So I tried out the 10 Day Diet for the first time today. It went well. I got 6 hours of sleep (10 points), exercised for 2.5 hours (20 points), drank 9 fl oz of water (20 points) and ate a total of 480 calories (20 points). So out of a max of 80 points I got 70, not bad. I was just up late working on an essay, but I'll be going to bed by midnight so I can wake up bright and early at 8 am to go to the gym.
Today's food went great considering last night I went out for a friend's birthday with 13 other people to an Italian place. Most people, including myself, got calzones - big calzones. Out of all the girls (7 total including myself) I was the only one to eat their entire dinner. Everyone else kept half for later. Surprisingly I didn't feel like too much of a pig. Some of that was due to the fact that everyone was constantly saying how much I deserved to eat out and how I earned a great dinner and stuff like that. I guess it's true. Just today I burned a total of 1,065 calories from the elliptical at the gym and dance class. But I'm not slacking! I just needed a two-day buffer before starting another diet.
Food was minimal. Lunch was a small bowl of fire roasted corn soup (125 cal), and some veggies with dressing (145 cal). Dinner was a bowl of minestrone (110 cal), 1/4 cup of tapioca pudding (65 cal), and a few spoonfuls of banana/mango frozen yogurt (45 cal). My net intake today is -575 and I am desperately trying to make up for losing no weight this past week. The scale today was at 127. Something tells me that calzone has a lot to do with it...but hopefully all the bathroom trips I've had due to the massive amounts of water I've been putting into my system has pushed some of that out!
I'm crossing my fingers for a lower number on the scale tomorrow!
Hello to 30 followers! It's amazing to me to think I'm at all interesting for 30 people to read about my life on a daily basis. Thank you lovelies. =)
♥ Toni
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Monday, April 18, 2011
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
I know what I want now and I'll do anything to get it.
Today was enlightening to say the least. I had a lot of ups, a lot of downs, a lot of food, and a lot of workouts!
I realized that despite what everything in my past tells me, what I'm trained in, and what I'm doing now, I want to be part of something bigger than myself, a team. I want to try out for cheer. It's crazy. I'm a dancer...sort of (three years of high school dance is enough to say that, right?). I'm taking modern and jazz (which I loooove). I despised the cheerleaders in high school. So why cheer? Well, I'm a bit awkward. I don't loosen up. Sure cheerleading has some dance in it but a lot of it is precision and sharp movements, not necessarily flowy, and that's exactly the type of dance I did in high school. Sharp arm sequences, kick, tricks. Not so much leaps and turns. So as soon as the next tryouts happen I'm going with one of my guy friends who lives in my hall and we're going to try out. Besides, dancers turn into cheerleaders all the time.
There's just one problem...I'm still fat. I'm reiterating what I said last night. The mirrors in that dance studio are the truth I'm forced to face. I look chunky still. Weight on short girls just doesn't look the same as it does on tall ones. So I need to go into super-duper diet mode. If I have any desire to not make a total fool of myself I need to drop this weight. No. Fat. Cheerleaders. Period.
Well I started Project Weight Loss Overhaul today. I've officially had my first negative intake day. And here's how it went down:
Skipped breakfast. Lunch was 7 oz of vegan chili (70 cal; and for those of you who wanted the recipe, they didn't have it up! I'm sorry.), 6 baby carrots and some celery and cucumber with 1 tbsp cesar dressing (70 cal), and a small brownie (70 cal). And after lunch I went to the gym where I burned off 500 calories.
Dinner was 1 piece of french bread, 2 pieces of bacon, 1/2 tbsp of mayo, and some lettuce and tomato for a BLT (180 cal), 1/2 cup of steamed veggies (15 cal), 3/4 cup of chocolate pudding (190 cal), and 1/2 of a California roll (195 cal). Later I went to jazz dance where I burned off another 350 calories (I'm sure it's higher but it's better to underestimate than overestimate) and then stopped by the gym really quick and burned an extra 70 calories off on the treadmill (ALL of the bikes and ellipticals were taken).
Add it all together and it's a total of -130 calories for the day.
I hope to dear God this puts a dent in my vacation gain. The needle is stuck at 129. Please please please let my weigh in tomorrow be lower than that. I've worked so hard these past few days. My thighs, calves, and arms are burning and my tummy growls every night before I go to bed. All I want is to be thinner. It's not a big demand.
And to make this post even longer I thought I'd add this lovely survey VictoriaCrimson previously filled out on her blog. Who knows, maybe some of you are actually interested in me. haha
I realized that despite what everything in my past tells me, what I'm trained in, and what I'm doing now, I want to be part of something bigger than myself, a team. I want to try out for cheer. It's crazy. I'm a dancer...sort of (three years of high school dance is enough to say that, right?). I'm taking modern and jazz (which I loooove). I despised the cheerleaders in high school. So why cheer? Well, I'm a bit awkward. I don't loosen up. Sure cheerleading has some dance in it but a lot of it is precision and sharp movements, not necessarily flowy, and that's exactly the type of dance I did in high school. Sharp arm sequences, kick, tricks. Not so much leaps and turns. So as soon as the next tryouts happen I'm going with one of my guy friends who lives in my hall and we're going to try out. Besides, dancers turn into cheerleaders all the time.
There's just one problem...I'm still fat. I'm reiterating what I said last night. The mirrors in that dance studio are the truth I'm forced to face. I look chunky still. Weight on short girls just doesn't look the same as it does on tall ones. So I need to go into super-duper diet mode. If I have any desire to not make a total fool of myself I need to drop this weight. No. Fat. Cheerleaders. Period.
Well I started Project Weight Loss Overhaul today. I've officially had my first negative intake day. And here's how it went down:
Skipped breakfast. Lunch was 7 oz of vegan chili (70 cal; and for those of you who wanted the recipe, they didn't have it up! I'm sorry.), 6 baby carrots and some celery and cucumber with 1 tbsp cesar dressing (70 cal), and a small brownie (70 cal). And after lunch I went to the gym where I burned off 500 calories.
Dinner was 1 piece of french bread, 2 pieces of bacon, 1/2 tbsp of mayo, and some lettuce and tomato for a BLT (180 cal), 1/2 cup of steamed veggies (15 cal), 3/4 cup of chocolate pudding (190 cal), and 1/2 of a California roll (195 cal). Later I went to jazz dance where I burned off another 350 calories (I'm sure it's higher but it's better to underestimate than overestimate) and then stopped by the gym really quick and burned an extra 70 calories off on the treadmill (ALL of the bikes and ellipticals were taken).
