cal). Dinner was a bowl of minestrone (110 cal), 1/4 cup of tapioca pudding (65 cal), and a few spoonfuls of banana/mango frozen yogurt (45 cal). My net intake today is -575 and I am desperately trying to make up for losing no weight this past week. The scale today was at 127. Something tells me that calzone has a lot to do with it...but hopefully all the bathroom trips I've had due to the massive amounts of water I've been putting into my system has pushed some of that out!
I'm crossing my fingers for a lower number on the scale tomorrow!
Hello to 30 followers! It's amazing to me to think I'm at all interesting for 30 people to read about my life on a daily basis. Thank you lovelies. =)
♥ Toni
Friday, April 1, 2011
Great Start to April
Up to 25 followers! Thank you Victoria for deciding to follow me. I love your blog and your sassy spirit. ♥
So the fast was successful! And surprisingly as the day went on it actually got easier. Tons of water and tea plus dance class was my savior yesterday, otherwise I don't think I could have done it.
All in all my fast lasted from March 30 at 9:00 pm to April 1 at 9:30 am. A total of 36.5 hours. I thought I might be able to extend it a little longer but I went to the gym with some friends and I knew I had to eat something, so I settled for 4 oz of oatmeal with 3/4 tbsp of brown sugar (100 cal) and a banana nut muffin (170). My workout burned 420 calories which puts me at -150 calories so far. I don't know if I'll be eating any more food today but I'll keep you all posted. Weighed in at 127.5 lbs so that made me feel a little better. Plus last night at dance class I wore these leggings that I bought from Rue 21 in January that didn't fit me so well and noticed that they definitely fit better. Pluses all around.
♥ Toni
Later: For lunch I had a little bit of a splurge. I had one beef tamale (90 cal), strawberry frozen yogurt (100), a bagel with one side cream cheese and one side butter (240 cal), some trail mix (50 cal), and a surprise treat. For once in my own dining hall there was homestyle ranch! I've only ever found it in other dining halls and it's never been in ours. I was so excited I just had to have some, so I had 3/4 tbsp of it and 8 carrots, some cucumber, and 3 baby corn (115 cal) factor it into the -150 from earlier and my total for the whole day is 445 calories, just 5 calories under my allowed total. Sigh...I'll try to do a lot better tomorrow.
Some good news though: I got a lot of comments on my weight today. It was kind of weird actually. My roommate and 4 other friends just all happened to say my waist looked little or my shorts looked baggier or my tummy was flatter. It was nice, and it's just giving me more motivation to do better. Hope you're all fine and well!
So the fast was successful! And surprisingly as the day went on it actually got easier. Tons of water and tea plus dance class was my savior yesterday, otherwise I don't think I could have done it.
All in all my fast lasted from March 30 at 9:00 pm to April 1 at 9:30 am. A total of 36.5 hours. I thought I might be able to extend it a little longer but I went to the gym with some friends and I knew I had to eat something, so I settled for 4 oz of oatmeal with 3/4 tbsp of brown sugar (100 cal) and a banana nut muffin (170). My workout burned 420 calories which puts me at -150 calories so far. I don't know if I'll be eating any more food today but I'll keep you all posted. Weighed in at 127.5 lbs so that made me feel a little better. Plus last night at dance class I wore these leggings that I bought from Rue 21 in January that didn't fit me so well and noticed that they definitely fit better. Pluses all around.
♥ Toni
Later: For lunch I had a little bit of a splurge. I had one beef tamale (90 cal), strawberry frozen yogurt (100), a bagel with one side cream cheese and one side butter (240 cal), some trail mix (50 cal), and a surprise treat. For once in my own dining hall there was homestyle ranch! I've only ever found it in other dining halls and it's never been in ours. I was so excited I just had to have some, so I had 3/4 tbsp of it and 8 carrots, some cucumber, and 3 baby corn (115 cal) factor it into the -150 from earlier and my total for the whole day is 445 calories, just 5 calories under my allowed total. Sigh...I'll try to do a lot better tomorrow.
Some good news though: I got a lot of comments on my weight today. It was kind of weird actually. My roommate and 4 other friends just all happened to say my waist looked little or my shorts looked baggier or my tummy was flatter. It was nice, and it's just giving me more motivation to do better. Hope you're all fine and well!
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
I know what I want now and I'll do anything to get it.
