Wednesday, March 30, 2011
I feel like a failure. I am a failure.
Up until an hour ago I was good. My limit today is 450. I had whittled my intake down to 350. Then for some stupid reason I had the bright idea to go eat! What the FUCK was I thinking?! I just saw all the food and didn't stop. My intake is now somewhere around 900. Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck. And then I tried to bring it back up. I got about 8 heaves in when I threw in the towel and said "fuck it." I can still feel the fullness. It's nauseating. Tomorrow is a NO CALORIE day. No food. Fast. A total fast. Tea and water ONLY. Maybe then I can shrink this fat ass. God dammit, and I was doing so well. I fail at restricting and I fail at binge correction. Ugh!