Add it all together and it's a total of -130 calories for the day.
I hope to dear God this puts a dent in my vacation gain. The needle is stuck at 129. Please please please let my weigh in tomorrow be lower than that. I've worked so hard these past few days. My thighs, calves, and arms are burning and my tummy growls every night before I go to bed. All I want is to be thinner. It's not a big demand.
And to make this post even longer I thought I'd add this lovely survey VictoriaCrimson previously filled out on her blog. Who knows, maybe some of you are actually interested in me. haha
1. How old will you be in 3 birthdays?
21. I'd probably buy booze to celebrate...if I didn't think it tasted disgusting and it didn't have huge amounts of calories.
2. Do you think you'll be married by then?
Possibly, Aaron and I will be past the 5 year mark by then. Maybe we'll just be engaged. 5 years is a long time to just be dating.
3. What do you look forward to most in the next 2 months?
Possible cheer tryouts, getting thinner, my academic and dance classes, and warm weather!
4. Who was the last person who called you?
My best friend.
5. Have you ever played a team sport?
Freshman year I played badminton and the next three I was fully committed to the dance/drill team.
6. Who was the last person to text you?
My boyfriend.
7. Who was the last person you hugged?
Probably one of the people in the hall.
8. What were you doing at midnight last night?
I was either on my laptop or reading Going Hungry.
9. What happened at 11:00 a.m. today?
I was on the bus coming back from buying books for my literature class.
10. How many states have you visited?
Just 3: California, Illinois, and Missouri.
11. If you could be anywhere right now, where would it be?
I like it right here at the moment, but maybe back in dance class.
12. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
Shoes if I'm walking, slippers if I'm lounging.
14. What was the last thing you drank?
Green tea.
15. FavoriteIce Cream ?
I have quite a few that are all tied for favorite. Any type of cake (red velvet, cupcake, birthday cake), eggnog, green tea, and pumpkin.
16. What is your favorite number?
12
17. What's your favorite colour/s?
Favorites, in order: Navy blue, creme/offwhite, dark purple, pale yellow.
18. What's your favorite holiday?
Christmas by far, and not just because there's presents. I love that it creeps up on you all of December with the carols and the atmosphere and the smells of pine and cinnamon...the BAM! It hits you.
19. Do you like coffee?
I prefer tea or hot chocolate, but HC has no caffeine. =/
20. How many glasses of water a day do you drink on average?
I'm bad when it comes to drinking water. Maybe up to 6 cups on a good day. 2 on a bad day.
21. What do you drink in the morning?
Usually water or tea if I even have breakfast.
22. Would you rather kiss someone with or without a tongue ring?
Without. I'm not a very good supporter of piercings in places other than your ears.
23. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
No, but that's because I've only ever slept in a twin. Not much room to begin with. I do like facing the wall though.
26. Any plans for this week?
Working out during the week, high chance of a hall beach day this weekend. Gotta use up this good weather while we can.
27. Do you eat out or at home more often?
Home, if you call the dining hall "home."
28. How big is your TV?
Don't have one here. The one at home is maybe 24" wide. It's tiny.
29. Ever stolen a street sign?
No. I've stolen traffic cones though.
30. Do you keep a piggy bank?
Yes. It's shaped like Mickey Mouse.
31. What kind of camera do you have?
I don't, but I'll need to get one of my own soon if I'm going to be a serious film major.
32. Have you ever been in an ambulance?
No thank goodness.
33. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?
Pool I guess. The Pacific ocean up here is usually too cold.
34. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat?
Window.
35. Do you know how to drive a stick shift?
Nope. It doesn't look that hard though. I think I could learn.
36 Whats your favorite thing to spend money on?
Favorite? Probably clothing, shoes, makeup, etc. I'm such a girl!
37. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?
No. I used to wear two black jelly bracelets constantly. Those have been replaced by a red rubber band. ;)
38. Do you speak any other language?
Three years of spanish and I still can't speak it.
39. Can you roll your tongue?
Yes. I can even lick my elbow with it!
40. Who is the funniest person you know?
I don't know. I laugh at a lot of things.
41. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
...Yes. They're at the foot of my bed. I have two Build-A-Bears (a cheetah and an elephant), a black Bath&Body Works sheep, a giraffe, a little Mickey Mouse, and a TY Beanie Baby lobster.
42. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
A green cardigan...that still fits. Hey, that's gotta count for something.
43. Huh?
Yup.
44. Do you shut off the water when you brush your teeth?
Yes.
45. Do you currently hate someone?
All the people I hate are either back home or attending another university, so I don't hate them as much than if I saw them here every day.
47. What are you listening to?
The hum of my laptop.
48. Are you single ?
Nope. Not for two years now.
49. Are you organized?
Kind of. It depends on where you look.
50. Do you collect anything?
Movie tickets kind of.
Ooooook, really long post tonight. Sorry about that. I hope you girls are having a good night and if not I hope you have a better tomorrow! Sending everyone good vibes. At least I'm sure not all of you are getting your first wisdom tooth in! Haha.
♥ Toni
21. I'd probably buy booze to celebrate...if I didn't think it tasted disgusting and it didn't have huge amounts of calories.
2. Do you think you'll be married by then?
Possibly, Aaron and I will be past the 5 year mark by then. Maybe we'll just be engaged. 5 years is a long time to just be dating.
3. What do you look forward to most in the next 2 months?
Possible cheer tryouts, getting thinner, my academic and dance classes, and warm weather!
4. Who was the last person who called you?
My best friend.
5. Have you ever played a team sport?
Freshman year I played badminton and the next three I was fully committed to the dance/drill team.
6. Who was the last person to text you?
My boyfriend.
7. Who was the last person you hugged?
Probably one of the people in the hall.
8. What were you doing at midnight last night?
I was either on my laptop or reading Going Hungry.
9. What happened at 11:00 a.m. today?
I was on the bus coming back from buying books for my literature class.
10. How many states have you visited?
Just 3: California, Illinois, and Missouri.
11. If you could be anywhere right now, where would it be?
I like it right here at the moment, but maybe back in dance class.
12. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
Shoes if I'm walking, slippers if I'm lounging.
14. What was the last thing you drank?
Green tea.