Today was enlightening to say the least. I had a lot of ups, a lot of downs, a lot of food, and a lot of workouts!
I realized that despite what everything in my past tells me, what I'm trained in, and what I'm doing now, I want to be part of something bigger than myself, a team. I want to try out for cheer. It's crazy. I'm a dancer...sort of (three years of high school dance is enough to say that, right?). I'm taking modern and jazz (which I loooove). I despised the cheerleaders in high school. So why cheer? Well, I'm a bit awkward. I don't loosen up. Sure cheerleading has some dance in it but a lot of it is precision and sharp movements, not necessarily flowy, and that's exactly the type of dance I did in high school. Sharp arm sequences, kick, tricks. Not so much leaps and turns. So as soon as the next tryouts happen I'm going with one of my guy friends who lives in my hall and we're going to try out. Besides, dancers turn into cheerleaders all the time.
There's just one problem...I'm still fat. I'm reiterating what I said last night. The mirrors in that dance studio are the truth I'm forced to face. I look chunky still. Weight on short girls just doesn't look the same as it does on tall ones. So I need to go into super-duper diet mode. If I have any desire to not make a total fool of myself I need to drop this weight. No. Fat. Cheerleaders. Period.
Well I started Project Weight Loss Overhaul today. I've officially had my first negative intake day. And here's how it went down:
Skipped breakfast. Lunch was 7 oz of vegan chili (70 cal; and for those of you who wanted the recipe, they didn't have it up! I'm sorry.), 6 baby carrots and some celery and cucumber with 1 tbsp cesar dressing (70 cal), and a small brownie (70 cal). And after lunch I went to the gym where I burned off 500 calories.
Dinner was 1 piece of french bread, 2 pieces of bacon, 1/2 tbsp of mayo, and some lettuce and tomato for a BLT (180 cal), 1/2 cup of steamed veggies (15 cal), 3/4 cup of chocolate pudding (190 cal), and 1/2 of a California roll (195 cal). Later I went to jazz dance where I burned off another 350 calories (I'm sure it's higher but it's better to underestimate than overestimate) and then stopped by the gym really quick and burned an extra 70 calories off on the treadmill (ALL of the bikes and ellipticals were taken).
Add it all together and it's a total of -130 calories for the day.
I hope to dear God this puts a dent in my vacation gain. The needle is stuck at 129. Please please please let my weigh in tomorrow be lower than that. I've worked so hard these past few days. My thighs, calves, and arms are burning and my tummy growls every night before I go to bed. All I want is to be thinner. It's not a big demand.
And to make this post even longer I thought I'd add this lovely survey VictoriaCrimson previously filled out on her blog. Who knows, maybe some of you are actually interested in me. haha
I realized that despite what everything in my past tells me, what I'm trained in, and what I'm doing now, I want to be part of something bigger than myself, a team. I want to try out for cheer. It's crazy. I'm a dancer...sort of (three years of high school dance is enough to say that, right?). I'm taking modern and jazz (which I loooove). I despised the cheerleaders in high school. So why cheer? Well, I'm a bit awkward. I don't loosen up. Sure cheerleading has some dance in it but a lot of it is precision and sharp movements, not necessarily flowy, and that's exactly the type of dance I did in high school. Sharp arm sequences, kick, tricks. Not so much leaps and turns. So as soon as the next tryouts happen I'm going with one of my guy friends who lives in my hall and we're going to try out. Besides, dancers turn into cheerleaders all the time.
There's just one problem...I'm still fat. I'm reiterating what I said last night. The mirrors in that dance studio are the truth I'm forced to face. I look chunky still. Weight on short girls just doesn't look the same as it does on tall ones. So I need to go into super-duper diet mode. If I have any desire to not make a total fool of myself I need to drop this weight. No. Fat. Cheerleaders. Period.
Well I started Project Weight Loss Overhaul today. I've officially had my first negative intake day. And here's how it went down:
Skipped breakfast. Lunch was 7 oz of vegan chili (70 cal; and for those of you who wanted the recipe, they didn't have it up! I'm sorry.), 6 baby carrots and some celery and cucumber with 1 tbsp cesar dressing (70 cal), and a small brownie (70 cal). And after lunch I went to the gym where I burned off 500 calories.
