Friday, June 17, 2011

I hope this post makes sense because I'm severely tired.

Thank you Savanna, Shrinking Violet and Miwo for joining my blog. =)
I can't believe I'm up to 65 followers. I feel bad that I haven't updated in 4 days and people are still signing up to follow, but I'm very grateful for you lovelies.

SGD has bee such a total and complete bust. I've only had one good day. Today was 730 calories total. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that I'm not going to the gym. I would be running but my schedule has been busy with work and on Wednesday I went on that trip to see Aaron. I had so much fun. I stayed the night at his place and...uh...played the best game of doctor ever. And then the next day we went to a water park. The best part? I felt good in my new black bikini (oh yeah I bought a new bathing suit, bras, running shoes, and lacy panties on Tuesday with Jenna). I didn't feel like a fat whale for the first time in my life. You know how girl always compare themselves to other girls at water parks? I felt like one of those girls that some might compare themselves to, and Aaron not being able to keep his hands off me boosted my confidence as well. And one of my closest friends is having a start of summer pool party in a week, so I want to lose maybe just a few more lbs before then to really feel good.

I'm up to 123 lbs, but I'm sure some of it is food still in my tummy. I go back to my actual job at the movie theater (my other one is working for my parents) tomorrow at 8:30 am. I think I'll be able to go all day without much food. I'm in a good place right now, but I know if I keep slipping up I'll gain some weight back and I don't want that to happen. Up until Wednesday I was losing about a half lb a day and I was down to 120.25 lbs, so I know if I just restrict I'll be pretty ok. I'm going to go jogging more and do some body exercises in my room to maybe make up for the fact that I don't have a gym membership and probably wouldn't be able to go much if I got one anyway.

I promise I'll post more tomorrow. I'm so tired and need to get up early for work. I'll post pictures of thinspo, lots of it. Oh and I think I can finally do before/after pictures. I've been meaning to do that...ugh ok going to bed. I've read most of your updates from the past few days and will read the rest tomorrow. =)

♥ Toni


  1. I'm so happy for you!!
    and 123 pounds is really good :O way to go!
    Don't feel bad that SGD didn't work. WIth restricting you'll always lose weight :3
    good luck!

  2. I'm really glad that being up 3lbs doesn't give you anxiety anymore. Because you realized that it's not 3 real lbs, it's just bloat and food. That, my dear, is a sign of health!

    I know what you mean about the gym stuff, it's like the minute you stop exercising your body goes, "well, fuck you too!" and stops losing. Cheer up doll, today will be better and you are amazing, and you ARE a babe that other girls would compare to at the pool. Seriously. :D

  3. Those 3 lbs will disappear when you start working out again. And if you'll be restricting, it will only take a few days. So you'll probably be under 120 at the party :)