15. Favorite
I have quite a few that are all tied for favorite. Any type of cake (red velvet, cupcake, birthday cake), eggnog, green tea, and pumpkin.
16. What is your favorite number?
12
17. What's your favorite colour/s?
Favorites, in order: Navy blue, creme/offwhite, dark purple, pale yellow.
18. What's your favorite holiday?
Christmas by far, and not just because there's presents. I love that it creeps up on you all of December with the carols and the atmosphere and the smells of pine and cinnamon...the BAM! It hits you.
19. Do you like coffee?
I prefer tea or hot chocolate, but HC has no caffeine. =/
20. How many glasses of water a day do you drink on average?
I'm bad when it comes to drinking water. Maybe up to 6 cups on a good day. 2 on a bad day.
21. What do you drink in the morning?
Usually water or tea if I even have breakfast.
22. Would you rather kiss someone with or without a tongue ring?
Without. I'm not a very good supporter of piercings in places other than your ears.
23. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
No, but that's because I've only ever slept in a twin. Not much room to begin with. I do like facing the wall though.
26. Any plans for this week?
Working out during the week, high chance of a hall beach day this weekend. Gotta use up this good weather while we can.
27. Do you eat out or at home more often?
Home, if you call the dining hall "home."
28. How big is your TV?
Don't have one here. The one at home is maybe 24" wide. It's tiny.
29. Ever stolen a street sign?
No. I've stolen traffic cones though.
30. Do you keep a piggy bank?
Yes. It's shaped like Mickey Mouse.
31. What kind of camera do you have?
I don't, but I'll need to get one of my own soon if I'm going to be a serious film major.
32. Have you ever been in an ambulance?
No thank goodness.
33. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?
Pool I guess. The Pacific ocean up here is usually too cold.
34. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat?
Window.
35. Do you know how to drive a stick shift?
Nope. It doesn't look that hard though. I think I could learn.
36 Whats your favorite thing to spend money on?
Favorite? Probably clothing, shoes, makeup, etc. I'm such a girl!
37. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?
No. I used to wear two black jelly bracelets constantly. Those have been replaced by a red rubber band. ;)
38. Do you speak any other language?
Three years of spanish and I still can't speak it.
39. Can you roll your tongue?
Yes. I can even lick my elbow with it!
40. Who is the funniest person you know?
I don't know. I laugh at a lot of things.
41. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
...Yes. They're at the foot of my bed. I have two Build-A-Bears (a cheetah and an elephant), a black Bath&Body Works sheep, a giraffe, a little Mickey Mouse, and a TY Beanie Baby lobster.
42. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
A green cardigan...that still fits. Hey, that's gotta count for something.
43. Huh?
Yup.
44. Do you shut off the water when you brush your teeth?
Yes.
45. Do you currently hate someone?
All the people I hate are either back home or attending another university, so I don't hate them as much than if I saw them here every day.
47. What are you listening to?
The hum of my laptop.
48. Are you single ?
Nope. Not for two years now.
49. Are you organized?
Kind of. It depends on where you look.
50. Do you collect anything?
Movie tickets kind of.
Ooooook, really long post tonight. Sorry about that. I hope you girls are having a good night and if not I hope you have a better tomorrow! Sending everyone good vibes. At least I'm sure not all of you are getting your first wisdom tooth in! Haha.
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Start of a New Me
So first thing this morning I woke up, got online, and saw I had a new follower. Thank you for starting my day off with a smile. I hope we have a lovely time on our journeys together. =) Welcome.
It felt so good to get back on the SGD today! I didn't realize how much I'd missed it until today. Like a puzzle, I had to figure out how to fit certain foods into my day to not go over my limit of 700, and I didn't. =)
I thought I would have a semi-hard time getting back into the routine of counting but it was so much easier than I anticipated. What wasn't as easy was saying bye to my family. I came back to campus today with Aaron on a 2 1/2 hour car ride. And so begins school again! I ordered my textbooks online last night along with those caffeine pills. They should all be here by the end of the week. Hoorah!
Today was a good food day. For breakfast I had most of an orange (75 cal). For snacks I had a bite of sausage (35 cal), 10 tortilla chips and 3 tbsp of salsa (140 cal), 2 bagel crisps (45 cal), and 1/2 of a popsicle (20 cal). Dinner was the most surprising. All of the dining halls were closed so I went with some friends to Taco Bell and got two fresco tacos for only 300 calories. Some TB options are actually really low-cal compared to other fast food places which is really nice to know. So all in all my total came out to 615 calories out of 700.
Ok well that was my day. I can't wait to get back into the swing of things, especially my awesome new class schedule, and tell all of you guys about it!
Much Love,
♥ Toni
It felt so good to get back on the SGD today! I didn't realize how much I'd missed it until today. Like a puzzle, I had to figure out how to fit certain foods into my day to not go over my limit of 700, and I didn't. =)
I thought I would have a semi-hard time getting back into the routine of counting but it was so much easier than I anticipated. What wasn't as easy was saying bye to my family. I came back to campus today with Aaron on a 2 1/2 hour car ride. And so begins school again! I ordered my textbooks online last night along with those caffeine pills. They should all be here by the end of the week. Hoorah!
Today was a good food day. For breakfast I had most of an orange (75 cal). For snacks I had a bite of sausage (35 cal), 10 tortilla chips and 3 tbsp of salsa (140 cal), 2 bagel crisps (45 cal), and 1/2 of a popsicle (20 cal). Dinner was the most surprising. All of the dining halls were closed so I went with some friends to Taco Bell and got two fresco tacos for only 300 calories. Some TB options are actually really low-cal compared to other fast food places which is really nice to know. So all in all my total came out to 615 calories out of 700.
Ok well that was my day. I can't wait to get back into the swing of things, especially my awesome new class schedule, and tell all of you guys about it!
Much Love,
♥ Toni
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Update
So I ended up surrendering during the middle of the day when I went over to Aaron's and took a nap. I was just too tired after getting so little (erm, I mean NO) sleep. So today I stopped by CVS and picked up a 120 tablet bottle of 3mg Melatonin. Almost all the reviews were positive in its claim to help regulate sleep, so I will definitely be using these during the nights before my 8 am classes. Also, I decided to get some caffeine pills from ProLab on Amazon. $10 for a 100 tablets of 200mg caffeine. Not a bad deal, plus out of the 26 reviews only 2 were negative due to the fact that the reviewers built up an immunity to the dosage. I'm really excited. I think they'll really help on days where I need an extra pick me up (like study or exercise days) and I won't have to drink coffee.