Dinner was 1 piece of french bread, 2 pieces of bacon, 1/2 tbsp of mayo, and some lettuce and tomato for a BLT (180 cal), 1/2 cup of steamed veggies (15 cal), 3/4 cup of chocolate pudding (190 cal), and 1/2 of a California roll (195 cal). Later I went to jazz dance where I burned off another 350 calories (I'm sure it's higher but it's better to underestimate than overestimate) and then stopped by the gym really quick and burned an extra 70 calories off on the treadmill (ALL of the bikes and ellipticals were taken).
Add it all together and it's a total of -130 calories for the day.
I hope to dear God this puts a dent in my vacation gain. The needle is stuck at 129. Please please please let my weigh in tomorrow be lower than that. I've worked so hard these past few days. My thighs, calves, and arms are burning and my tummy growls every night before I go to bed. All I want is to be thinner. It's not a big demand.
And to make this post even longer I thought I'd add this lovely survey VictoriaCrimson previously filled out on her blog. Who knows, maybe some of you are actually interested in me. haha
1. How old will you be in 3 birthdays?
21. I'd probably buy booze to celebrate...if I didn't think it tasted disgusting and it didn't have huge amounts of calories.
2. Do you think you'll be married by then?
Possibly, Aaron and I will be past the 5 year mark by then. Maybe we'll just be engaged. 5 years is a long time to just be dating.
3. What do you look forward to most in the next 2 months?
Possible cheer tryouts, getting thinner, my academic and dance classes, and warm weather!
4. Who was the last person who called you?
My best friend.
5. Have you ever played a team sport?
Freshman year I played badminton and the next three I was fully committed to the dance/drill team.
6. Who was the last person to text you?
My boyfriend.
7. Who was the last person you hugged?
Probably one of the people in the hall.
8. What were you doing at midnight last night?
I was either on my laptop or reading Going Hungry.
9. What happened at 11:00 a.m. today?
I was on the bus coming back from buying books for my literature class.
10. How many states have you visited?
Just 3: California, Illinois, and Missouri.
11. If you could be anywhere right now, where would it be?
I like it right here at the moment, but maybe back in dance class.
12. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
Shoes if I'm walking, slippers if I'm lounging.
14. What was the last thing you drank?
Green tea.
15. FavoriteIce Cream ?
I have quite a few that are all tied for favorite. Any type of cake (red velvet, cupcake, birthday cake), eggnog, green tea, and pumpkin.
16. What is your favorite number?
12
17. What's your favorite colour/s?
Favorites, in order: Navy blue, creme/offwhite, dark purple, pale yellow.
18. What's your favorite holiday?
Christmas by far, and not just because there's presents. I love that it creeps up on you all of December with the carols and the atmosphere and the smells of pine and cinnamon...the BAM! It hits you.
19. Do you like coffee?
I prefer tea or hot chocolate, but HC has no caffeine. =/
20. How many glasses of water a day do you drink on average?
I'm bad when it comes to drinking water. Maybe up to 6 cups on a good day. 2 on a bad day.
21. What do you drink in the morning?
Usually water or tea if I even have breakfast.
22. Would you rather kiss someone with or without a tongue ring?
Without. I'm not a very good supporter of piercings in places other than your ears.
23. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
No, but that's because I've only ever slept in a twin. Not much room to begin with. I do like facing the wall though.
26. Any plans for this week?
Working out during the week, high chance of a hall beach day this weekend. Gotta use up this good weather while we can.
27. Do you eat out or at home more often?
Home, if you call the dining hall "home."
28. How big is your TV?
Don't have one here. The one at home is maybe 24" wide. It's tiny.
29. Ever stolen a street sign?
No. I've stolen traffic cones though.
30. Do you keep a piggy bank?
Yes. It's shaped like Mickey Mouse.
31. What kind of camera do you have?
I don't, but I'll need to get one of my own soon if I'm going to be a serious film major.
32. Have you ever been in an ambulance?
No thank goodness.
33. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?
Pool I guess. The Pacific ocean up here is usually too cold.
34. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat?
Window.
35. Do you know how to drive a stick shift?
Nope. It doesn't look that hard though. I think I could learn.
36 Whats your favorite thing to spend money on?
Favorite? Probably clothing, shoes, makeup, etc. I'm such a girl!
37. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?
No. I used to wear two black jelly bracelets constantly. Those have been replaced by a red rubber band. ;)
38. Do you speak any other language?
Three years of spanish and I still can't speak it.
