Damn Tacos

Hi everyone, I hope you're all having a lovely Wednesday. So far my day has consisted of nothing but class and required reading, although after this post I'll be watching the rest of Invasion of the Body Snatchers (1978). It's one of the films I'm considering writing about for my film essay (which I just found out is due in two weeks, not one). You know, aliens as a representation of communism during the Cold War, the idea of conforming to society, yadda yadda yadda. Actually I think it should be a lot more fun than my last essay since it's my choice.

I've been starting to notice lately that my restriction mindset is finally starting to really kick in. I'm starting to feel my jeans get much looser, my belts are starting to notch tighter, the cellulite in my legs is getting less noticeable, and I can start to feel actual abs underneath the inch or so of fat I have in my belly. My weight is continuing to go down. Sometimes when I get up too fast I get lightheaded. I decline going to the dining hall half the time I'm asked. I'm feeling happier about my body, but I'm also verbally stating my happiness to others. Once I've lost another 5, 10, 15 pounds people will notice. I need to start flying under the radar when it comes to weight or else I'm sure someone will ask about it. I'm not sure if it was a mistake to tell Aaron I want to someday be 112 pounds as he likes my bigger body, but I think I reassured him when I said the healthy BMI range for my height is between 95 and 127 lbs, and I'm currently 5 lbs over that.

I had no time to go to the gym today, but I did do some intense stretching (if there is such a thing) for 20 minutes. At least it burned some calories - about 65. I really wanted my intake to be under 500 today, and it would have been if I hadn't eaten a damn taco and chips for dinner. Lunch was light-ish. I had 3 pieces of sushi (110 cal), a ciabatta roll (I think; it closely resembled ciabatta) (160 cal), a small salad with 1 1/2 tbsp ranch dressing (120 cal), and 3 bites of mac-n-cheese (30) for a lunch total of 420 calories. Between that and dinner I had a mint and a stick of gum (10 cal). I was planning on forgoing dinner altogether, so I have no idea why I ate. The food wasn't even that great. Well I already said I had a taco (150 cal) and a couple of tortilla chips with guacamole (60 cal), plus a few spoonfuls of veggie rice soup (25 cal) for a dinner total of 235 calories. Total for the day was 665 minus the 65 calories I burned comes to 600 calories. Hmph. Not good enough today. Well if I can I'll be going to the gym tomorrow and restricting as much as I can (but I'm definitely going to eat beforehand this time).

Alright, time for everyone's favorite part, thinspo!

I can't wait to roll my cotton shorts 3 or 4

times and my huge badonkadonk not peek out.

So much space between those thighs!

If you guessed that today's theme is girls with cute butts, then you are correct! Thin girls (if they aren't stuck with flat or square butts) almst always have a cute little bubble butt. I've always wanted one, but I've been stuck with my mom's bootylicious genes for as long as I can remember.

Wishing a wonderful evening to all,

♥ Toni

P.S. - How could I forget?! Hello to my new followers. =)

Thank you for your support and joining me on this journey, it means a lot. ^__^