So as for this morning's outing, the purpose it was created for was kind of a bust. I did go out for my anniversary, but I also wanted to catch up with the friends I haven't seen since December. Well...none of them came, so it was just me, Aaron, and Jenna. =/
The food wasn't even that great. I ordered a chocolate milkshake (didn't drink it all), a side salad (ate 3/4 of it), and a chicken cesar sandwich (ate less than half of it). I seems like I didn't eat a whole lot, but I was so full! I guess it was all the milkshake because I didn't have much food at all. Then we all went to see Battle: LA. I think it was pretty good. The scenes with a desecrated Los Angeles were beautifully done, and despite the acting being a little cliche it was a rather enjoyable movie.
Dinner was fantastic: tri tip, potato salad, asparagus, steamed veggies, cheesy bread, and for dessert a cherry crumble. I'm currently stuffed. Even though it's very uncomfortable, I'm going to have to cherish it because for the next few months I'm going to try to steer as clear as I can from feeling this full. Getting back to my goals is my top priority, and with my pills and added dance class(es? I'm going to try to get into a second one) I don't think I can fail very easily. Ooooo I'm so freaking ready! Can't wait to be back.
♥ Toni
P.S.-WhiteSkinnyAngel, you make a good point. I definitely think I'll cut back on talking to my cat around my parents from now on haha.
So as for this morning's outing, the purpose it was created for was kind of a bust. I did go out for my anniversary, but I also wanted to catch up with the friends I haven't seen since December. Well...none of them came, so it was just me, Aaron, and Jenna. =/
The food wasn't even that great. I ordered a chocolate milkshake (didn't drink it all), a side salad (ate 3/4 of it), and a chicken cesar sandwich (ate less than half of it). I seems like I didn't eat a whole lot, but I was so full! I guess it was all the milkshake because I didn't have much food at all. Then we all went to see Battle: LA. I think it was pretty good. The scenes with a desecrated Los Angeles were beautifully done, and despite the acting being a little cliche it was a rather enjoyable movie.
Dinner was fantastic: tri tip, potato salad, asparagus, steamed veggies, cheesy bread, and for dessert a cherry crumble. I'm currently stuffed. Even though it's very uncomfortable, I'm going to have to cherish it because for the next few months I'm going to try to steer as clear as I can from feeling this full. Getting back to my goals is my top priority, and with my pills and added dance class(es? I'm going to try to get into a second one) I don't think I can fail very easily. Ooooo I'm so freaking ready! Can't wait to be back.
♥ Toni
P.S.-WhiteSkinnyAngel, you make a good point. I definitely think I'll cut back on talking to my cat around my parents from now on haha.
Diet, Diet, Diet
A big thank you for the girls who left comments on my last post (you lovelies know who you are). They really made me hopeful about the rest of the weight I want to lose and gave me a big smile. You guys are amazing. =)
So last night was yet another sleepless night just like this one, except this time instead of two hours I got no hours. I went to bed at 1:30 am and time flew by, so instead of getting 6 1/2 hours of sleep and waking up at 8 I'm now running on cup #1 of coffee which I'm sure will be followed by a few more. Since the last time this happened was less than two weeks ago I'm looking into over the counter sleeping pills. So far I've browsed CVS and found a bunch of pain relief/sleep inducing combos, but I already have an ibuprofen. Do any of you use sleep pills and/or could give me an idea of what to get? I'm considering Puralin because I saw a couple good reviews for it. I also noticed a lot of the brands had Melatonin in them, which I guess helps with sleep and weight loss? Hm...interesting, plus it's cheaper than most other diet pills, although I'm looking into Weider caffeine pills as well.
Speaking of diets and the like, I just entered Sunshinechild's Super Slim Down Competition (thank you for the tip Renee, you should do it with me!). I think what really motivated me these past few months was the CruzFit challenge I entered with my friends at college, so I think a bit of healthy competition would push me enough to start me back on the right track. Plus the girls who have entered so far are already really little with BMIs from 18-20. My BMI is about 25, and it's a common fact that the bigger you are the faster you lose weight. I'm in the high 120s and still have a bit of a jiggle to me, so I think I have a pretty good shot at doing really well, but I'm doing it first and foremost for the weight loss.
And another thing related to dieting...my dad made another comment last night that just kind of blew me away. I was holding my cat who has a history of eating problems. She regularly eats a whole bunch of dry food then drinks a ton of water, causing her to throw up. While holding her I could feel all of her vertebrae, so I said "Kitty you're so skinny; you're teaching me bad habits by puking up all of your food," to which my dad replied "Is that what you do?" I got all red and of course replied no because I don't. It's not that I find purging overtly disgusting (I've had so many days where I just wanted to purge to make the fullness go away), but I really cannot purge. I've purposely purged only once so I know I can get it all up if I want, but I take birth control pills and I can't risk puking one up and having it screw everything up and getting me preggers. I don't know what's wrong with my dad. I've been eating pretty well since I got back. I lose 15 lbs in 2 months, mostly due to many many hours at the gym, and he automatically thinks I'm starving myself. Hell, at college I eat about 25% of what I eat here and no one has caught on yet. They just say congrats on eating healthier and sticking to the gym and losing so much weight. I guess it's just him caring, but I don't know what he's going to do when I come back in June because I know I'll have lost more weight by then.
Wow, super long post. Sorry about that, I've just had so much going on in the past 12 hours. I'll probably be back later to rehash how my outing and family dinner go. I hope all you lovelies have a great day. =)
♥ Toni
So last night was yet another sleepless night just like this one, except this time instead of two hours I got no hours. I went to bed at 1:30 am and time flew by, so instead of getting 6 1/2 hours of sleep and waking up at 8 I'm now running on cup #1 of coffee which I'm sure will be followed by a few more. Since the last time this happened was less than two weeks ago I'm looking into over the counter sleeping pills. So far I've browsed CVS and found a bunch of pain relief/sleep inducing combos, but I already have an ibuprofen. Do any of you use sleep pills and/or could give me an idea of what to get? I'm considering Puralin because I saw a couple good reviews for it. I also noticed a lot of the brands had Melatonin in them, which I guess helps with sleep and weight loss? Hm...interesting, plus it's cheaper than most other diet pills, although I'm looking into Weider caffeine pills as well.