39. Can you roll your tongue?
Yes. I can even lick my elbow with it!
40. Who is the funniest person you know?
I don't know. I laugh at a lot of things.
41. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
...Yes. They're at the foot of my bed. I have two Build-A-Bears (a cheetah and an elephant), a black Bath&Body Works sheep, a giraffe, a little Mickey Mouse, and a TY Beanie Baby lobster.
42. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
A green cardigan...that still fits. Hey, that's gotta count for something.
43. Huh?
Yup.
44. Do you shut off the water when you brush your teeth?
Yes.
45. Do you currently hate someone?
All the people I hate are either back home or attending another university, so I don't hate them as much than if I saw them here every day.
47. What are you listening to?
The hum of my laptop.
48. Are you single ?
Nope. Not for two years now.
49. Are you organized?
Kind of. It depends on where you look.
50. Do you collect anything?
Movie tickets kind of.
Ooooook, really long post tonight. Sorry about that. I hope you girls are having a good night and if not I hope you have a better tomorrow! Sending everyone good vibes. At least I'm sure not all of you are getting your first wisdom tooth in! Haha.
♥ Toni
21. I'd probably buy booze to celebrate...if I didn't think it tasted disgusting and it didn't have huge amounts of calories.
2. Do you think you'll be married by then?
Possibly, Aaron and I will be past the 5 year mark by then. Maybe we'll just be engaged. 5 years is a long time to just be dating.
3. What do you look forward to most in the next 2 months?
Possible cheer tryouts, getting thinner, my academic and dance classes, and warm weather!
4. Who was the last person who called you?
My best friend.
5. Have you ever played a team sport?
Freshman year I played badminton and the next three I was fully committed to the dance/drill team.
6. Who was the last person to text you?
My boyfriend.
7. Who was the last person you hugged?
Probably one of the people in the hall.
8. What were you doing at midnight last night?
I was either on my laptop or reading Going Hungry.
9. What happened at 11:00 a.m. today?
I was on the bus coming back from buying books for my literature class.
10. How many states have you visited?
Just 3: California, Illinois, and Missouri.
11. If you could be anywhere right now, where would it be?
I like it right here at the moment, but maybe back in dance class.
12. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
Shoes if I'm walking, slippers if I'm lounging.
14. What was the last thing you drank?
Green tea.
15. Favorite
I have quite a few that are all tied for favorite. Any type of cake (red velvet, cupcake, birthday cake), eggnog, green tea, and pumpkin.
16. What is your favorite number?
12
17. What's your favorite colour/s?
Favorites, in order: Navy blue, creme/offwhite, dark purple, pale yellow.
18. What's your favorite holiday?
Christmas by far, and not just because there's presents. I love that it creeps up on you all of December with the carols and the atmosphere and the smells of pine and cinnamon...the BAM! It hits you.
19. Do you like coffee?
I prefer tea or hot chocolate, but HC has no caffeine. =/
20. How many glasses of water a day do you drink on average?
I'm bad when it comes to drinking water. Maybe up to 6 cups on a good day. 2 on a bad day.
21. What do you drink in the morning?
Usually water or tea if I even have breakfast.
22. Would you rather kiss someone with or without a tongue ring?
Without. I'm not a very good supporter of piercings in places other than your ears.
23. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
No, but that's because I've only ever slept in a twin. Not much room to begin with. I do like facing the wall though.
26. Any plans for this week?
Working out during the week, high chance of a hall beach day this weekend. Gotta use up this good weather while we can.
27. Do you eat out or at home more often?
Home, if you call the dining hall "home."
28. How big is your TV?
Don't have one here. The one at home is maybe 24" wide. It's tiny.
29. Ever stolen a street sign?
No. I've stolen traffic cones though.
30. Do you keep a piggy bank?
Yes. It's shaped like Mickey Mouse.
31. What kind of camera do you have?
I don't, but I'll need to get one of my own soon if I'm going to be a serious film major.
32. Have you ever been in an ambulance?
No thank goodness.
33. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?
Pool I guess. The Pacific ocean up here is usually too cold.
34. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat?
Window.
35. Do you know how to drive a stick shift?
Nope. It doesn't look that hard though. I think I could learn.
36 Whats your favorite thing to spend money on?
Favorite? Probably clothing, shoes, makeup, etc. I'm such a girl!
37. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?