Speaking of diets and the like, I just entered Sunshinechild's Super Slim Down Competition (thank you for the tip Renee, you should do it with me!). I think what really motivated me these past few months was the CruzFit challenge I entered with my friends at college, so I think a bit of healthy competition would push me enough to start me back on the right track. Plus the girls who have entered so far are already really little with BMIs from 18-20. My BMI is about 25, and it's a common fact that the bigger you are the faster you lose weight. I'm in the high 120s and still have a bit of a jiggle to me, so I think I have a pretty good shot at doing really well, but I'm doing it first and foremost for the weight loss.
And another thing related to dieting...my dad made another comment last night that just kind of blew me away. I was holding my cat who has a history of eating problems. She regularly eats a whole bunch of dry food then drinks a ton of water, causing her to throw up. While holding her I could feel all of her vertebrae, so I said "Kitty you're so skinny; you're teaching me bad habits by puking up all of your food," to which my dad replied "Is that what you do?" I got all red and of course replied no because I don't. It's not that I find purging overtly disgusting (I've had so many days where I just wanted to purge to make the fullness go away), but I really cannot purge. I've purposely purged only once so I know I can get it all up if I want, but I take birth control pills and I can't risk puking one up and having it screw everything up and getting me preggers. I don't know what's wrong with my dad. I've been eating pretty well since I got back. I lose 15 lbs in 2 months, mostly due to many many hours at the gym, and he automatically thinks I'm starving myself. Hell, at college I eat about 25% of what I eat here and no one has caught on yet. They just say congrats on eating healthier and sticking to the gym and losing so much weight. I guess it's just him caring, but I don't know what he's going to do when I come back in June because I know I'll have lost more weight by then.
Wow, super long post. Sorry about that, I've just had so much going on in the past 12 hours. I'll probably be back later to rehash how my outing and family dinner go. I hope all you lovelies have a great day. =)
♥ Toni
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
t-t-t-Tuesday
I just want to say thank you all for putting up with my 2 a.m. freak out last night. Big shout out to Olivia Lee for always giving me words of encouragement. =)
Ok so in retrospect I really should have eaten before going to the gym today. I've had a headache ever since I got off the elliptical! At least I had a deficit of 710 calories to start the day. Alright so I'm not positive about this, but I think I'm starting to get that extra-sensory perception about other girls... Today while I was eating lunch with Aaron I saw this beautiful, thin girl come and sit down by herself and eat. All she had was a banana (which I didn't see her touch) and a small salad, which took her 15 minutes to eat. She ate very slowly and chewed a lot. What do you guys think?
So with my awesome 710 calorie burn today I got on the scale to see 132.5. Down a pound and a half. Woot! Lunch was ok. Lots of carbs. I had a small plate of spaghetti with red sauce (80 cal), a few bites of cheese ravioli (45 cal), 1/6 of a cheese quesadilla (they cut it up into little triangles, 100 cal), a smallish salad with veggies and 1 1/2 tbsp of ranch (150 cal), and a few bites of eggplant and a couple sips of Aaron's Shirley Temple (60 cal) for a lunch total of 435 calories. I wasn't planning on eating anything else but by the time dinner rolled around I gave in. I ended up with a fried fish fillet (130 cal), 5 tortilla chips with guacamole (85 cal), a small piece of apple strudel (70), and when I got back to my dorm Jenna gave me a Samoa (70 cal) for a dinner total of 355 calories. Add in the workout and you get 80 calories. What a relief.
I'm sorry to say I'm going to have to leave it at that. No thinspo today. =(
I have lots of reading to do for film class, plus I've yet to pick out a movie for my upcoming essay (due next Thursday!), so Netflix here I come.
Goodnight angels.
♥ Toni
Ok so in retrospect I really should have eaten before going to the gym today. I've had a headache ever since I got off the elliptical! At least I had a deficit of 710 calories to start the day. Alright so I'm not positive about this, but I think I'm starting to get that extra-sensory perception about other girls... Today while I was eating lunch with Aaron I saw this beautiful, thin girl come and sit down by herself and eat. All she had was a banana (which I didn't see her touch) and a small salad, which took her 15 minutes to eat. She ate very slowly and chewed a lot. What do you guys think?
So with my awesome 710 calorie burn today I got on the scale to see 132.5. Down a pound and a half. Woot! Lunch was ok. Lots of carbs. I had a small plate of spaghetti with red sauce (80 cal), a few bites of cheese ravioli (45 cal), 1/6 of a cheese quesadilla (they cut it up into little triangles, 100 cal), a smallish salad with veggies and 1 1/2 tbsp of ranch (150 cal), and a few bites of eggplant and a couple sips of Aaron's Shirley Temple (60 cal) for a lunch total of 435 calories. I wasn't planning on eating anything else but by the time dinner rolled around I gave in. I ended up with a fried fish fillet (130 cal), 5 tortilla chips with guacamole (85 cal), a small piece of apple strudel (70), and when I got back to my dorm Jenna gave me a Samoa (70 cal) for a dinner total of 355 calories. Add in the workout and you get 80 calories. What a relief.
I'm sorry to say I'm going to have to leave it at that. No thinspo today. =(
I have lots of reading to do for film class, plus I've yet to pick out a movie for my upcoming essay (due next Thursday!), so Netflix here I come.
Goodnight angels.
♥ Toni
Friday, January 28, 2011
1000 calories!!!
That's how much I burned at the gym today! I'm so happy, especially compared to what I ate today. For breakfast I had half a pancake with some syrup, a cup of cranberry juice, a small serving of scrambled eggs with some ham, and a small apple nut muffin. That was at 8:30 this morning and at 10 I had 4 tater tots. So between then and dinner I went to the gym and had an amazing workout. It was two hours very well spent, despite the fact that when I weighed myself I found that I had gained a pound. That disappointed me. For dinner though I had some sushi from this really great sushi shop. Not just your run of the mill california rolls, so I'm sure I added some calories, but I did stop myself from buying any snacks when I took a trip with some friends to Target today. Aisles and aisles of valentine's day candy not to mention the regular assortment of snacks, chips, and sweets.
And I have more good news. My friend has gotten a case of the cold and hasn't had the stomach for much food today, but I recommended some chai tea with Equal and a dollop of milk. It's all she's had so far today and I think got her hooked on the stuff. I feel bad that she's feeling under the weather, but she's also not the most confident about her body and at least the tea will slightly boost her metabolism.
So I'm currently getting ready to go out with Aaron. He's starving and found a coupon for a buy one get one free pizza at this place he really likes, although he assumed I'd be paying half because I'd be eating some. I swear to God he never listens when I tell him I'm on a diet or when I go to the gym. Oh well, I'll just have to keep up my resistance to junk food tonight. Wish me luck!
~Toni
And I have more good news. My friend has gotten a case of the cold and hasn't had the stomach for much food today, but I recommended some chai tea with Equal and a dollop of milk. It's all she's had so far today and I think got her hooked on the stuff. I feel bad that she's feeling under the weather, but she's also not the most confident about her body and at least the tea will slightly boost her metabolism.
So I'm currently getting ready to go out with Aaron. He's starving and found a coupon for a buy one get one free pizza at this place he really likes, although he assumed I'd be paying half because I'd be eating some. I swear to God he never listens when I tell him I'm on a diet or when I go to the gym. Oh well, I'll just have to keep up my resistance to junk food tonight. Wish me luck!
~Toni
Thursday, January 27, 2011
My week so far:
It's been a little hectic around here lately. Midterms are coming up and study time + homework has prevented me from going to the gym the past two days. I've been trying to cut down on my food intake and I think I'm doing alright. Yesterday's breakfast was probably the worst. I had half a Belgium waffles with butter, syrup and whipped cream. It was so delicious though. I haven't had a waffle in ages. I skipped lunch and instead had two bananas as snacks throughout the day, and for dinner I had some broccoli beef with white rice and a beef tamale. Today has been going much better so far. I didn't have time for breakfast so I rushed out the door with half a banana. I absolutely hate eating alone so when I went to sit down with some friends with my lentil soup and they all had to leave for class I left too with only 5 spoonfuls eaten from my bowl. Right now I'm currently enjoying a cup of green tea and anxiously awaiting my care package my mom is sending me, complete with an entire box of tea, toothpaste, cookies, brownies, laundry detergent, I think some candy, and whatever else she thinks I'll like. I'm so excited for it to come! My parents haven't sent me anything since I started college, so I'm really looking forward to this.
Other than that I thought it was time for some thinspo:
Other than that I thought it was time for some thinspo:
It's very nature inspired today.
Well if there's anything more to post I'll be back later. Just thought I'd let you all in on how I'm doing.
~Toni
Monday, January 24, 2011
Average Day
So today nothing out of the ordinary happened. I went to the gym around noon and burned another 750 calories. I walked a lap around the university track, did some ab workouts (I still need to do more; I didn't do my usual set), and did 65 minutes on the elliptical. Food today wasn't too bad. I had a banana and a banana nut muffin with some butter and a cup of orange juice for breakfast. For lunch I had a small cesar salad, a granola nut cookie, a small piece of carrot cake, and a piece of multi grain toast with butter. After class I had a snack of tortilla chips and guacamole and tried to eat a sugar cookie, but it was pretty gross so I only ate half. Other than that I just had a cup of green tea and tons of water and I plan on not eating anything else. I've been steadily losing a little weight each time I go to the gym, so hopefully I'll reach my next goal soon. Tomorrow I think I'll put in a good 2 hours at the gym, but until then it's homework, homework, homework.
~Toni
~Toni
Happy Monday
Grr not really. I wish I could have one more day to add on to my weekend. I was planning on going to the gym today, but I had some prior commitments that kept me from going, most notably homework and breaking ground on a film shoot that my RA is directing. I just didn't have time, but I'm going tomorrow after morning classes are over. But because I didn't work out I tried to keep my food intake to a minimum. For breakfast I had half a grapefruit with sugar, a banana, and a roll with some butter. For lunch I was rushed so I had maybe 1 1/2 cups of pasta (the big shell kind, not spaghetti) with marinara, and for dinner we went out to eat after the shoot and I got a simple hamburger with no cheese or onions. I think it was an ok day, but tomorrow should be better. It's pretty late though and my roommates are about to go to sleep. I just felt like I needed to blog tonight.
Goodnight Everyone,
~Toni
Goodnight Everyone,
~Toni
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Tights
So in lieu of going to the gym today because I just have so much work to do, I'm going to do some ab workouts later today. My diet so far today has consisted of half a grapefruit with sugar (my mom got worried when I told her I was using Equal so I switched), 2 slices of cantaloupe, and 1 medium-sized banana. For lunch all I had was a cup of grapes and also one banana. I think if I can abstain from eating not much else I'll be good, and tomorrow I'm planning on going to the gym around 2 or 3 and busting out at least 45 minutes on the elliptical, which should be around 500 calories for me. One thing I do want to talk about is tights, and one style in particular.
They're everywhere! I swear to god every single skinny
girl got together and decided to get a pair of these.
I've yet to see one on a girl that was over a size 3.
And all of these pictures are from my own thinspo alone! There must be dozens more around the net. So I've set this pair of tights as my prize for when I finally reach my UGW. I think I would be doing these stockings a disservice if I were to wear them as I am right now.
Well, if anything else exciting happens to me today, you'll be the first to know. If not, then I'll be back tomorrow.
~Toni
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
So Far Today is Meh
I'm having mixed feelings about the day so far. I got up at 8 am to go to the gym with some friends and worked out from 9-10. It was a pretty good workout too. I did the elliptical, some ab workouts and squats, and then got on a cycle. The problem is I mixed up the times of my classes on Tuesdays and Wednesdays, so instead of getting back on time, taking a shower, and getting to class by 11, I actually missed my 10 am class. Fuck.
But on a good note I did burn at least 350 calories at the gym. For breakfast beforehand I only had two small banana nut muffins because the dining hall saw fit to be out of actual bananas.
Aaaand on another bad note I don't seem to be losing much weight. At all. It's getting really frustrating, especially since I've been eating much less now that I'm back on campus than I was before break. I think it's because I intend to go on different eating regimens, a special event comes up, I screw up by eating too much, then instead of getting back on with the diet I had I just pick another. Blaghhhhh, I need to stop that. I will be going to the gym more often though since me, my friends Jenna and Liz, and my boyfriend Aaron signed up for a fitness program at the university. Pretty much all you do is keep track of the minutes you work out between now and March 20, and if all the team members do more than 1500 minutes you get free t-shirts and get entered into a raffle for some pretty good prizes like workout gear, bookstore gift cards, stuff like that. I'm pumped to see how many hours I can log.