No. I used to wear two black jelly bracelets constantly. Those have been replaced by a red rubber band. ;)
38. Do you speak any other language?
Three years of spanish and I still can't speak it.
39. Can you roll your tongue?
Yes. I can even lick my elbow with it!
40. Who is the funniest person you know?
I don't know. I laugh at a lot of things.
41. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
...Yes. They're at the foot of my bed. I have two Build-A-Bears (a cheetah and an elephant), a black Bath&Body Works sheep, a giraffe, a little Mickey Mouse, and a TY Beanie Baby lobster.
42. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
A green cardigan...that still fits. Hey, that's gotta count for something.
43. Huh?
Yup.
44. Do you shut off the water when you brush your teeth?
Yes.
45. Do you currently hate someone?
All the people I hate are either back home or attending another university, so I don't hate them as much than if I saw them here every day.
47. What are you listening to?
The hum of my laptop.
48. Are you single ?
Nope. Not for two years now.
49. Are you organized?
Kind of. It depends on where you look.
50. Do you collect anything?
Movie tickets kind of.
Ooooook, really long post tonight. Sorry about that. I hope you girls are having a good night and if not I hope you have a better tomorrow! Sending everyone good vibes. At least I'm sure not all of you are getting your first wisdom tooth in! Haha.
Friday, March 18, 2011
Rainy Friday
So for the first time in about a month I slept in until 12:30. It's good to be back home. I'm currently sipping green tea and watching a Harry Potter marathon. I weighed in at 126.5 lbs this morning, but I suspect a good pound or two of that is from the food in my system still digesting. Hmm...well there's not much to report. It's raining and I'm trying to avoid food until dinner. Doable.
On another note Olivia Lee nominated me for the "Versatile Blogger" Award. She's so sweet and I'm surprised she picked me for this. I feel like I haven't been around long enough to get an award of any kind, but that's just me trying to be a perfectionist I suppose. And then there's all of you lovely ladies who follow and read me. I think if I didn't know you guys were there I wouldn't be trying as hard. I'd probably let myself go, stray from my goals and such. You all keep me in check because I don't want to report in any weaknesses for the world to read, to let you know I've been bad.
So the rules are:
1. Thank the person who loved you enough to bestow this gift.
2. Share seven things about yourself.
3. Bestow this honor onto 10 newly discovered or followed bloggers - in no particular order - who are fantastic in some way.
4. Drop by and let your ten new friends know you admire them.
So, seven things about myself (that I hope I haven't previously spilled):
1. As a film major, I feel like this one is a no-brainer. My top five favorite films are Inception, Mean Girls, The Shawshank Redemption, American Beauty, and Titanic. I have an attraction to Oscar-winning films.
2. On the same token, my top five favorite TV shows are Lost, Skins (UK), The Office (US), Gossip Girl, and Law&Order: SVU. I'm into all that drama stuff.
3. I have the genes of an alcoholic (I'm a mix of Irish, German, and Mexican), and I probably would have a love of the stuff if I didn't absolutely hate the taste. I've tried beer, wine, rum, wine coolers, vodka, gin, all that stuff. The only thing I can think of that I'd like is champagne, but I haven't had it in years so I don't know.
4. I've been working on being less judgemental for years, but I find it really hard with the amount of ignorance in the world.
5. I really wish I were just a few inches taller. 5'3" would be my dream height. I'm 5'0", meaning if I gain 5 lbs it looks like I've actually gained 10.
6. I'm one of those people who always has to be doing something. Like last night when I was thinking about going home I was going over whether or not I would have something to be doing, like scholarship stuff or anything for school. I don't like being bored. It makes me feel lazy, and lazy = fat.
7. I hate being awkward, but sometimes I can't help it. I babble or mix up my words or say something other people don't understand. I emulate the people I see who know exactly what to say at the right time.
Alright so there are a few girlies who I'd like to highlight:
Charl, Thin_Envy, Ness, Christy, and Leech. I'd have more but so many girls have already gotten the award! Seriously, these bloggers all help me keep going just as much as all of you. I connect to them all differently and root for them and look up to them. All you bloggers and followers keep me strong!
Alright, I'll keep you all up to date on the rest of the day. Have a great Friday. =)
♥ Toni
Later...
Ok, food was a lot better than I thought it would be. SGD says I'm allowed 450 calories today so I tried to fast until dinner. I succeeded for the most part except for the fact that my mom had me try a cracker and some brie cheese (35 cal). But besides that I held out until dinner. I had 1/4 cup of cooked green beans (20 cal), 10 spears of grilled asparagus (40 cal), and a grilled chicken thigh without the skin (120 cal) for a total of 215 calories, so I decided I could have one of my mom's "healthy" chocolate chip cookies. They're actually pretty good. She used egg whites, wheat flour, and carob chips, plus they're chewy and about 100 calories a cookie, so my total is 315 calories for the day.
Aaaaand Aaron's been giving me a lot of compliments on my new, smaller physique, which is really motivating. I can actually start to see the changes now, and after I'd fasted all day I weighed myself and it came out to 25.6, only .3 lbs more than yesterday. Thank God last night's pigging only put on that much. I can't wait until I get to 112!
On another note Olivia Lee nominated me for the "Versatile Blogger" Award. She's so sweet and I'm surprised she picked me for this. I feel like I haven't been around long enough to get an award of any kind, but that's just me trying to be a perfectionist I suppose. And then there's all of you lovely ladies who follow and read me. I think if I didn't know you guys were there I wouldn't be trying as hard. I'd probably let myself go, stray from my goals and such. You all keep me in check because I don't want to report in any weaknesses for the world to read, to let you know I've been bad.
So the rules are:
1. Thank the person who loved you enough to bestow this gift.
2. Share seven things about yourself.
3. Bestow this honor onto 10 newly discovered or followed bloggers - in no particular order - who are fantastic in some way.
4. Drop by and let your ten new friends know you admire them.
So, seven things about myself (that I hope I haven't previously spilled):
1. As a film major, I feel like this one is a no-brainer. My top five favorite films are Inception, Mean Girls, The Shawshank Redemption, American Beauty, and Titanic. I have an attraction to Oscar-winning films.
2. On the same token, my top five favorite TV shows are Lost, Skins (UK), The Office (US), Gossip Girl, and Law&Order: SVU. I'm into all that drama stuff.
3. I have the genes of an alcoholic (I'm a mix of Irish, German, and Mexican), and I probably would have a love of the stuff if I didn't absolutely hate the taste. I've tried beer, wine, rum, wine coolers, vodka, gin, all that stuff. The only thing I can think of that I'd like is champagne, but I haven't had it in years so I don't know.
4. I've been working on being less judgemental for years, but I find it really hard with the amount of ignorance in the world.
5. I really wish I were just a few inches taller. 5'3" would be my dream height. I'm 5'0", meaning if I gain 5 lbs it looks like I've actually gained 10.
6. I'm one of those people who always has to be doing something. Like last night when I was thinking about going home I was going over whether or not I would have something to be doing, like scholarship stuff or anything for school. I don't like being bored. It makes me feel lazy, and lazy = fat.
7. I hate being awkward, but sometimes I can't help it. I babble or mix up my words or say something other people don't understand. I emulate the people I see who know exactly what to say at the right time.
Alright so there are a few girlies who I'd like to highlight:
Charl, Thin_Envy, Ness, Christy, and Leech. I'd have more but so many girls have already gotten the award! Seriously, these bloggers all help me keep going just as much as all of you. I connect to them all differently and root for them and look up to them. All you bloggers and followers keep me strong!
Alright, I'll keep you all up to date on the rest of the day. Have a great Friday. =)
♥ Toni
Later...
Ok, food was a lot better than I thought it would be. SGD says I'm allowed 450 calories today so I tried to fast until dinner. I succeeded for the most part except for the fact that my mom had me try a cracker and some brie cheese (35 cal). But besides that I held out until dinner. I had 1/4 cup of cooked green beans (20 cal), 10 spears of grilled asparagus (40 cal), and a grilled chicken thigh without the skin (120 cal) for a total of 215 calories, so I decided I could have one of my mom's "healthy" chocolate chip cookies. They're actually pretty good. She used egg whites, wheat flour, and carob chips, plus they're chewy and about 100 calories a cookie, so my total is 315 calories for the day.
Aaaaand Aaron's been giving me a lot of compliments on my new, smaller physique, which is really motivating. I can actually start to see the changes now, and after I'd fasted all day I weighed myself and it came out to 25.6, only .3 lbs more than yesterday. Thank God last night's pigging only put on that much. I can't wait until I get to 112!
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