But enough ranting, it's thinspo time. Lord knows I need it...
Until next time,
Toni
Edit: I almost forgot! I have two new followers. Thanks guys, that actually made my day a little brighter. =)
But on a good note I did burn at least 350 calories at the gym. For breakfast beforehand I only had two small banana nut muffins because the dining hall saw fit to be out of actual bananas.
Aaaand on another bad note I don't seem to be losing much weight. At all. It's getting really frustrating, especially since I've been eating much less now that I'm back on campus than I was before break. I think it's because I intend to go on different eating regimens, a special event comes up, I screw up by eating too much, then instead of getting back on with the diet I had I just pick another. Blaghhhhh, I need to stop that. I will be going to the gym more often though since me, my friends Jenna and Liz, and my boyfriend Aaron signed up for a fitness program at the university. Pretty much all you do is keep track of the minutes you work out between now and March 20, and if all the team members do more than 1500 minutes you get free t-shirts and get entered into a raffle for some pretty good prizes like workout gear, bookstore gift cards, stuff like that. I'm pumped to see how many hours I can log.
But enough ranting, it's thinspo time. Lord knows I need it...
Until next time,
Toni
Edit: I almost forgot! I have two new followers. Thanks guys, that actually made my day a little brighter. =)
Friday, January 14, 2011
I Need a Fresh Start
So #1. I'm sorry I haven't posted in a week. I've been so busy with the start of school I haven't had much time to be on my laptop at all. And #2 I feel like shit. The past week has been the same every single day: I eat a piece of fruit (a banana or 1/2 a grapefruit) and a cup of tea, then something light for lunch (soup or salad), then spaz and eat pizza or a burger for dinner. And to top ot off, today my boyfriend said I had a chubby face! I mean, he said he wouldn't like it if I had a slim face, but it stung just the same, so I'm extra determined to get back on track. I've started a 3-day-a-week workout regimine with my friend at the university gym, and I'm going to try starting a raw fruit/vegetable diet. So mostly fresh fruit and salads. I've been good on drinking a lot of water and tea thus far, and I may start doing that MK point system. Meh, I'll see how it goes, but first I have to start off with 8 hours of sleep. I did want to post some thinspo, but I'm super tired, so I'll post some later in the day. Oh and I noticed I have a new follower. Thank you! =)
Good night all,
Toni
Good night all,
Toni
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Hello All =)
So I noticed today that I have 3 new followers! Thank you guys for taking the time to follow and read my blog. It really does make my day when I see that people are interested in what I have to say, and really you guys are the only ones I can talk to about what I'm going through. Sure I can make a comment or two in passing to my friends, but I certainly can't tell them to check out my blog. So the 3-Day Diet hasn't been working out that well. I've been doing ok with breakfast and lunch. It's dinner that has been neing a bitch to me. I just can't stop myself from eating a full plate of pasta and then a brownie. Ugh it's so frustrating! The good news is that I'm sick with a sore throat. Well, maybe it's not so great but it does mean that solid food makes me want to puke, so I'm sticking to a strictly water, tea, and soup diet. All I've had so far today is 2 cups of green tea, 2 cups of water, and about 120 calories' worth of vegan chili. It feels ok, but I'm learning to dislike the feeling of being full. The problem is I don't like the feeling of being hungry yet either. I'm going to have to find a good balance between filling myself up with liquid and just enough food to tie me over through the day.
But to end on a good note I'm posting more thinspo. =)
But to end on a good note I'm posting more thinspo. =)
Love these legs!:
Monday, January 3, 2011
Day 1 of the 3-Day Diet
I feel like I've eaten so much! I had to improvise on a few things because the dining hall wasn't fully stocked with the food they normally have. So here's what the first day is supposed to look like:
Breakfast:Black Coffee or Tea w/1-2 packets of Sweet & Low or Equal
1/2 Grapefruit or Juice
1 piece of Toast with 1 Tbsp.Peanut Butter
Lunch:
1/2 Cup of Tuna
1 Toast
Black Coffee or Tea w/1-2 packets of Sweet & Low or Equal (optional)
Dinner:
3 Oz. any lean meat or chicken
1 cup green beans or other green vegetable
1 cup carrots
1 apple
1 cup regular vanilla ice cream (optional)
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I had...
Brunch
2 cups of water
1/2 cup of green tea with 1 packet of Equal
1 piece of sweet french bread toast with peanut butter
1 green apple
Snack
1 sheet of dried, salted seaweed
Dinner
1 cup of water
1/2 stalk of celery
2 pieces of steamed broccoli with salt and pepper
2 oz beef roast
1 piece of sourdough bread toast with margerine
1 macademia nut cookie
2 redvines
I kind of mixed lunch and dinner together, and I did a little walking downtown so I might
be fine. I just feel so full.
But anyway, I said I'd put up some thinspo today, and here it is:
So that's it for today I think. I don't think I'll be eating anything else today,
but if I do I'll update the post.
Have a great night,
Toni
P.S. - I'm messing around with the look of the blog. I think it looks ok this way, but I
may tweak a few more things.
Breakfast:Black Coffee or Tea w/1-2 packets of Sweet & Low or Equal
1/2 Grapefruit or Juice
1 piece of Toast with 1 Tbsp.
Lunch:
1/2 Cup of Tuna
1 Toast
Black Coffee or Tea w/1-2 packets of Sweet & Low or Equal (optional)
Dinner:
3 Oz. any lean meat or chicken
1 cup green beans or other green vegetable
1 cup carrots
1 apple
1 cup regular vanilla ice cream (optional)
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I found another picture of that girl Harlow and I like:
I'm not sure if I like it as much as the other one, but her body still looks perfect.
I wish my legs looked this good in metallic leggings:
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Today Was Kind of a Big Day
I got my first follower! Thank you. =)
And my first comment, also a thank you. Your support means a lot, plus I feel like I'm no longer writing in a diary to myself. ^__^
So today I came back to college, and so far it's been nice. Almost no one, including my boyfriend, is back yet. Out of about 40 floor mates only 6 are back, but no doubt the rest will be here tomorrow. I'm kind of excited for this quarter, but I'm sure it'll be harder than fall quarter. I think the biggest change is the fact that I'm taking my weight seriously now. One of the first things I did when I got to Santa Cruz was buy a scale. I get so off track if I don't have a number to rely on. Also I've decided to commit to my own version of the 3-day diet for 6 days and fast on the 7th.
Here's the meal plan with my changes in red:
Instructions:
Drink at least 4 glasses of water a day.
You can add any of these spices and condiments: salt, herbs, lemon, pepper, vinegar, Worcestershire, soy sauce, mustard & ketchup to your foods.
Day 1:
Breakfast:
Black Coffee or Tea w/1-2 packets of Sweet & Low or Equal
1/2 Grapefruit or Juice
1 piece of Toast with 1 Tbsp. Peanut Butter
Lunch:
1/2 Cup of Tuna
1 Toast
Black Coffee or Tea w/1-2 packets of Sweet & Low or Equal (optional)
Dinner:
3 Oz. any lean meat or chicken
1 cup green beans or other green vegetable
1 cup carrots
1 apple
1 cup regular vanilla ice cream (optional)
Day 2:
Breakfast:
Black coffee or tea w/1-2 packets of Sweet & Low or Equal
1 Egg
1/2 Banana
1 piece of Toast
Lunch:
1 cup cottage cheese or tuna
8 regular saltine crackers
Dinner:
2 beef franks
1 cup broccoli or cabbage or any steamed vegetable
1/2 cup carrots
1/2 banana
1/2 cup regular vanilla ice cream (optional)
Day 3:
Breakfast:
Black coffee or tea w/1-2 packets of Sweet & Low or Equal
5 regular saltine crackers
1 oz. cheddar cheese (optional)
1 apple
Lunch:
1 boiled egg
1 toast
Black coffee or tea w/1-2 packets of Sweet & Low or Equal (optional)
Dinner:
1 cup tuna
1 cup carrots
1 cup cauliflower or other raw vegetable
1 cup melon
1/2 cup regular vanilla ice cream (optional)
Repeat once, fast on the 7th day
So yeah, wish me luck on that one. I think it's easy enough to stick to, except for the 2 hot dogs. I've tried the ABC diet in the past, but I'm terrible about keeping track of calories. I just try to eat as little as possible. I started out ok today with an egg white omelet and fruit, but I skipped lunch and wolfed down an entire pepperoni calzone and cake batter ice cream. I'll be lucky if it's not over 2500 calories.
So I've been trying to find some new thinspo to inspire me that hasn't circulated as well around the blogging community, but it's difficult. Once an image is out there, it's pretty much used to it's maximum, and it doesn't help that only a very small percentage of thinspo appeals to me. I prefer real girl, not too skinny (as in being able to see all of the ribs), and with at least one body part on display. I gravitate towards bikini photos, mirror pictures, stuff like that, and never before/after shots. They are inspiring, but I quite like end results more.
I did try to post a few pictues, but they got cut off. I promise they'll go up tomorrow, though. There are some that I just love.
Well I'm tired. I woke up at 7 am and I need sleep!
Good night all,
Toni
And my first comment, also a thank you. Your support means a lot, plus I feel like I'm no longer writing in a diary to myself. ^__^
So today I came back to college, and so far it's been nice. Almost no one, including my boyfriend, is back yet. Out of about 40 floor mates only 6 are back, but no doubt the rest will be here tomorrow. I'm kind of excited for this quarter, but I'm sure it'll be harder than fall quarter. I think the biggest change is the fact that I'm taking my weight seriously now. One of the first things I did when I got to Santa Cruz was buy a scale. I get so off track if I don't have a number to rely on. Also I've decided to commit to my own version of the 3-day diet for 6 days and fast on the 7th.
Here's the meal plan with my changes in red:
Instructions:
Drink at least 4 glasses of water a day.
You can add any of these spices and condiments: salt, herbs, lemon, pepper, vinegar, Worcestershire, soy sauce, mustard & ketchup to your foods.
Day 1:
Breakfast:
Black Coffee or Tea w/1-2 packets of Sweet & Low or Equal
1/2 Grapefruit or Juice
1 piece of Toast with 1 Tbsp. Peanut Butter
Lunch:
1/2 Cup of Tuna
1 Toast
Black Coffee or Tea w/1-2 packets of Sweet & Low or Equal (optional)
Dinner:
3 Oz. any lean meat or chicken
1 cup green beans or other green vegetable
1 cup carrots
1 apple
1 cup regular vanilla ice cream (optional)
Day 2:
Breakfast:
Black coffee or tea w/1-2 packets of Sweet & Low or Equal
1 Egg
1/2 Banana
1 piece of Toast
Lunch:
1 cup cottage cheese or tuna
8 regular saltine crackers
Dinner:
2 beef franks
1 cup broccoli or cabbage or any steamed vegetable
1/2 cup carrots
1/2 banana
1/2 cup regular vanilla ice cream (optional)
Day 3:
Breakfast:
Black coffee or tea w/1-2 packets of Sweet & Low or Equal
5 regular saltine crackers
1 oz. cheddar cheese (optional)
1 apple
Lunch:
1 boiled egg
1 toast
Black coffee or tea w/1-2 packets of Sweet & Low or Equal (optional)
Dinner:
1 cup tuna
1 cup carrots
1 cup cauliflower or other raw vegetable
1 cup melon
1/2 cup regular vanilla ice cream (optional)
Repeat once, fast on the 7th day
So yeah, wish me luck on that one. I think it's easy enough to stick to, except for the 2 hot dogs. I've tried the ABC diet in the past, but I'm terrible about keeping track of calories. I just try to eat as little as possible. I started out ok today with an egg white omelet and fruit, but I skipped lunch and wolfed down an entire pepperoni calzone and cake batter ice cream. I'll be lucky if it's not over 2500 calories.
So I've been trying to find some new thinspo to inspire me that hasn't circulated as well around the blogging community, but it's difficult. Once an image is out there, it's pretty much used to it's maximum, and it doesn't help that only a very small percentage of thinspo appeals to me. I prefer real girl, not too skinny (as in being able to see all of the ribs), and with at least one body part on display. I gravitate towards bikini photos, mirror pictures, stuff like that, and never before/after shots. They are inspiring, but I quite like end results more.
I did try to post a few pictues, but they got cut off. I promise they'll go up tomorrow, though. There are some that I just love.
Well I'm tired. I woke up at 7 am and I need sleep!
Good night all,
Toni
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